So I ran into my older brother today and was glad to see him. He was with his boyfriend said hi and was in a bit of a hurry so we exchanged new numbers and was on our way. That got me to thinking and I looked on my Facebook and no one else in my family has me added anymore. I've grown so distant from my family in the past two years and it's mostly because they shun me. I don't fall into their standards of popularity nor do I do anything to make them look good in other ppls eyes. My grandmother was the worst when it came to mistreatment and would repeatedly tell me I should not be living. Lately I feel distance from my mother as well even though she has been there for me through everything I feel she's grown tired of fighting for me and has pulled away with the rest of the family. All I've wanted my whole life was to have my family's love, support, and acceptance and it hurts that I don't. I just wanna give up. I wanna just disappear so I'll stop "disgracing" the family. I wanna stop hurting and hating myself. I wanna be happy.
Well for me family are the people who love me and care about me no matter what...
In my life I know people who have completly no ralationship with their families, for several reasons...but you know what they did , they found new people in their lives and created new families :) and their happy now...
So if your family really doesnt care about you then I wouldnt call them family, I think you should move on, dont give up you dont disgrace them , transitioning has that kind of risk , if you think you can make up with them then try , but if not just move on...
You cant change anything if you are not prepare to make sacrifices...
At least thats what I think