I don't know if this thread will be allowed here because it is potentially explicit. If not, my apologies in advance, but I thought this would be helpful and insightful to guys in different stages who are wondering how things work and how -well- they work.
So without further adieu:
1.) Stage you're at in your transition (Non-Op, Pre-T, on T [for how many weeks/months/years?], post-op [which op?], or whatever other term you use to describe where you're at right now. Do you plan to move to another level?)
2.) Overview of your penis (Do you use a prosthetic? If so, what kind? If not, talk about your clit/dick/click/whatever you want to call it. How many centimeters or inches has it grown on T, meta, phallo, et cetera? Are you able to feel sensations?)
3.) Sex. (What kind of sex do you prefer/have? Straight, gay, both, et cetera. Are you satisfied with your dick? How does your partner feel about it?)
4.) Packing. (Do you pack? Why or why not?)
5.) Peeing. (STP? Why or not?)
6.) Any other stories, concerns, tips?
Share as much as want; feel free to leave out anything you're not comfortable with, of course.
Quote from: CandyCaneTie on April 14, 2014, 06:49:55 PM
1.) Stage you're at in your transition (Non-Op, Pre-T, on T [for how many weeks/months/years?], post-op [which op?], or whatever other term you use to describe where you're at right now. Do you plan to move to another level?)
On T for a year, pre-op. I plan to get a phallo in the distant future(10+ years)
Quote2.) Overview of your penis (Do you use a prosthetic? If so, what kind? If not, talk about your clit/dick/click/whatever you want to call it. How many centimeters or inches has it grown on T, meta, phallo, et cetera? Are you able to feel sensations?)
I do not use a prosthetic though I wouldn't be opposed to trying one if I had the money. As for my penis, it has probably grown two and a half centimeters or so and when hard is about the length of the last joint of my index finger. I have not had any surgery, but I would say that I have more sensation down there, probably because it's larger.
Quote3.) Sex. (What kind of sex do you prefer/have? Straight, gay, both, et cetera. Are you satisfied with your dick? How does your partner feel about it?)
I'm in a homosexual relationship and my boyfriend has no problem with my transition. We treat my genitals as much like a penis as possible, within the realm of the reality(though obviously I have no penetrative capabilities.)
Quote4.) Packing. (Do you pack? Why or why not?)
I do not pack because I find the harness I use to be horribly uncomfortable. I'm considering modifying my underwear or purchasing packing underwear from peecock.
Quote5.) Peeing. (STP? Why or not?)
I have a STP, but it's not in any way shaped like a penis so I can't use it comfortably in a public bathroom. I will eventually get a more realistic STP and then I'll probably use it all the time.
Quote6.) Any other stories, concerns, tips?
I totally expected that people would stare at me whenever I went into a public restroom but no one has even looked at me. My boyfriend said you don't make eye contact in the bathroom and he was right. You look at the floor or whatever is not in the direction of someone else and get on with your business.
Quote from: CandyCaneTie on April 14, 2014, 06:49:55 PM1.) Stage you're at in your transition (Non-Op, Pre-T, on T [for how many weeks/months/years?], post-op [which op?], or whatever other term you use to describe where you're at right now. Do you plan to move to another level?)
Two years, 3 months on T. Post top-surgery. Next stage is hysterectomy then metoidioplasty if financially do-able.
Quote from: CandyCaneTie on April 14, 2014, 06:49:55 PM2.) Overview of your penis (Do you use a prosthetic? If so, what kind? If not, talk about your clit/dick/click/whatever you want to call it. How many centimeters or inches has it grown on T, meta, phallo, et cetera? Are you able to feel sensations?)
I use prosthetics. At the moment, just a cheap crappy plastic Doc Johnson 7" realistic strap-on. I've ordered the ReelMagik 6" prosthetic with flex-rod, so will be getting that in about October, I reckon.
Quote from: CandyCaneTie on April 14, 2014, 06:49:55 PM3.) Sex. (What kind of sex do you prefer/have? Straight, gay, both, et cetera. Are you satisfied with your dick? How does your partner feel about it?)
I have straight sex with my wife (no penetration/touching of my actual "downstairs" area other than my prosthetic). I'm not satisfied with the current dick I have - hence getting the RM. My partner isn't really fussed - but I don't think she likes the plastic feel of the cock.
Quote from: CandyCaneTie on April 14, 2014, 06:49:55 PM4.) Packing. (Do you pack? Why or why not?)
Only if I'm wearing jeans. I don't otherwise because I don't have a decent packer/harness that doesn't chafe.
Quote from: CandyCaneTie on April 14, 2014, 06:49:55 PM5.) Peeing. (STP? Why or not?)
I got the She-Wee STP, but found it too damn difficult so I gave up. Now I just sit.
Just a question guys.
Do you want this moved to the Sexuality area? Which is restricted to >18yrs? Or is this a topic that is important to young men as well?
I ask as I'm out of my depth with what is important to male members. (Ah no pun intended ::))
Cindy
Quote from: CandyCaneTie on April 14, 2014, 06:49:55 PM
1.) Stage you're at in your transition (Non-Op, Pre-T, on T [for how many weeks/months/years?], post-op [which op?], or whatever other term you use to describe where you're at right now. Do you plan to move to another level?)
