I was watching to movie Gravity yesterday. I got reactions I have never gotten from a movie before. It stressed me out. I was on edge. I have never been so jumpy or emotional with a movie. I am sure it's the hormones. I was just wondering if anyone else has the same kind of reactions due to hrt?
Anyway I love it! Movies are so much better now. Haha..
I liked the ending of that movie, but the movie it self was too stressful for me.
Emotional reactions have been different since HRT. Violence is even less palatable than before (I never enjoyed it). Romantic stories are more moving.
I'm with you. I LOVE the emotional changes on HRT. I've always had a female heart, but the emotional experience of actually having female chemistry has been more wonderful than I could have imagined.
I have always cried at movies...because of that I avoided watching dramas or romantic movies for years...you know, a man cannot cry...
I don't know if any of you girls have watched the movie "Awakenings" with Robert de Niro and Robin Williams.
No movie could make me cry like this one...I think I watched half of the movie with tears falling from my eyes. This movie have made me cry three times and in one I cried of happiness (when de Niro meets his mother after awakening from a disease for the first time in 30 years)
It is this scene:
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Ei79Uj7DpEk (http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Ei79Uj7DpEk)
It's such an emotional and touching movie! One of my favorites! :)
Maybe a little bit, not sure, but then I've never been able to watch the end of 'Field of Dreams' without getting a bit emotional. But most things women find tear worthy, I can only roll my eyes at... still.
I have really enjoyed the emotional changes as well. I find that it's brought a depth to life that has always been missing.
There is something cathartic about crying over a movie, I've finally been able to laugh like I haven't since childhood and having a clarity to see when something is bothering me.
Do you think it's easier access to tears that's causing it? Maybe less fear of expression?
Quote from: FA on February 10, 2014, 12:31:52 PM
Do you think it's easier access to tears that's causing it? Maybe less fear of expression?
I think there has been a change in the general range of emotions that my chemistry is encouraging. Tender feelings are emphasized, aggressive feelings are dimmed.
It's not access to tears. I still basically don't cry.
I cry pretty easy right now, but I've always cried a lot so I don't know, I know its a lot easier to kick start a good cry.
My emotions have always been closer to the surface than most males, and I have watched my share of movies where I have been holding back tears. With me going on HRT this week, it will be interesting to see if I will feel more liberated to express that.
Quote from: suzifrommd on February 10, 2014, 12:36:49 PM
Quote from: FA on February 10, 2014, 12:31:52 PM
Do you think it's easier access to tears that's causing it? Maybe less fear of expression?
I think there has been a change in the general range of emotions that my chemistry is encouraging. Tender feelings are emphasized, aggressive feelings are dimmed.
It's not access to tears. I still basically don't cry.
Oh, that's interesting. That's one thing I don't like about T - there are times when I could really benefit from crying - but it just doesn't happen anymore. I mean, it happens rarely but never when it's really needed. ::) I do miss it. It can be a really nice release. Never really cried much during movies though.
Quote from: FA on February 10, 2014, 12:47:58 PM
I think there has been a change in the general range of emotions that my chemistry is encouraging. Tender feelings are emphasized, aggressive feelings are dimmed.
It's not access to tears. I still basically don't cry.
Oh, that's interesting. That's one thing I don't like about T - there are times when I could really benefit from crying - but it just doesn't happen anymore. I mean, it happens rarely but never when it's really needed. ::) I do miss it. It can be a really nice release. Never really cried much during movies though.
When stress and anxiety overwhelm me to the point that I am physically sick, I have found crying to be the most therapeutic thing I can do. It seems to release something inside me, and that breaks the stress. But in my current T influenced state, I need a trigger. I usually watch a really sad movie.
Quote from: FA on February 10, 2014, 12:47:58 PM
I think there has been a change in the general range of emotions that my chemistry is encouraging. Tender feelings are emphasized, aggressive feelings are dimmed.
It's not access to tears. I still basically don't cry.
Oh, that's interesting. That's one thing I don't like about T - there are times when I could really benefit from crying - but it just doesn't happen anymore. I mean, it happens rarely but never when it's really needed. ::) I do miss it. It can be a really nice release. Never really cried much during movies though.
I guess T must of affected me differently because I cried a lot growing up and beyond. Unless I didn't have much in me to begin with
I think it might be a combination of hormones and less fear or expression ~ I'm not on hormones yet but since coming out and being open and expressing myself as myself, i find myself getting teary eyed and crying more easily in movies that move me.
And to add to the list: The ending of The Green Mile always kills me.
I have welled up with tears a few times before HRT. I still haven't cried much yet. Unless you count Christmas. :( ... I guess coming out is freeing so there might be something to that. I think hrt just gives you an added kick. Haha. But my reactions during the last few movies was not anything I can hold back.
