This is a really random question I know, but can anyone else physically feel their dysphoria and junk in their head? When I feel it I also feel a strange dull ache in the front of my head. It's painless, yet bothersome. Could not even be that, and I only notice when I'm feelin blue, Idunno.
Would love to hear everyone's thoughts ^_^
I don't know if this is what you are looking for, but before HRT I always had a high pitched sound in my head. It was always on low, but when the Dysphoria struck hard it got so loud that on a quit night outside it would be the only thing I could hear. Does that make any sense to you? I have not had it once while on HRT. It is so hard to describe, but it was like ringing in the ears, but very high pitched. :o
Quote from: Jessica Merriman on January 19, 2014, 06:13:32 AM
I don't know if this is what you are looking for, but before HRT I always had a high pitched sound in my head. It was always on low, but when the Dysphoria struck hard it got so loud that on a quit night outside it would be the only thing I could hear. Does that make any sense to you? I have not had it once while on HRT. It is so hard to describe, but it was like ringing in the ears, but very high pitched. :o
Oh, I only wanted to hear if other people felt something other than emotional pain and the like. That sounds quite unpleasent! Glad it helped.
My Dysphoria caused depression and physical aches and pains as well. It really sent my PTSD into overdrive, but since being back on HRT I have not had one episode. It definitely caused a lack of sleep and my vital signs to be very high. My shoulders especially would get really tight and spasm. My Endo said I seemed to have an allergy to "T". Weird huh? I feel great now. :)
Pre-HRT the physical and emotional pains were really bad now it is manageable. I still get headaches and they are in the front of my head. I usually get them when I see an example of how I want to look or what looks I really want to have. If my sleep is deprived I also get them in the center of my head.
I walk for lunch through 2 University campuses. I see hundreds of great looks and physical features. Friday, I saw the most fantastic look, chestnut boots, fitted jeans, fitted leather jacket. black purse and beautiful brown mid-length hair with some color variance (lighter brown) for style (really well done). This is my internal look and I had the front of head ach.
Quote from: Jessica Merriman on January 19, 2014, 07:56:21 AM
My Dysphoria caused depression and physical aches and pains as well. It really sent my PTSD into overdrive, but since being back on HRT I have not had one episode. It definitely caused a lack of sleep and my vital signs to be very high. My shoulders especially would get really tight and spasm. My Endo said I seemed to have an allergy to "T". Weird huh? I feel great now. :)
Just a little bit :P but now it's not an issue, yay! I tend not to sleep much myself. My usual bed time is like, 6:00am lol.
Quote from: Cynthia Michelle on January 19, 2014, 08:43:25 AM
Pre-HRT the physical and emotional pains were really bad now it is manageable. I still get headaches and they are in the front of my head. I usually get them when I see an example of how I want to look or what looks I really want to have. If my sleep is deprived I also get them in the center of my head.
I walk for lunch through 2 University campuses. I see hundreds of great looks and physical features. Friday, I saw the most fantastic look, chestnut boots, fitted jeans, fitted leather jacket. black purse and beautiful brown mid-length hair with some color variance (lighter brown) for style (really well done). This is my internal look and I had the front of head ach.
Oh no, not the headache D:! That does sound gorgeous. I guess I'm glad I don't get physical pains, then again maybe I'm just not connecting them to it. Either way, as always glad it's more under control ^_^
My penis is often sensitive to the point that it causes me intense, sharp pain. It's been that way my whole life.
I can feel a dullness at the back of my skull in some moods, I don't know how to describe it, it feels like it needs waking up with molten liquid poured on it. It's just an awareness that it's there, the nasty bit of my brain. It's normally only there if I'm bored stiff, boredness makes me restless, irritable, and ultimately leaves me depressed, but unfortunately there's not often enough to occupy my mind these days. The dysphoria feelings more towards the centre third of my brain and not really sharper, but higher pitched/brighter. It's hard to describe when it isn't really a colour or sound, just something that's there.
Not quite related to dysphoria, but I'm beginning to think that there might be some truth in several people thinking that my mysterious old hip pain was psychosomatic, for years it was all but gone, but recently as things have started to get a bit difficult for me again it began to niggle at me. I've had bloods, x-rays and MRI scans on it, but they found nothing which would cause it to hurt. Nothing seemed to trigger it either, only walking on it or running made it worse while it was happening. For about half a year several years ago I couldn't walk or sit down due to it. Maybe I'm wrong, maybe it's a co-incidence, but those years were some of the worse of my life.
I get the "phantom limb" thing as well. Oh god yeah.