On testosteron for several years
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2.) Overview of your penis (Do you use a prosthetic? If so, what kind? If not, talk about your clit/dick/click/whatever you want to call it. How many centimeters or inches has it grown on T, meta, phallo, et cetera? Are you able to feel sensations?)
Phalloplasty and yes very sensitive dick tactile feeling and erogenic feeling in the penis. Gain sensation with the phalloplasty (wich is normal with nerve hock up).
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6.) Any other stories, concerns, tips?
Had complications with phalloplasty. That was hard (mentally). Tips? Please don't listen to random trans(men) who say you have less or none feeling in your fallus. That b*ll->-bleeped-<- and just a hoax. Thats my tip to you. I read for so many years these myths /hoax about phalloplasty and it is crap. I don't like reading stuff what other transmen saying. Funny thing is that all the transmen saying that you loose sensation are all men without a phalloplasy! A advise to all: check your sources before you bring it. It could damage not only people who are consider phalloplasy but it is a little bit a kick in the back of people who had phalloplasy. But i think people who saying that phalloplasty is a numb flesh of meat which doen't look realistic are just jalous. I don't know other reason why there is so much 'hoax' and myth story's on the net.
On the otherside: its is good that people are saying this (that phalloplasty is stupid) because then there are not many people who (do) dare to do the surgery and that means : more privecy for us phallo people. When more people hear about it the more it will be known to the big non trans people public i'am affraid that there will be my circus programe where they showing the scars. And then people who see my arm will know about me. So on the other side: just keep believing phalloplasy is a fake numb paece of meat between your legs. You will never achive orgasm anymore :D. The risk is that the media circus will expose our scars. Iam stealth!
But i tell you someting secret: you don't loss orgasm :) . And to tell the truth : it looks a lot like a cis penis. But be silence !
And good luck with your transition/ or what ever.
Ciaoo
Quote from: Cindy on April 15, 2014, 02:25:33 AM
Just a question guys.
Do you want this moved to the Sexuality area? Which is restricted to >18yrs? Or is this a topic that is important to young men as well?
I ask as I'm out of my depth with what is important to male members. (Ah no pun intended ::))
Cindy
I personally don't mind it staying here. Not sure that it would get a lot of attention in the Sexuality board.
Good pun >:-)
::) :laugh:
So without further adieu:
1.) Stage you're at in your transition (Non-Op, Pre-T, on T [for how many weeks/months/years?], post-op [which op?]
On T 13 months.
2.) Overview of your penis (Do you use a prosthetic? If so, what kind? If not, talk about your clit/dick/click/whatever you want to call it. How many centimeters or inches has it grown on T, meta, phallo, et cetera? Are you able to feel sensations?)
Not much growth. I use a prosthetic and sometimes a packer when I can. I'm not really saying the name of the brand of prosthetic right now.
3.) Sex. (What kind of sex do you prefer/have? Straight, gay, both, et cetera. Are you satisfied with your dick? How does your partner feel about it?)
I don't have a partner. I'm kind of questioning right now (not sure my sexuality, I was asexual before and not sure if I ID that way anymore.
4.) Packing. (Do you pack? Why or why not?)
I pack sometimes. I can't really pack that much as I have a problem with it against me.
5.) Peeing. (STP? Why or not?)
Can't work it very well.
6.) Any other stories, concerns, tips?
Nope.
--Jay
1.) Stage you're at in your transition (Non-Op, Pre-T, on T [for how many weeks/months/years?], post-op [which op?], or whatever other term you use to describe where you're at right now. Do you plan to move to another level?)
T for almost a year, no op but if they make more advances I will decide then
2.) Overview of your penis (Do you use a prosthetic? If so, what kind? If not, talk about your clit/dick/click/whatever you want to call it. How many centimeters or inches has it grown on T, meta, phallo, et cetera? Are you able to feel sensations?)
Mine is about an inch long when erect. I've recently discovered the incredible 'joy' of oral so I have tons of sensation. I use a prosthetic during sex if that's what we want.
3.) Sex. (What kind of sex do you prefer/have? Straight, gay, both, et cetera. Are you satisfied with your dick? How does your partner feel about it?)
I'm gay but since I'm no op I still have female anatomy and use it when I want. I only have one partner so it works out well. We go with whatever we want to experience at that time.
4.) Packing. (Do you pack? Why or why not?)
Not yet, can't justify buying one since I'm following some hobbies that suck up a lot of funds
5.) Peeing. (STP? Why or not?)
I sit or use a 'female urinal' device at home. Eventually I will purchase an STP prosthetic
6.) Any other stories, concerns, tips?
As I was typing all of this I noticed two robins 'getting it on.' I thought it was hilarious seeing as the topic is about sex.
Quote1.) Stage you're at in your transition (Non-Op, Pre-T, on T [for how many weeks/months/years?], post-op [which op?], or whatever other term you use to describe where you're at right now. Do you plan to move to another level?)
Pre-opt everything, 9 weeks on T so far. Wanting both top and bottom someday in the future. Def phallo.
