really my dreaming has been very vivd, mostly cuz i've been sleeping in so often. my mind wanders and i start getting vivid dreams. but teh last ones have been really nice but really triggering.
the first one, I was able to feel my voice. and it was a deep male voice, but it sounded like mine, i could feel it in my chest physically and i loved it so much, i was highly disappointed when i finally did wake up and it didn't match.
picturing myself as male has become easier. i've also had dreams where im doing simple everyday tasks like hugging my relatives or going to get food or something and i'll be a guy, usually just walking around shirtless.
and i supose it makes sense, lately, with my wardrobe change, i double take int eh mirror because i really do look male, and it's odd that all of a sudden it seems i can see it. i can feel a clearer sense of my identity as male physically.
just wanted to share. any of you guys have those kinds of vivid dreams where it's YOU. how you are and how you want to be.
I had a dream awhile back where my body was definitely male. Waking up with my body still the way it is (pre-surgery, pre-T) was a terrible disappointment.
Never noticed it before but in the dreams where I'm myself, I'm flat chested. Unless it's one of those "holy s--- my chest is suddenly huge" nightmares.
A lot of my dreams are in the POV of some guy. Not "me", but just some random dude.
It's always a relief when I'm binding, and see a guy in the mirror. Sure, he looks maybe half my age, but it's a start.
Quote from: blink on January 10, 2014, 10:00:31 AM
Unless it's one of those "holy s--- my chest is suddenly huge" nightmares.
I've had one of those, though it involved a wizard casting spells and there was some other person with a crazy snake like tail.
Quote from: Alexthecat on January 10, 2014, 10:49:09 AM
I've had one of those, though it involved a wizard casting spells and there was some other person with a crazy snake like tail.
That wizard is a jerk if they are running around casting chest-embiggening spells on unwilling folks.
Do you also have dreams where all of a sudden, despite
just having a haircut, your hair is long? Like it refuses to be short or something. Bizarre.
I remember my dreams every night and have vivid dreams a couple days a week so I understand this. I usually either don't have have a gender in my dreams, unless of course I'm having sex dreams in which case I'm always a male and usually in my dreams I'm stealth but still afraid my partner will find out I'm not cis.
Haven't had a hair dream, probably because it's been short for years and I was the one to cut it. Though my mom has told me she has had dreams where her hair was cut off when it was really long. I imagine it would be the opposite for guys who focus on their hair. Cis girls are very unwilling to cut their really hair. Still can't get my grandma to let me buzz it lol.
I remember a specific dream where I was a father. That was the most magnificent dream. Or the dreams where my body matched my mind. Those are the kinds of dreams that give you hope and make everything worth fighting for
From the other side of the coin. I had a beautiful dream not too long ago where I was working in an office. I was walking around working in this great black up to the knees dress. My hips were just right. The dress fit perfectly. I walked around the office and as I walked by people they gave me a thumbs up. Great dream if you mtf.
The only dream I can vividly remember myself being in was meeting an old teacher of mine, and getting the chance to explain that I'm still alive, better than I was when he knew me, and that one of the major reasons I was so depressed then was due to dysphoria which I had fixed as far as possible. I suppose I came out of it feeling the same as if sponsor would if their parents had been very accepting, only tinged with the sadness that it'll never happen for real.
In most of my dreams I'm viewing them in first person so I don't have many clues to my body, or if I do know it's because I'm battling something trans related, usually names or the like.
I haven't really dreamed recently, but I used to always have dreams and in them my body would be right. I don't really have first person view dreams. In most of them where I was right, I always looked like some dissimilar guy but I knew he was me.
I guess the most interesting one I had was where I first got lost in some department store and then later, this guy who I presume was some sort of father figure to me was teaching me how to aim my pee outside in some abandoned place. It was kind of funny. :D
@BGLW hust saying, your avatar is pretty damn awesome, love ff9. just wanted to say that XD
I've also had dreams where i explain to people that it might be tricky for them to understand in real life.
I know my boss is also a good friend of mine, he pretty much got me on my feet as a musician and taught me everything i knew about cello, and now im majoring in music ed cuz this guy. really admire him a lot but at teh same time i know the day i come out to him as trans it's gonna get a bit touchy.. the scenario plays out in my dreams and it might work perfect then but i wake up and my issue is still unresolved :/
Quote from: blink on January 10, 2014, 10:00:31 AM
A lot of my dreams are in the POV of some guy. Not "me", but just some random dude.
Pre-T I was like this. Little time on T I started dreaming about my real self, I'm not anymore some random dude.
I have silent dreams and am normally a man with nothing spectacular going on about it. If not a man I have dreams where being trans is implied. Here are a couple of the latter.
A couple years ago I was plagued by night mares. I never dream that I'm a girl but in these ones at least... I had boobs (shivers). I would be wearing a loose shirt without my binder or anything underneath. Basically I was what I am at the end of each day. However, I would be sitting with my friends, some that know and some that don't. It didn't really matter who was there though, because at the end of each day I'm so uncomfortable that I only sleep without a binder and feel physically nauseous with dysphoria without it. That should tell you how bad I felt in the dreams. None of these people even acted like I was a girl, it was really just that I knew and got paranoid that bothered me. It made me question the thoughts of everyone in waking life. I barely slept for 2 months.
At the end of this nightmare streak I actually had one were I stranger was harassing me. It got physical and I killed him. At that moment my boobs went away and I ripped off my shirt to the nice flat chest I should have (only time I've been shirtless in dreamworld). It was liberating on so many levels and basically ended that series. For all the hell I really enjoy looking back at the end of that dream.
This one might be too much information.
I have dreams where I have a "penis" though it starts as something smaller, like what I've got (just no hole). In these dreams I discover that through masturbation it grows into a normal sized erect penis. This kind of sets me into a frenzy and I just can't stop or it'll go back to normal.
I like waking up after these dreams though I do this activity in the weirdest places. Because at least for a moment I have penis and it is made of my own flesh. I do wish this could really happen though.
I had a "trans dream" once, but I don't know, if this is usual or no. But I don't recall what I look like or my gender from any dream. I'm an actor in the dream, but who I am in the dream, I'm not sure.
--Jay
I had a dream a long time ago . I was swimming in a lake and my genitals were ambiguous at first then turn into a vagina. I thought it pretty cool