I cried at Mask,Ghost and Imaginarum.Maybe it's a combination of HRT and no longer being afraid to show emotion ?
I always cry at the end of Braveheart when William Wallace is killed. Then the next scene where they go fight the English for him, omg so sad. Weird thing is, I lost both my parents a few years ago but didn't or couldn't cry. I was really sad, ofc, prolly needed to cry, but nothing came out. I just figured I throw that out there. I'm pre hrt btw.
-Kelly
Quote from: LivingTheDream on February 10, 2014, 05:41:20 PM
I always cry at the end of Braveheart when William Wallace is killed. Then the next scene where they go fight the English for him, omg so sad. Weird thing is, I lost both my parents a few years ago but didn't or couldn't cry. I was really sad, ofc, prolly needed to cry, but nothing came out. I just figured I throw that out there. I'm pre hrt btw.
-Kelly
I am sorry about your loss :( I know how it is, I lost my father not too long ago... I couldn't stop crying , but a few days after I was still in shock and I could not cry anymore...I was just...catatonic...
But talking about william Wallace...I always cried when William is just a kid and he is at his fathers funeral crying, then he receives a flower from the girl who one day will become his wife...and then I cry again when she dies at the middle of the movie...
I dont watch movies often ,,, so If I cry it will be while watching an anime XD
but i remember crying at the end of I am legend and also on click ...looong before hrt,,surprised myself lol
One movie I LOVE gets me angry right at the very end. "A Mighty Wind" is a wonderful movie with an awesome cast, excellent music and brilliant performances. BUT: at the very end Harry Shearer decides to become a woman. Someone thought that would be funny. So at the end the "new" Harry S. is singing with The Folksmen, singing BASS with the trio, and made the theater roar in laughter. Being the only TS in the theater I thought "yeah, wicked funny..." BUT - I still watch that movie at least twice a year to hear some great performances. But that ending - grrrr...they were doing so well until that!
Romantic comedies make my cry now that I'm on HRT. I just found out yesterday, I was so confused. The movie wasn't even that good.
I am not on hormones, but I have always been emotional to stuff. I cry all the time - sad music makes me cry, movies like Mulan make me cry, was never really sure why. :D
Quote from: FA on February 10, 2014, 12:47:58 PM
Oh, that's interesting. That's one thing I don't like about T - there are times when I could really benefit from crying - but it just doesn't happen anymore. I mean, it happens rarely but never when it's really needed. ::) I do miss it. It can be a really nice release. Never really cried much during movies though.
Well my inability to cry started just at the age when T started flooding my system. Possibly it just permanently burned away my ability to cry.
Even before hrt I was very emotionally sensitive to movies, music, opera/plays/musicals, games, etc, so I really haven't changed in any way in this respect. To be honest, it can be embarrassing at times. I can just be listening or watching something and start tearing up. I'll never forget having to hold back the tears to the ending of the first "home alone" when viewing it in one of my eighth grade classes. I just felt so happy that the old man's family got reunited, but I must of looked like a complete weirdo to some of my classmates who caught me fighting the tears (I really hope no one saw). While this will sound odd, I almost can feel what the character is feeling if the writing is good enough. And if a piece is good, I can get moved by the song. In any case, hrt didn't really change too much for me because I'ves always been emotionally out there when it comes to reacting to media, lol. It's weird, but I like it as it makes it more fun and enjoyable to watch a movie when you are emotionally invested.
Quote from: learningtolive on February 10, 2014, 08:07:21 PM
Even before hrt I was very emotionally sensitive to movies, music, opera/plays/musicals, games, etc, so I really haven't changed in any way in this respect. To be honest, it can be embarrassing at times. I can just be listening or watching something and start tearing up. I'll never forget having to hold back the tears to the ending of the first "home alone" when viewing it in one of my eighth grade classes. I just felt so happy that the old man's family got reunited, but I must of looked like a complete weirdo to some of my classmates who caught me fighting the tears (I really hope no one saw). While this will sound odd, I almost can feel what the character is feeling if the writing is good enough. And if a piece is good, I can get moved by the song. In any case, hrt didn't really change too much for me because I'ves always been emotionally out there when it comes to reacting to media, lol. It's weird, but I like it as it makes it more fun and enjoyable to watch a movie when you are emotionally invested.
I am the same way LtL, but when I am by myself I let myself cry. It feels good.
QuoteNatalia wrote about Awakenings :
It's such an emotional and touching movie! One of my favorites!
I also love this movie very much and was thinking about it the other day. I related to Robert De Niro character so much, when I came out Trans it felt like my own awakening. So much of my life was like his character in a coma, I never felt alive until I was able to be true to myself.
