Hello everyone! I am new here and I wanted to make a brief introduction.
My name is Evan, I am 26 years old, I live in the midwest, and I have been 'out' to my family for only about 4 months. My parents (for now) have decided to remove themselves from my life due to me being trans. This has really turned my life upside down but I am trying to remain positive. I am preT but hoping to start hormones within a few months using the informed consent model. Unlike some of my trans brothers that I know and love, (and sisters!) I did not always know I was transgender. In fact I did not know what transgender was when I was growing up. I knew that I WANTED to be a boy, and I was always jealous of the boys - the way their bodies looked, the way they interacted with others, their clothes, their hair, just everything about males was what I wanted to see in myself when I looked in the mirror. I wore boys clothes and played with boys toys almost exclusively. I cried when my parents tried to give me a doll at 3 years old. When I was in school, I was a tomboy, but then I started to get bullied. Kids began calling me gay slurs because of my boy clothes. This got to the point where I decided I wanted to blend in and so I tried to be more feminine. I grew my hair very long and wore female clothes, but I always felt uncomfortable. I knew I did not want the female parts of my body recognized, but I didn't "hate" them, I just didn't want them. I felt like, well, this is the body I am stuck in and there is nothing I can do about it so I will just ignore it. I felt like I wasn't a girl, but I wasn't born a boy, so I started to feel I had no gender. I didn't realize at the time that transgender existed. When I found out what transgender was things clicked and I obsessively began to research about it. suddenly this world of hope opened. I realized I could make my outside reflect my inside.
I have a wonderful, supportive girlfriend of 2 years. I also have a doggy (roscoe) and cat (corey) who are very spoiled.
I enjoy reading about mindfulness, spirituality, gender identity, and military history. I spent most of my free time online and with various social media sites.
I am very excited to be joining this community here! I found the forums when looking up various FTM topics, and decided it was time I stop browsing as a guest and start posting as a member :) I look forward to getting to know all of you!
Hi Evan :icon_wave:
Welcome to Susan's :) Glad to have you here, join on in the fun
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V M
A big warm welcome to the family Evan! First, you are by no means alone now and have a supportive and caring family here. It should not take you very long to see this is true. All of us want to see you succeed and become comfortable with who you are. Feel free to rant, vent, share good news (we like that a LOT), learn or just have some distracting fun and meet the rest of the family. All of the information you get here is from REAL people at all stages of transition from still questioning to Post Op and everything in between. You will find what works or doesn't with great tips and suggestions in between. Here is a BIG HUG :icon_hug: to welcome you and make you feel right at home! :)
Hi evan,
What a great personal story. It sounds like you have a good life even with the ups and downs. Sorry about your family. Its not your fault they are so unsupportive. I hope they come round eventually.
J
A hearty welcome to you, Evan. thank you for sharing.
:)