I'm on day 10 of a very heavy shark week. It is not great.
Nothing is wrong at all other than I feel like I just really need to cry but can't. I'm not even sad. It is bizarre. I feel the emotion start to well up, but then it doesn't come out.
I just want the relief of crying to get it over with. This is aggravating. I wish there was something I could do about this.
I cry much less since I started T and quite honestly I'm glad. I hated the feeling of being an "emotional woman". Sorry to hear you're having a tough time something though and havent found a proper coping method. I exercise quite a lot, though its required of me, I still find a lot of relief in my 3x a day workouts. I know another transguy that played video games as his release. Try to find an alternative release as well since crying doesn't seem to be an option at this point, it'll help.
I am hoping this is just shark week's one last hurrah and that is what the deal is, as in conflict between TOM moodiness and testosterone emotional blocks. I like my emotional range for the most part, but only when I can actually access it. I don't want to be weepy though.
Distractions are a good idea, thanks.
Quote from: spacerace on January 09, 2014, 02:21:30 PM
I'm on day 10 of a very heavy shark week. It is not great.
Nothing is wrong at all other than I feel like I just really need to cry but can't. I'm not even sad. It is bizarre. I feel the emotion start to well up, but then it doesn't come out.
I just want the relief of crying to get it over with. This is aggravating. I wish there was something I could do about this.
Before I started T, I used to read guys' accounts of this phenomenon (not being able to cry easily or at all) and honestly thought it was psychological and otherwise not possible. But when I started T, I was proven wrong - it takes a pretty shocking and hugely emotional disaster to get a tear out of me. I think that this is a pretty common experience amongst trans* guys taking T - I don't know why or how it happens, but it is factual.