I know there is an active thread titled, "Happy". But it does not cover what I wish to cover.
I am happy!
Is anyone else happy?
I came out to my family with resounding success. I could tell stories. I may later if asked.
I am self actualizing.
My wife loves me.
I am happy. No joke. Not pretending.
Tell your happy stories.
:)
I too am very happy within myself.
I feel as if I am getting to see who I might become for the first time ever. Being on HRT is making me feel like my mind & emotions are finally going through the puberty denied them while my body was maturing as a male in my teens. 44 may be a little late to start 'growing up', but at least I have started.
My wife has been amazingly supportive throughout this entire past year of heartwrenching disclosure and continues to amaze me every day with her fortitude & acceptance.
My life is far from perfect. Many things are not as I would wish them to be. Being trans is not one of those things.
Today is a good day. I am happy to be me, without agonizing over trying to define 'me'.
The future is looking hopeful. Today, I am happy :)
Tessa
Im pretty happy today...i found a full ammo can of 5.56 today at my local gun store and it wasn't marked up to the point of price gouging this time.
I have been happy ever since I started E 3 months ago today, Yay another reason to be happy.
I am starting to see effects of E and loving every day.
Getting fitter running and riding, and have bouncing babies steadily growing.
Enjoying my new bike and getting nice carbon fibre wheels for it at the end of the month. It will be one very nice bike soon.
I am so looking forward to this year.
I deliberately don't post things that made me unhappy, no point dwelling on them.
Jen
I am happy at times. Like right now; I just want to get up and sing and dance. But overall, I don't think I'm a happy person yet. I'll get there.
Quote from: Willow on January 02, 2014, 02:32:35 AM
I am happy at times. Like right now; I just want to get up and sing and dance. But overall, I don't think I'm a happy person yet. I'll get there.
same here...
Yeah, I'm pretty happy :)
Being myself and living life the right way for the first time in my life, and have started the year the year the right way. What more could I ask for? :)
I am happier than ever before in my life. I am happy to be afforded the chance to be myself in body, mind, and spirit. I am happy to have come out and begin transition. I'm extraordinarily happy to have started HRT (and feel better, with even more happiness to come). I'm happy that the pain of T is significantly reduced and will soon be gone.
I am happy to have three wonderful children in my life. I am happy to have a good home. I'm happy to have a tolerant, if confused, family who are at least pointed down the path to acceptance. I'm happy to have a job I love with management who accepts my path and is working with me to walk down it. I'm happy for the protections in place that allow me to walk this path at work and in the community.
I also have more sadness than ever before in my life. Coming out has caused my wife extreme pain that she will probably not completely recover from. It has caused pain in my family, with a very unaccepting brother-in-law. It has caused me pain through exclusion and the marginalization I feel from it.
Before the difference between happy and sad was so slight that it didn't matter. Overall I was happy with my life but I couldn't feel that happiness very strongly. At the same time, I was very unhappy with my self. I had more, but I was living by hiding the truth from myself. My happiness and pain were equal.
Now, the difference between happy and sad is great. I have more sadness now because I can feel it more strongly and because of the amount of pain I've caused others. I have far greater happiness now and can actually feel it where it was muted to almost nothing before.
I've come a long way in a short time... there's more pain ahead and I will need to be strong, but there's also much, much greater happiness ahead than I ever had possible before.
I began writing this post earlier, but got down to the bottom, hadn't reached the end of my 'happiness rant', explaining that I had more unhappy things than happy, but that overall I was still happy.
I'll just say this; I can be depressed over the physical problems I'm experiencing most of my waking hours, but just as often, I'll catch a glimpse of my pretty hands, pink nails and cute bracelets. I'll look down at my feet, usually clad in tights or hose and cute shoes. I wear a dress everyday, and I know some of you are probably shaking your head, thinking "That woman's crazy" or something similar, but I do it for reasons of both comfort and optical illusion I need because of a terribly botched surgery. Enough said on that. But the best part of my life is being accepted as the woman I am, any and everywhere I go, by my "Very Significant Other," the true love of my life, by friends, relatives and strangers. I sometimes feel very pretty (for my age) and sometimes I feel as if I was the model for Picasso's most deformed women. Still, the mirror is one of my best friends, because every time I see one I see Miranda looking back at me and that makes me happier than my paltry words can possibly express. Life is finally L I F E ! ! ! , not existence. Hugs, Mira
P.S. I love makeup, shoes, dresses, skirts, and my honey, Dean!
What a great thread, Tori :)
I am happy!
There are still a lot of unresolved issues for me, but this last 10 months since I finally began to give in to the truth, and especially the last 10 weeks since I finally came out have been the ones I have felt most alive in my whole life.
You only get one shot at life so you may as we'll enjoy it :D
I'm just so happy I finally get to be myself....and that my cat loves to keep me company in the morning as I watch bad tv before going to work :)
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I was going to start a thread today about 'happy'. I'll just add to yours. Just about everything in my transition has been happy, but yesterday I just had good news all day.
I have a wonderful endo who actually calls me, from his desk, after monthly bloodwork. Last month he had some concerns about low (as in zero) T, we adjusted. Four months ago we went aggressive on the E, to jumpstart some changes that were behind in development. (boobies)
Yesterday he called, and he was pleased we were right on our target numbers (as in genetic female) I was so pleased. Good news #1!
After a big boost in E a while back, my boobies finally started responding. Soreness, itching etc. For years I have worn a 38b bra with forms. A couple of months ago I ditched the forms, and started wearing some small enhancers only. Yesterday, I put the cutlets in my bra, and they just felt like they were squishing my booblets, so I went without. I was almost completely filling the bra!!! I tried on about five bras, well I'll be damned...I have boobs! I put on a snug t-shirt, braless, and stood in front of a mirror. How the heck did I not notice these? Good news#2
With some Christmas money, a small inheritance, and some serious saving, I booked five appointments for laser yesterday, and a consult with a very good surgeon for a little facial work. I was going to book a boob job, but now that they're growing noticeably, I'll hold off to see where they are going by themselves. I can afford that, and still have a bit in the SRS fund. Good news #3
I need to celebrate. Victoria's Secret here I come!
I am happy for sure .I am blessed with a wife and daughter who supports me for who im becoming .I have the wizdom to enjoy where i am at in my life .Yes it took almost 50 years to find the girl in me ! If you look for the good chances are you will see more of it .when your down ask for a hand theres some one that most likely will lift you up . IF NOT TEXT SOMEONE HERE AND I BET THEY WILL .I have been on dark side of the mental train and come back .Theres always help for no matter how bad you think it is .Life is journey live it.Learn from it.Love your self and then love the world or at least small part of it. You do have to feel pain /hurt/rejection/self doubt .But learn from it and become stronger and smarter .I find its easyer to smile than be a ass .{unless i am pms girl } If only a girl could sense your about to enter the PMS ZONE !Oh yea my wife just showed me our new bedspread .Its got a pink bows in it .A year ago if someone would of told me i would be setting here with grin on my face about all this stuff . ?? Life is roller coaster so hold on and pick bugs out of your smile . Thanks Troi