Quote2.) Overview of your penis (Do you use a prosthetic? If so, what kind? If not, talk about your clit/dick/click/whatever you want to call it. How many centimeters or inches has it grown on T, meta, phallo, et cetera? Are you able to feel sensations?)
My penis before T was super small. So small it was practically not there. I didn't do measurements but it def has grown a bit and is visually more noticeable than it was before.
Quote3.) Sex. (What kind of sex do you prefer/have? Straight, gay, both, et cetera. Are you satisfied with your dick? How does your partner feel about it?)
Pre T I had no sex drive. On T it's shot through the roof compared to before. I am a pansexual so gender holds no preference with me. I am married to my husband who is a cismale but we swing on very rare occasions as well. I would like my penis to be bigger for sure. My husband is not so sure about that part yet.
Quote4.) Packing. (Do you pack? Why or why not?)
I plan to pack in the near future with at least a combo stp. I desire to be able to stand and pee and it's part of the whole bottom dysphoria for me.
Quote5.) Peeing. (STP? Why or not?)
Soon. I actually get depressed sometimes when I see my husband pee standing and the fact that I can't stresses me out a lot.
Quote6.) Any other stories, concerns, tips?
Nothing too exciting to report form my end really. I'm only just beginning so I guess I'll see where I go in the next year+
Interesting stuff so far, guys. Keep it coming! (Pun somewhat intended.)
Quote from: CandyCaneTie on April 14, 2014, 06:49:55 PM
I don't know if this thread will be allowed here because it is potentially explicit. If not, my apologies in advance, but I thought this would be helpful and insightful to guys in different stages who are wondering how things work and how -well- they work.
So without further adieu:
1.) Stage you're at in your transition (Non-Op, Pre-T, on T [for how many weeks/months/years?], post-op [which op?], or whatever other term you use to describe where you're at right now. Do you plan to move to another level?)
2.) Overview of your penis (Do you use a prosthetic? If so, what kind? If not, talk about your clit/dick/click/whatever you want to call it. How many centimeters or inches has it grown on T, meta, phallo, et cetera? Are you able to feel sensations?)
3.) Sex. (What kind of sex do you prefer/have? Straight, gay, both, et cetera. Are you satisfied with your dick? How does your partner feel about it?)
4.) Packing. (Do you pack? Why or why not?)
5.) Peeing. (STP? Why or not?)
6.) Any other stories, concerns, tips?
Share as much as want; feel free to leave out anything you're not comfortable with, of course.
1.) Stage you're at in your transition (Non-Op, Pre-T, on T [for how many weeks/months/years?], post-op [which op?], or whatever other term you use to describe where you're at right now. Do you plan to move to another level?)
Pre-transition- In the future, I plan on getting on T with top surgery and a phalloplasty done (provided I'm healthy enough to).
2.) Overview of your penis (Do you use a prosthetic? If so, what kind? If not, talk about your clit/dick/click/whatever you want to call it. How many centimeters or inches has it grown on T, meta, phallo, et cetera? Are you able to feel sensations?)
I have a Mr. Limpy but I don't use it regularly. I'm not on T so I have no growth. I have felt sensation in past (but it was rare). I don't feel sensation now because I don't get aroused nowadays, but should I do, I may feel some sensation.
3.) Sex. (What kind of sex do you prefer/have? Straight, gay, both, et cetera. Are you satisfied with your dick? How does your partner feel about it?)
I'm sexually abstinent right now, but when I do start to become sexually active, I will prefer to have straight sex. I'm not satisfied with my dick. I do not have a partner so either.
4.) Packing. (Do you pack? Why or why not?)
I pack on occasion when I'm at home when my dyshoria is really bad, but I do not pack outside of my house since I am still living as a female.
5.) Peeing. (STP? Why or not?)
I will use an improvised STP from time to time at my house just to feel manly, but normally, I will sit. I don't STP in public places because I'm still living as a female right now.
6.) Any other stories, concerns, tips?
I really hope that I will be in a position one day physically and financially that I will be able to get a phalloplasty. As of now, my preferred graft site is the leg, because I don't want a visible scar on my arm. I hope I can get a phalloplasty by the time I'm 30. I am curious to see what a semi-rigid rod implant for a phallo looks like because I don't want to have to worry about changing an inflatable prosthesis every so many years, but I will if I have to. I just hope the durability can last up to 10 years at least in the future.
1.) Stage you're at in your transition (Non-Op, Pre-T, on T [for how many weeks/months/years?], post-op [which op?], or whatever other term you use to describe where you're at right now. Do you plan to move to another level?)
T for around 6 months, have future plans for surgery.
2.) Overview of your penis (Do you use a prosthetic? If so, what kind? If not, talk about your clit/dick/click/whatever you want to call it. How many centimeters or inches has it grown on T, meta, phallo, et cetera? Are you able to feel sensations?)
I use a peecock for packing and for sex. It's starting to show wear so I sometimes opt for a realistic dildo for play. I can feel sensation through it. I have ordered a ReelMagik prosthetic with bendy rod which I hope will replace my current options.
3.) Sex. (What kind of sex do you prefer/have? Straight, gay, both, et cetera. Are you satisfied with your dick? How does your partner feel about it?)
