Hi :D
Ive been a member for a few days here and I thought I should properly introduce myself.
My name is Philina Im a 19 years old half time mtf transexual.
Just like many of us I was struggling with myself for the past years if not all my life, even when I realised what was really happening to me, I still took my time before coming out , I was only scared...
But with the help from people like you I managed to end my agony and actually feel hope about my future :)
So I came out to my mother last year and started seeing a gender therapist , things werent going well cause my mom was in a huge denial and my therapist would only give me antidepressants telling me that there is a long way till hormones ( meh ) , even though I was sad I was determind to not give up so I changed therapist and tried to convince my mom to accept me, as it turned out this decision was a success...
my mom accepted me and my therapist helped me to start building my new self and life...
To make a long story short I have been taking antiandrogens for a month now and on a couple of days Ill start estrogens...
Im very glad ,in fact I dont think I ve ever felt that happy before :)
So I wonder are we cursed or actually blessed?
The hapiness of being yourself after living in despare for years ,its the best kind of happiness... especially when people support you :)
My dream is to be able to live a normal life as a girl , nothing more , I dont care if im rich or poor or anything else, only that.
As of my hobbies , I enjoy video games (there I could be a girl as long as i want :/ ) , playing the guitar and anything it has to do with japan (music, anime , language etc)
Nice to meet you all, Im gonna leave you with a song I wrote when I was at my darkest moments , I hope you like it.
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=a-hR24wKtd0
Hi Philina, welcome to Susan's Place! I live near Boston. See you around the site (well, we already have! ) :laugh:
Hugs, Devlyn
Welcome to Susan's, Philina.
:)
Warm greetings Philina. I listened to your song and must say I enjoy it. I like the build up and then drop off near the end. It's like a question. Then the finish is like a we'll wait and see.
Here's a song I made some time ago during a rough night. It took me a fews days to make, but the day I actually finished it when I was at my saddest. Enjoy but mostly though welcome to the family with lots of love.
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=a1SrXZwBBGw (https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=a1SrXZwBBGw)
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