I am not currently on HRT but usually have strong reactions to dramatic movies with romantic undertones, or movies that have an emotional loss. I am usually crying and lose myself in the movie. I just cant imagine what I would be like on HRT, probably an emotional mess. :)
Yes, sappy movies, some TV shows, and emotional music all now reduce me to tears.
I used to be the emotional equivalent of a brick - i remember when my grandmother died and my dad was weeping I was wondering what was wrong with me as I sat there like a stone. Now i know, and my life has color and emotions ever since I started on estrogen.
A funny story - I sing in my church choir and the music they gave me to practice for Easter reduces me to tears - I don't know how I am going to get through it :laugh:
I knew I lost my emotional reserve when I cried like a baby during the movie "13 going on 30". ;) Now like everyone so far dramatic music and romantic movies or comedies get my undivided attention. :) I find I also like to move to the beat of high power music from movies where before I never even danced my whole life. The music just wont let me sit still anymore. I want to party! :)
Music gets me. Songs that are really intense or have complex melodies and lyrics have recently made me tear up and have to pull the car over, but I've always been a sucker for a good song.
I dance now, and laugh, and smile.
Until last night I didn't think HRT made me any more sensitive. I would easily cry during movies even before HRT. Last night my wife and I watch the season finale of of "Six Feet Under". I had seen it before several years ago, but I definitely cried a lot more last night than before HRT on the same episode despite even knowing what was coming.
One of my wife's (and my mother's) concern was that I was already sensitive prior to HRT and both were worried about emotional outburst happening to me after HRT, but so far, I haven't had any issues, if anything, things don't seem to bother me as much as they use to when things went wrong.
I watched "The Lion King" again for the first time in a years, about 5 months after starting hormones.
I had seen that movie a HUNDRED times. It was my favorite movie as a kid. I've watched it so many times that I can recite the entire script word-for-word easily.
And yet, in all of those hundred times, this was the first time that I ever cried when Mufasa died.
So yes. Yes indeed.
OMG Downton Abbey is sooooo different for me this year because of the hormones! Also, I find myself relating more to the female characters than before. Before I would just watch a show, not I empathize more with the woman. It's a neat experience :).
Jane
Quote from: Carrie Liz on February 11, 2014, 11:24:17 PM
I watched "The Lion King" again for the first time in a years, about 5 months after starting hormones.
I had seen that movie a HUNDRED times. It was my favorite movie as a kid. I've watched it so many times that I can recite the entire script word-for-word easily.
And yet, in all of those hundred times, this was the first time that I ever cried when Mufasa died.
So yes. Yes indeed.
I remember bawling in the movie theater when my Mom took me to see it as a little kid, lol. The scene that really hit me is when Simba sees Mufasa's ghost in the clouds. I was so sad for him. This is one of the best disney movies ever, though Sleepy Beauty will always be the all time greatest. What I find most interesting is that my mom had no issue with me seeing this film, but she refused to let me see Bambi because of the hunter scene, lol. Lion King is easily the worst of the two when it comes to the murder scenes.
^No kidding...
Bambi's mother was killed off-screen, we never actually saw her get shot, and then within about 20 seconds after the heaviest emotional moment of the Great Prince saying "Your mother can't be with you anymore," we've already jumped ahead by years and are watching some pretty little birdies twittering away in the trees singing "Let's Sing a Gay Little Spring Song." But The Lion King? You don't get any of that emotional padding.
Quote from: learningtolive on February 12, 2014, 07:54:33 AM
Quote from: Carrie Liz on February 11, 2014, 11:24:17 PM
I watched "The Lion King" again for the first time in a years, about 5 months after starting hormones.
I had seen that movie a HUNDRED times. It was my favorite movie as a kid. I've watched it so many times that I can recite the entire script word-for-word easily.
And yet, in all of those hundred times, this was the first time that I ever cried when Mufasa died.
So yes. Yes indeed.
I remember bawling in the movie theater when my Mom took me to see it as a little kid, lol. The scene that really hit me is when Simba sees Mufasa's ghost in the clouds. I was so sad for him. This is one of the best disney movies ever, though Sleepy Beauty will always be the all time greatest. What I find most interesting is that my mom had no issue with me seeing this film, but she refused to let me see Bambi because of the hunter scene, lol. Lion King is easily the worst of the two when it comes to the murder scenes.
Bambi was worse to me. Maybe because of the context - a fawn's mother being shot probably really happens all the time. Though The Land Before Time bothered me more probably - what with the 'tree star' scene and all. I didn't cry at them though. But I just remembered - Dumbo is the absolute worst. I can't even watch that and I don't even remember if the mother dies - but that song...
I remember crying when I was about 6 or 7 after reading a Robin Hood book when he died after a woman who was related or married to one of his enemies wrapped his wounds with poison bandages.