Both with preference for straight. I am a top so there is not much difference between the two. Being a perfectionist I won't be 100% satisfied with whatever substitute I have for a flesh penis. My partner tries to be supportive but I always think deep down prefers a flesh one. I also want to feel what it's like to have a honest-to-goodness BJ. My partner give them to my enlarged clit, but due to the sensitivity it's more pain than pleasure.
4.) Packing. (Do you pack? Why or why not?)
Sometimes when it's convenient. with packing a harness of some kind must be worn to keep the packer in place, otherwise it is a nuisance. Due to that I don't pack as much as I'd like to - I am a very active person and have yet to find something that would keep the packer in place without being bulky/uncomfortable. As the RM is attached by adhesive, I think that might be the next best option.
5.) Peeing. (STP? Why or not?)
Sporadically. With the Peecock one small error could mean a big mess everywhere, so sometimes I just can't be bothered :P
Just want to say this is my favorite kind of post. I love these. And these are really good questions.
--Jay
Thanks, Jay! I'm glad it has been informative so far.
I'm still not sure which route I will want to go eventually. Lots to consider.
A prosthetic is probably a good starting place though since I'm pre-everything but I want to get a good-quality one for both myself and my (future) partners. I have used a dildo with a guy before and he enjoyed it, but I couldn't feel much sensation at all, and it was boring. LOL So next time, I need to find one that provides me with the proper stimulation as well!
1.) Stage you're at in your transition (Non-Op, Pre-T, on T [for how many weeks/months/years?], post-op [which op?], or whatever other term you use to describe where you're at right now. Do you plan to move to another level?)
I am just under a year on Gel T. I plan to have top surgery next year.
2.) Overview of your penis (Do you use a prosthetic? If so, what kind? If not, talk about your clit/dick/click/whatever you want to call it. How many centimeters or inches has it grown on T, meta, phallo, et cetera? Are you able to feel sensations?)
I love my penis! I actually am 3 inches erect. I got very lucky or the males in my family have good genes lol
3.) Sex. (What kind of sex do you prefer/have? Straight, gay, both, et cetera. Are you satisfied with your dick? How does your partner feel about it?)
I prefer straight sex. I enjoy missionary and or her riding me. I normally pump, and then slide a sleeve on over the container and she loves it.
4.) Packing. (Do you pack? Why or why not?) I actually have not purchased a packer yet. But I do plan to.
5.) Peeing. (STP? Why or not?) I just now started using the mens room and rarely use public restrooms as it is. I dont know how i feel about STP because I dont like germs. lol But well see.
6.) Any other stories, concerns, tips?
Tip, shave your junk. It makes your penis look even better! lol But no seriously, its a ride and it will have its ups and downs. But its a great experience to live as you feel! Good luck!
Quote from: CandyCaneTie on April 14, 2014, 06:49:55 PM
1.) Stage you're at in your transition (Non-Op, Pre-T, on T [for how many weeks/months/years?], post-op [which op?], or whatever other term you use to describe where you're at right now. Do you plan to move to another level?)
I've been on T for six and a half months. I need to get top surgery. I also want a hysto and I'm not sure about phallo yet due to the high cost.
Quote from: CandyCaneTie on April 14, 2014, 06:49:55 PM2.) Overview of your penis (Do you use a prosthetic? If so, what kind? If not, talk about your clit/dick/click/whatever you want to call it. How many centimeters or inches has it grown on T, meta, phallo, et cetera? Are you able to feel sensations?)
Not much growth. I try not to think about it.
Quote from: CandyCaneTie on April 14, 2014, 06:49:55 PM3.) Sex. (What kind of sex do you prefer/have? Straight, gay, both, et cetera. Are you satisfied with your dick? How does your partner feel about it?)
I'm too genophobic to be physically attracted to anyone and haven't had a partner in three and a half years.
Quote from: CandyCaneTie on April 14, 2014, 06:49:55 PM4.) Packing. (Do you pack? Why or why not?)
No. A foreign object in my underwear makes me uncomfortable.
Quote from: CandyCaneTie on April 14, 2014, 06:49:55 PM5.) Peeing. (STP? Why or not?)
I don't bother since I'm afraid of getting pee down my leg and it's not much trouble to sit anyway.
Quote from: CandyCaneTie on April 14, 2014, 06:49:55 PM
1.) Stage you're at in your transition (Non-Op, Pre-T, on T [for how many weeks/months/years?], post-op [which op?], or whatever other term you use to describe where you're at right now. Do you plan to move to another level?)
Pre-T, might be starting start soon though. And I'm planning to have a hysto within a year. Not sure about any kind of bottom though, depends on how much I grow I guess.
Quote2.) Overview of your penis (Do you use a prosthetic? If so, what kind? If not, talk about your clit/dick/click/whatever you want to call it. How many centimeters or inches has it grown on T, meta, phallo, et cetera? Are you able to feel sensations?)
No prosthetic, no surgery yet.
Quote3.) Sex. (What kind of sex do you prefer/have? Straight, gay, both, et cetera. Are you satisfied with your dick? How does your partner feel about it?)
I prefer straight rather than gay but haven't had any yet. I'll be much happier when my dick grows on T, and I know my GF and BF already like that idea.
