Well I over estimated myself and thought I could change clothes, do make up, and travel a hour away within two hours. Now after saying that I finally had my first Endo appointment yesterday April forth after having scheduled it way back before March. Well... I left the house about thirty minutes late and by the time I arrived the doc didnt want the appt and I had to re-schedule for the next nearest open appointment. Which was May 22... To be honest I'm a little annoyed at myself for leaving late and now having to wait another month plus+ longer for hormones make me feel like I'm wasting time. :-\
BUT! In other news I met a friend from online I've been talking to and we met up the same day several hours later. We walked around the mall and talked allot. I enjoyed speaking with her and spending time together. She is probably the first "real" person I have met around here in years and I hope we continue to be friends. :) I felt pretty confident walking around with her. But for the life of me I couldnt understand how/why I kept getting so many "hate" stares from so many men. I didnt have a problem from to many women, but either people were checking me out more than usual or something was off. This was kinda weird for me, because this hasnt happened before. :embarrassed:
This is what I wore into the mall, kinda dark but I thought it looked good.
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After shopping around with my new friend, she chose some clothes and I wore this for awhile and people seemed normal again. ;D More people were smiling and waving now.
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Don't get upset with me, but the first (top) photo looks strange for some reason. Almost like too staged or something, IDK. The bottom two look great! Normal, relaxed and totally feminine. Maybe it is just how the top look is perceived by the public for the look and not you. I would be hard pressed not to say cis in the bottom two, it is just a good look for you! You are so gorgeous! ARGH, young transitioners drive me nuts! ;D
Yeah I was just spacing off in the car waiting for my friend to arrive. So I atempted a close facial pic. Like I honestly thought that one looked the best. But maybe I should post some other pics for comparison?
Thanks! I'm slowly starting to discover what color and fashion is. lol I guess I need to wear even brighter clothes.
Your doing well for yourself Jessica, I hope your feeling better. **hugs** We all have lost a chunk of our lives and have much making up to do!