Hello, my name is HawlSera, real name Jessica, birth name Kyle, you may know me from my work in the Metamor Keep, Paradise, and FreeRIDE shared universe settings or you might not. I live in North Carolina, Castle Hayne. (My IP Address won't reflect that because I'm posting this from my father's house who lives up in virginia, he's very supportive)
That's not important, what is important is that I've been on hormones for two years. Seeing a therapist and an endologist. I am quite poor, living off of welfare while trying (seemingly in vain) to find a job to support me while I go to college to become a welder.
My passion in life is writing and my greatest dream is to be a woman. I've wanted this ever since I was a little girl in a little boy's body. Being a non-op is a torment to no end, while it's a huge step up from being a man, I feel so close, yet so far away from my dream.
Currently I'm trying to get SRS, but without money and resources to know what the hell I'm supposed to do to get SRS (my therapist isn't too sure either, most of her patients are non-op, simply due to monetary reasons or they feel "okay" with their private parts)
I'm talking with Satori International about preperations to go to Thailand and I asked a doctor in Florida, but got no response from the latter, and have yet to hear back from the former outside of the "Hi Jessica, thanks for your interest."
I don't know what I need to prepare myself medically, or anything really. I don't even know how to afford it, but let me tell you. I'd rather go into bankruptcy and be a completely female hobo than remain a non-op with a roof over her head. It hurts to be this way, it hurts really really bad.
I'm sorry if I offend anyone, I'm not meaning to imply that non-ops aren't "true women", not at all. Whatever floats your boat. I merely mean to imply that my anatomy makes me very unhappy and sometimes I feel as though I would much rather not have a body at all than continue to have a penis.
A lot of ladies on this forum have gotten SRS, and so I was hoping for support and to be helped through the process.
Pretty soon I'll be hosting a Christmas fundraiser for my SRS, presently I have 1,220 dollars saved up for Medical Purposes and I've been using light payments with a credit card in order to increase my credit score for a loan in the future. Additionally as stated I've been looking for a job so that I can add to that Medical Purposes Fund and help feed myself as I go through College.
Merry Christmas, Happy Hannukah, Happy Kwanza.
Thank you in advance for your support
Welcome to the family girl! I love your name by the way. *giggle* This is a great family full of knowledge, caring and some fun. You now have over 8,000 brothers and sisters who can relate to you. I look forward to meeting you in the postings. Here is a "BIG HUG" to start your new life with us. :)