Quote4.) Packing. (Do you pack? Why or why not?)
No, It's uncomfortable and I usually wear loose shorts/pants anyway. I don't even like underwear so unless it's a special occasion, no.
Quote5.) Peeing. (STP? Why or not?)
I really want an STP, standing feels so much better, however, this early in my transition it's not exactly a priority.
Quote6.) Any other stories, concerns, tips?
I was born with more testosterone in my body, and had a surge of it at puberty, so when it comes to sex drive, it's through the roof but I don't fancy the idea of actual intercourse.
Quote from: CandyCaneTie on April 14, 2014, 06:49:55 PM
1.) Stage you're at in your transition (Non-Op, Pre-T, on T [for how many weeks/months/years?], post-op [which op?], or whatever other term you use to describe where you're at right now. Do you plan to move to another level?)
Pre-everything at the moment unfortunately. I have my first appointment with the Gender Identity Clinic in June.
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2.) Overview of your penis (Do you use a prosthetic? If so, what kind? If not, talk about your dick. How many centimeters or inches has it grown on T, meta, phallo, et cetera? Are you able to feel sensations?)
I'm not on T so no growth down there yet obviously. Just the stuff I was born with, although I try to keep it out of my mind as much as possible. There's no prosthetics out there that I'm happy with enough to spend that amount of money on (all circumcised).
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3.) Sex. (What kind of sex do you prefer/have? Straight, gay, both, et cetera. Are you satisfied with your dick? How does your partner feel about it?)
I'm straight. When it's around (my girlfriend keeps it at hers as I don't have anywhere private enough in my life at the moment) I use a "strap-on". It does the job although I wish it was more realistic, I was able to get more sensation from it and it wasn't such a faff to put on. I think she's pretty happy with it though, and it's amazing to be able to do that even if I can't feel a great deal down there. Other times we just do stuff without out it, and normally I'm fortunate enough that my libido keeps my dysphoria in check long enough.
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4.) Packing. (Do you pack? Why or why not?)
I haven't packed for quite a while for the same reasons before that I don't always have my hard dick, privacy. I've been living in a female shared room since September and thus have no where safe enough to keep it when I'm not wearing it and it does funny things in the night, so would be a bit awkward to wake up with a massive bulge! As I'm to be moving into a single room very soon I'm going to take it with me when I return to work next week and try to keep it hidden for the few days left until I'm out there. My dysphoria's not really letting me not wear it these days, it was so good to finally be able to wear it.
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5.) Peeing. (STP? Why or not?)
I have an STP (although not realistic) that I got for a hiking trip, but didn't take it in the end as I couldn't manage not to pee on myself. One day I'll try and get the hang of it but I'm not sure how I'd take it out and about without getting caught carrying it.
1.) Stage you're at in your transition (Non-Op, Pre-T, on T [for how many weeks/months/years?], post-op [which op?], or whatever other term you use to describe where you're at right now. Do you plan to move to another level?)
On T 5 months, plan to eventually have top surgery but not sure about bottom.
2.) Overview of your penis (Do you use a prosthetic? If so, what kind? If not, talk about your clit/dick/click/whatever you want to call it. How many centimeters or inches has it grown on T, meta, phallo, et cetera? Are you able to feel sensations?)
I haven't measured exactly, but if I were to guesstimate, I'd say I've probably had no more than 1cm of growth so far.
3.) Sex. (What kind of sex do you prefer/have? Straight, gay, both, et cetera. Are you satisfied with your dick? How does your partner feel about it?)
Most of the time, I "top" wearing a Tantus Feeldoe Stout, sometimes with an extender and/or vibrating bullet. But I also still "receive" penetration sometimes, and actually find that I like/crave it more now that I'm on T. I primarily sleep with women, but identify as pan and really want to see what it's like to sleep with a guy AS another guy.
As far as "satisfaction" goes, my partners seem pretty pleased with this setup, and while it's not perfect, it's good enough that I'm not giving any serious thought to investing in a >$500 prosthesis anytime soon.
4.) Packing. (Do you pack? Why or why not?)
Nope, I don't really think most people pay attention to any bulge or lack thereof. It's already enough of a hassle trying to keep my binders adjusted so that they aren't poking me in the kidneys, I don't need any more to fuss with.
5.) Peeing. (STP? Why or not?)
I don't use an STP yet, but I might consider it at some point. I'm afraid I'd leak, and it also kinda grosses me out that then you basically have a tube with leftover drops of urine in your pants, but I'd like to be able to stand.
6.) Any other stories, concerns, tips?
When it comes to prosthetics, a lot of the options out there fall into what's called the "uncanny valley" for me. Kinda like how cartoons are lovable but realistic 3D models can sometimes seem creepy, I'd rather have a prosthetic that looked vaguely representational but wasn't really trying to be seen as an actual penis.
Quote1.) Stage you're at in your transition (Non-Op, Pre-T, on T [for how many weeks/months/years?], post-op [which op?], or whatever other term you use to describe where you're at right now. Do you plan to move to another level?)
