Hi all...
recent week am trying to force my self to get back to my male (and ugly) clothes in an attempt to check if i can control it and get back the the pain level I had monthes ago (I was born as male/am 36 years old).
It became so painful for me to see women in street and see how they dress. kind of I wish i was in their place.
Do you think I will be able to fight it and not pursue on any change (I will lose my wife and hells know what else)
I also saw a trans women in the subway and was able to obsereve another women kind of laugh at her...felt sad/
It boils down to want YOU want.
:)
Quote from: asheriko35 on April 04, 2014, 12:10:36 PM
Do you think I will be able to fight it and not pursue on any change (I will lose my wife and hells know what else)
If you can, you're tougher than I am. I had to do it.
OTOH, my life is FAR better and more genuine than it was before. Yes, I lost my wife and some money, but given what came out during the separation, I'm not sure we would have stayed together forever in any event.
Quote from: suzifrommd on April 04, 2014, 12:56:35 PM
If you can, you're tougher than I am. I had to do it.
OTOH, my life is FAR better and more genuine than it was before. Yes, I lost my wife and some money, but given what came out during the separation, I'm not sure we would have stayed together forever in any event.
suzifrommd
I am so happy for you. it seems you are more happy. how is the feeling? what about the work/career?
r u able to pass like a women?
hi Hun. I myself is turning 36 this Sunday. Keep in mind you only have one life to live your not coming back. In this world anything is possible. Trust me. But most importantly. Ask yourself those questions keep a journal and write everything that comes to your mind. Than you could pursue on to the next steps. Because anything is possible, believe me. I've just had my sexchange operation a week ago. And today I'm still in shock that all these years I've put my thoughts into it. I still can't believe it that I've made that dream into a reality. Happy journey my friend.
Quote from: Jenni4leone on April 04, 2014, 01:24:47 PM
hi Hun. I myself is turning 36 this Sunday. Keep in mind you only have one life to live your not coming back. In this world anything is possible. Trust me. But most importantly. Ask yourself those questions keep a journal and write everything that comes to your mind. Than you could pursue on to the next steps. Because anything is possible, believe me. I've just had my sexchange operation a week ago. And today I'm still in shock that all these years I've put my thoughts into it. I still can't believe it that I've made that dream into a reality. Happy journey my friend.
Jenifer -is that you in the picture? (in the link attached?)
I am ready to marry you now!!!
Quote from: asheriko35 on April 04, 2014, 01:27:31 PM
Jenifer -is that you in the picture? (in the link attached?)
I am ready to marry you now!!!
hi asheriko35 yes that's me on my blog. And thank you your so sweet.
I know what you mean as far as the hurt from just seeing women being women. It's a terrible feeling. I've fought the desire to transition until now, and am still not sure if I will transition. I'm in a different situation. My life hasn't really started yet; I have a disposable job, not many relationships, or commitments - so as far as that goes, I'm in a great spot. I'm just not sure if my height, hand size, and skeletal structure will permit it. I know I'd like to transition, desperately, but I'm afraid of becoming that woman on the train who gets laughed at.
I can say this; I feel that I'm starting to understand dysphoria better, or at least mine. Often times it gets worse with age. I was content with hiding for a long time, but recently I've gotten to a point where I just can't help but think of transitioning constantly - and it is getting worse. My biggest regret at this point is that I allowed the potential reactions of others to cloud my vision and I sort of threw away part of my life. It really does feel like I need to transition, despite my being apprehensive about passing, so I'm not sure if I'll be able to fight it or if I even want to fight it.
I keep seeing users saying "it's your own personnel journey," and that is what it's starting to feel like. Sounds cliché, but just do what your heart tells you; take note of what the brain says, but be wary, sometimes the brain is overrated...