Within the past few months I've managed to explore my sexuality more so and I'm coming to realize that I'm gay. I've had experiences with both sexes and I can really only date women or feminine queer people. I've had an experience with a guy and couldn't get anywhere because not only wasn't I attracted to him but thought the more sexual we got the grosser it was. Then a month later I had a fling with a girl and everything about that just felt right and I was able to be comfortable with her, it didn't work out for other reasons though but we are friends at least. For the longest time I felt very pressured by my friends to not be bi but a gay man because I was always pretty flamboyant and somewhat feminine. It drove me nuts, I find guys aesthetically attractive but not much more beyond that, I'd cuddle with anyone lol. I felt for the longest time that everyone but me was trying to define my sexuality until now that I've freed myself of such pressures. I find it ironic that my sexuality but not my gender is so very fluid and hard to know for me.
sexuality is a tough one. I've seen my self totally female since day one, but then it gets pretty scrambled. I love both
sexuality is a tough one.
I see myself as a woman, therefore lesbian. I have had relationships when I was a crossdresser, which don't count. After starting HRT I have gone on dates with lesbians, but nothing really happened.
I have actually had a boyfriend too, we dated for about 9 months.. he was okay with me, and we were even intimate a number of times. We actually broke up over my plans to have SRS.. He disagreed and said I should not get it as I will loose something that makes me special. I enjoyed been the woman in the relationship and being his girlfriend. I loved making myself pretty for him and wearing something sexy for him. He bought me a very sexy pair of pjs, which I did wear for him when he slept over.
So I am bisexual, as I am still attracted to women, I want to have a lesbian relationship after SRS, but I would not mind being a boyfriend to a man as I want to test out my vagina with a man, once its installed and healed.
I've been every sexuality. Its a funny thing when you add in hormones into the mix. However I now consider myself a straight female and only into straight men.
I don't worry about such things anymore. I'll just go with pansexual. I seem to be attracted to people who have "it", and that could be anyone along the gender spectrum. I guess it's moot because I have an awesome wife, but we both seem to find androgynous guys attractive. And Josh Holloway.
Hell, I'm trans* and therefore beyond queer anyway. Whom I'm attracted to is just in the noise.
Don't worry about labels, just live. When I did that a lot opened up for me such as acceptance and the loss of guilt. I feel much better about myself now. :)