Been on T for just over two years, but about to go on a really low dose just to maintain my uplifted mood (no more nightmares, no crying jags, and more self-confidence). Got to the point where I feel my body is TOO masculine for my comfort - I never wanted to be a burly lumberjack, more of the androgynous 'boy' look than manly man. Also considering taking some other hormones to counteract the effects I don't like - hair growth, oily skin, nice butt going to my abs, stuff like that.
Before this I took Depo Provera for six years to prevent menstruation so I had a lot of progesterone in my system which was probably preventing my body from making estrogen. Either way, the black box warning says limit to one year or you can have effects - I did... it decreases bone structure, which for me resulted in it giving me nonstop tooth problems. I was getting like 10 fillings a year, have 3 root canals, two removed teeth, and one cap.. after testosterone, I've only needed 2 fillings.
I had top surgery as well as removing the cervix, uterus, fallopians and ovaries. I didn't want kids anyway so this prevents fears of pregnancy or menstruation. I am keepin my vagina permanently and would never want to get rid of it. The testosterone gave me a really bad dryness problem, which is now better because of an estradiol cream my doctor prescribed me.
Grew my penis with DHT cream topically... stopped using it and intended to switch to pumping, but haven't really been doing that. I need to start being on the ball with that. I would like to get a clitoral release so that my dick hangs freely instead of being 'held down', but now I am starting to think maybe I won't.
Quote2.) Overview of your penis (Do you use a prosthetic? If so, what kind? If not, talk about your clit/dick/click/whatever you want to call it. How many centimeters or inches has it grown on T, meta, phallo, et cetera? Are you able to feel sensations?)
I do not use a prosthetic. Sometimes I like to use the feeldoe for solo stimulation because it's a more natural hand and arm motion, but the seam up the middle (so minor, but I feel it) makes it uncomfortable to use too often. Now that I've got the dryness disorder solved I should be less prone to irritation and maybe I can do it more. I was dry from T for about 1.5 years before realizing it, because it happened so slowly that it progressed without me realizing until it was so bad I got the cream, and the instant improvement was such a contrast to before.
My dick is 2 inches if I get really hard. Most of the time I've got a semi, which I realized when there were a couple days there I thought my dick had shrunken a LOT, but then I realized it was a side effect of medication I was taking for anxiety, and that made it 100% flaccid - a state I typically only see it in right after cumming.
I have not had any surgery on my dick and now that it's bigger I can feel MORE sensations than before I grew it because there are more parts and ways for it to be touched. Something this size:
o only has 2 dimensions to play with. Those who have had growth know what I mean
Quote3.) Sex. (What kind of sex do you prefer/have? Straight, gay, both, et cetera. Are you satisfied with your dick? How does your partner feel about it?)
I like to have penis-in-vagina sex with men.
I would like to use my dick for vaginal sex but wouldn't ever want to use it for anal. Yet I'm not romantically or emotionally interested in women, so that would be experimentation and it would be very frustrating if that was the sex I enjoyed having the most! So I just use strokers - use them and absolutely love them.
I would love my dick to be bigger, and any partner I've had loves my dick. Of course I am satisfied with it, it's so much larger and more awesome than it ever was before but who wouldn't want an average-sized cock?
Quote4.) Packing. (Do you pack? Why or why not?)
I do not pack. I tried this a couple times and it was interesting and I really liked seeing a bulge in my pants and feeling a package between my legs but ultimately it did make my dysphoria a lot worse instead of better.
Quote5.) Peeing. (STP? Why or not?)
I've tried using an STP before and as much as I really like being able to just 'whip it out' and go standing, as well as the improved ease of peeing outdoors or discreetly, I actually felt worse about myself using the STP. It was a constant reminder and one more thing to clean, keep in my pocket, make me feel 'not normal' - I enjoyed it at first a few times and when I began to feel like I needed it in my day-to-day life, I realized I was alienating myself.
When I had a couple dreams that involved me peeing and either being afraid someone would see my STP or me peeing sitting down, I realized it was doing me a lot of harm and not any real good. I'd bring one for a camping trip or something, and it sucks to wait for a guy in a stall, but this is not something for my everyday life.
I used to want a urethral lengthening more than anything... now I realize that if there were any sort of complication, I would be so distressed that it could never be worth it... I may do it, but it's very unlikely.
Quote6.) Any other stories, concerns, tips?
A lot of the things that I did to alleviate my dysphoria such as packing and using an STP were really liberating to feel and do the first few times, but after that it made me feel worse. It would be a constant reminder in my pants (or not in them) and every time I peed. I actually felt BETTER when I stopped using an STP and packing.
I recommend trying things like this out for a month or so, maybe even two or three, then go without them for the same length of time, and see if you even WANT to go back. We get to feel like we NEED this or NEED that, when for some people we can feel a habit or compulsion but gratifying that intense drive may make you feel worse, in which case obviously feeling better but compelled is better than still feeling compelled, doing the 'anxiety reliever' and just feeling bad anyway.
1.) Stage you're at in your transition (Non-Op, Pre-T, on T [for how many weeks/months/years?], post-op [which op?], or whatever other term you use to describe where you're at right now. Do you plan to move to another level?)
Almost 5 years on T. Post op (All surgery; top, hysto, and phallo x3 stages).
The only other step I want to take is to finally grow a beard whenever it comes in! Haha.
