You know, transitioning can be hella hard sometimes. Sometimes it just feels like the opposition is tremendous and there are so many obstacles in the way. There are high points, but the lows can be debilitating. I know that this is a journey and like any journey you only get to the destination by putting one foot in front of the other and keep pushing forward. To get me through the rough spots though, I like to think about all the things I'm going to do once I've shed this old shell and started life anew.
As I was thinking today about all those things I'm going to do, I thought it would be fun to share and hear from others about what they plan to do as well. And so I present the "After My Old Self Kicks The Bucket List". I mean think about it, it's the best kind of bucket list because it doesn't revolve around your inevitable death, but around your rebirth as your genuine self!
These can be grandiose things or just the simple stuff. I'm probably going to just post one at a time when I feel really strongly about one of my goals for my new life. But feel free to post all of your bucket list at once if you want.
For my first bucket list item, I want to get all dressed up and gorgeous and go to a formal dance/party or "prom you never had" type event.
There is this little dress shop I drive past all the time on my way home from work. I've lived in this small town for the past 14 years and despite all the changes that shop has remained the same. It's not a big or extravagant shop, but it has a small town charm to it. In the window they often have 2-3 dresses on display. Before I accepted that I could transition... before I committed to becoming my true self, I would always wistfully look at those beautiful wedding and prom dresses and think "Oh how I wish I could be the lucky girl wearing that. Maybe in another life...".
Now though, as I slowly drive by the shop I think "Someday... someday I will be wearing a dress just like that." Someday I'll get to dress to the nines, have a gorgeous updo and be all smiling and happy, relishing in the moment. Someday I will have my moment to finally feel like the gorgeous woman I always wanted to be. And maybe I'll be asked to dance by some perfect gentleman who will sweep my off my feet and hold me close within his strong husky frame. And we will be among friends, all having a good time laughing at each other's jokes, enjoying the fine wine and each other's company. And there will be all this with no one questioning me or seeing me as anything other than the beautiful girl they know and love. :)
And that, is one of my dreams for my bucket list. How about you all?
Another one - After my old self kicks the bucket I'm going to go to one of my High School reunions and have fun watching people try to guess who I was.
Girl you just nailed my top two! It was like I was reading something I wrote myself. So cool! :)
I transferred to a small town Fire Station one time and there was a dress store just like you described. I almost got outed a few times at the stop light looking in the window and day dreaming about this one particular blue gown. OMG it was so pretty and I so wanted to wear it to a formal. I could almost hear the music and felt so relaxed and excited. That dress shop is still there and a few more pounds I finally get to actually go in and get one of those beautiful gowns all for myself! ;)
Quote from: Alaia on March 27, 2014, 02:43:30 PM
Another one - After my old self kicks the bucket I'm going to go to one of my High School reunions and have fun watching people try to guess who I was.
OMG, that would be too funny. Of course I've never actually been to one before because most of my friends in high school were too cool for school then and probably wouldn't be caught dead at a reunion to this day.
I never went to prom, but it would be fun to wear a fancy dress and barf in the back of a limo with an awkward guy I barely know.
Quote from: Jill F on March 27, 2014, 03:00:52 PM
I never went to prom, but it would be fun to wear a fancy dress and barf in the back of a limo with an awkward guy I barely know.
Thanks Jill! I have a new bucket list addition! *giggles* ;D
I'm gonna be that guy with the six pack ;)
Travel to Europe or South America or just get out of North American. I'm in that "in between" phase and I don't want to be groped or scanned in the airport waiting lines.
Quote from: Alaia on March 27, 2014, 02:43:30 PM
Another one - After my old self kicks the bucket I'm going to go to one of my High School reunions and have fun watching people try to guess who I was.
Oh my, I so wish I could do that. But coming from a small town (if it can even be classified as such), I'm afraid word will have traveled to most, if not all of them, by that time. I think the next suitable time for a high school graduation anniversary/reunion is in two or seven years.
No idea if they'll be shocked or not, though. I somehow acquired the nickname "GI Jane" when I tried to "man up" through becoming militarily interested back in my high school days. So I guess at least some of them may have seen me as less than manly.