Lately I find myself at a loss for words. I'm finding it harder to offer help. It's not that I don't want to, it's just that I am finding it hard to relate to others' problems. So I find myself at a loss for words. I totally understand the depression / anxiety pryor to starting transition and the coming out process. What I'm having a problem with is someone feeling depressed after starting their transition.
Its not that I don't feel sympathtic towards them, I just can not relate to feeling that way.
Since I started HRT, I find myself totally at peace within myself. Yes I have times where I find myself upset, but now that is caused by an external sorce not internal strife. And now I am able to handle the things that bother me. I can't even remember how depressed I was pryor to starting HRT. I know I was in a bad way. I do remember thinking of killing myself. But those feelings are so far behind me now that they seem more like a bad dream I once had and not something I once felt.
I guess what I am trying to say is hang in there. Things will get better, just give it time.
Hugs to all,
Bethany Dawn
Life comes in cycles Beth.
Yesterday, I was able to polish off 3 models I have been trying to complete for years.
I have gone weeks of humdrum and then suddenly a burst of accomplishment.
I find the same happens in everything.
Some months I want to get rid of the internet, as everything about it angers me, and then some months I can't see how I could do without it.
Some days I am full of anger, and some days I am on top of the world.
And some days it is that time of the month, and it's best to just not be near me :)