2.) Overview of your penis (Do you use a prosthetic? If so, what kind? If not, talk about your clit/dick/click/whatever you want to call it. How many centimeters or inches has it grown on T, meta, phallo, et cetera? Are you able to feel sensations?)
Love it. I had good growth pre surgery anyway, but after surgery everything is great. And I
DO have good sensation, despite the myths.
3.) Sex. (What kind of sex do you prefer/have? Straight, gay, both, et cetera. Are you satisfied with your dick? How does your partner feel about it?)
Straight sex, and yes Im satisfied. And partners have also been.
4.) Packing. (Do you pack? Why or why not?)
Not anymore, I did before, as I felt too conscious not to (but back then, Id literally just use a sock. Easy enough).
5.) Peeing. (STP? Why or not?)
I did use a realistic looking STP before surgery. Mostly on nights out, rather than everyday life. I didn't really like to personally acknowledge that I HAD to use one, if that makes sense.
Life has become so much easier and with less hassle after surgery. It is amazing what a difference being able to pee properly, can make. (As a side note, to get to this stage has not been easy. Healing from the urethral hook up was hard!).
6.) Any other stories, concerns, tips?
Quote from: szikha on April 15, 2014, 03:25:02 AM
When more people hear about it the more it will be known to the big non trans people public i'am affraid that there will be my circus programe where they showing the scars. And then people who see my arm will know about me. So on the other side: just keep believing phalloplasy is a fake numb paece of meat between your legs. You will never achive orgasm anymore :D. The risk is that the media circus will expose our scars. Iam stealth!
EXACTLY my worries. I like that most people don't even realize "Ftms" exist. So Ive been able to have all my surgeries and make excuses that fit.
But there was a documentary in the UK not too long ago about transition and a guy post phallo showed his penis and the scar etc. I really hated that. I know it sounds selfish, but what about all those guys who live stealth and would be mortified for anyone to find out? He showed his scar and now anyone who may recognize the scar (or even make that assumption from a scar that looks similar) is going to completely ruin the way "stealth" people can live comfortably. I know it is an extreme view here, but its what I feel.
The fact that forearm phallo is most common, was part of the deciding factor for me getting the pubic phallo! :p
Also, Phalloplasty techniques have improved greatly, and I don't think people realize.
1.) Stage you're at in your transition (Non-Op, Pre-T, on T [for how many weeks/months/years?], post-op [which op?], or whatever other term you use to describe where you're at right now. Do you plan to move to another level?)
Not going on T for medical reasons, but saving my pennies for top surgery.
2.) Overview of your penis (Do you use a prosthetic? If so, what kind? If not, talk about your clit/dick/click/whatever you want to call it. How many centimeters or inches has it grown on T, meta, phallo, et cetera? Are you able to feel sensations?)
It's nearly non-existent, but I'm ordering a pump next week in hopes of getting at least a teeny improvement. I wish there was a surgical way to get a working penis through surgery without having to go on T first, but pigs may sprout wings before then.
3.) Sex. (What kind of sex do you prefer/have? Straight, gay, both, et cetera. Are you satisfied with your dick? How does your partner feel about it?)
I'm pansexual, married to a trans woman, and we're... it's really complicated. Not having sex right now because we both have dysphoria, but we're looking for solutions.
4.) Packing. (Do you pack? Why or why not?)
I have a packer I wear around the house sometimes. I don't wear it out because I get called ma'am half the time and I don't wear jeans so the bulge isn't visible anyway.
5.) Peeing. (STP? Why or not?)
Tried an STP, couldn't get comfortable with it. So I tend to use the handicapped stall in the men's room because public ones generally have sinks in them, so I don't have to stand next to guys if I don't want to.
6.) Any other stories, concerns, tips?
Nope.
1.) Stare at in your transition-Op, Pre-T, on T [for how many weeks/months/years?], post-op [which op?], or whatever other term you use to describe where you're at right now. Do you plan to move to another level?)
Pre-T, pre-op, but living full time as a guy. I'm working on starting T by the end of this year, legal stuff this or next year, and top surgery in a few years.
2.) Overview of your penis (Do you use a prosthetic? If so, what kind? If not, talk about your clit/dick/click/whatever you want to call it. How many centimeters or inches has it grown on T, meta, phallo, et cetera? Are you able to feel sensations?)
Since I'm pre-T there's not much to speak of.
3.) Sex. (What kind of sex do you prefer/have? Straight, gay, both, et cetera. Are you satisfied with your dick? How does your partner feel about it?)
I have a girlfriend so straight sex, though I'm not opposed to an encounter with the right guy provided I'm gendered correctly. I use a strap on though not all the time as I'm fond of my other appendages :P Jury's out for me on how much I want to change my little guy. My partner identifies as a lesbian/queer so there's no issue there.
4.) Packing. (Do you pack? Why or why not?)
I pack with an STP - see below.
5.) Peeing. (STP? Why or not?)
I use a Mr. Fenis and love using urinals probably more than I should. I pack with it pretty much whenever I leave the house, it forms a nice bulge in my pants which I enjoy.
6.) Any other stories, concerns, tips?
I second chaotictribe in that you should just try stuff out and do what feels good, not what you "should or shouldn't" do. The more you think about "should"s the more worked up you can get.
Also, faking confidence often leads to true confidence.
1.) I'm 2 months on T
2.) I don't use a prosthetic, and my clit has grown a bit can't say how much cuz i wasn't really familiar with it int eh first place. (TMI but it's really hairy down there)
3.) ha masturbation count? no one loves me XD so no partner to speak of. gotta say it's easier to get off now though...
4.) I don't pack. i don't wanna be adjusting it all the time, or worse have it fall down my pant leg. no one's looking at my junk i don't really find it vital.
5.) I don't really pass yet so this isn't a concern for me since i use the ladies room still if i really need to go. and as much as i'd love to just wing out a dick and pee, i would rather sit the way i am now cuz knowing me i would screw up the STP somehow and make a mess on myself.
6.) nope.
Quote from: CandyCaneTie on April 14, 2014, 06:49:55 PM
1.) Stage you're at in your transition (Non-Op, Pre-T, on T [for how many weeks/months/years?], post-op [which op?], or whatever other term you use to describe where you're at right now. Do you plan to move to another level?)
8 months on T today, 9 weeks post Top Surgery. Planning to get bottom surgery at the end of this year, most likely phallo. Not keen to have my internal bits removed though.
Quote from: CandyCaneTie on April 14, 2014, 06:49:55 PM
2.) Overview of your penis (Do you use a prosthetic? If so, what kind? If not, talk about your clit/dick/click/whatever you want to call it. How many centimeters or inches has it grown on T, meta, phallo, et cetera? Are you able to feel sensations?)
No prosthetics for me, because they make me feel more dysphoric by reminding me that something is missing. My little guy has grown a couple of centimetres, and the sensations are out of this world!
Quote from: CandyCaneTie on April 14, 2014, 06:49:55 PM
3.) Sex. (What kind of sex do you prefer/have? Straight, gay, both, et cetera. Are you satisfied with your dick? How does your partner feel about it?)
Gay all the way - I have no interest in women and find their bodies 'icky' (no offense to any women who might happen along this thread). I'm currently without a partner as my husband has decided to end our sexual relationship due to my transition, so it's self-service for me at the moment. And whilst the little guy is delightful in his own way, I need to have the real thing (or as close as humanly possible) to feel complete and to participate as fully as I would like to.
Quote from: CandyCaneTie on April 14, 2014, 06:49:55 PM
4.) Packing. (Do you pack? Why or why not?)
No, because it reminds me that something is missing. I tend to wear long shirts to hide the crotch area so that my lack of a bulge isn't obvious.
Quote from: CandyCaneTie on April 14, 2014, 06:49:55 PM
5.) Peeing. (STP? Why or not?)
No STPs either because I just want to pee as naturally as possible. So I either hover over the bowl (especially if it's gross) or I just sit down like I always have. Even after phallo, I'm not entirely sure I'll be happy to use urinals because I like my privacy. Incidentally, I started using the men's room about 9 months before I started T, and I didn't pass in the slightest... but everything was just fine.
Quote from: CandyCaneTie on April 14, 2014, 06:49:55 PM
6.) Any other stories, concerns, tips?
Do whatever makes you feel comfortable, and don't worry about other people's opinions of what you should and shouldn't do. It's your body: have it your way.
Quote from: Make_It_Good on April 28, 2014, 04:43:12 AM
EXACTLY my worries. I like that most people don't even realize "Ftms" exist. So Ive been able to have all my surgeries and make excuses that fit.
But there was a documentary in the UK not too long ago about transition and a guy post phallo showed his penis and the scar etc. I really hated that. I know it sounds selfish, but what about all those guys who live stealth and would be mortified for anyone to find out? He showed his scar and now anyone who may recognize the scar (or even make that assumption from a scar that looks similar) is going to completely ruin the way "stealth" people can live comfortably. I know it is an extreme view here, but its what I feel.
The fact that forearm phallo is most common, was part of the deciding factor for me getting the pubic phallo! :p
Also, Phalloplasty techniques have improved greatly, and I don't think people realize.
I remember that video...on one hand, I was really glad that he shared that he had actually gained sensation, and you got to see some of the newer phalloplasties. Before then, my exposure was limited and so it gave me, as someone who wants that procedure, some more hope for my future. But I really have to wonder why showing the scar was necessary. What does it teach others about trans people and about accepting us? In my opinion, the benefits of showing something like that are very small. If a trans person wanted to know what the scars look like they could contact a surgeon for pictures of results.
Quote from: CandyCaneTie on April 14, 2014, 06:49:55 PM
I don't know if this thread will be allowed here because it is potentially explicit. If not, my apologies in advance, but I thought this would be helpful and insightful to guys in different stages who are wondering how things work and how -well- they work.
So without further adieu:
1.) Stage you're at in your transition (Non-Op, Pre-T, on T [for how many weeks/months/years?], post-op [which op?], or whatever other term you use to describe where you're at right now. Do you plan to move to another level?)
2.) Overview of your penis (Do you use a prosthetic? If so, what kind? If not, talk about your clit/dick/click/whatever you want to call it. How many centimeters or inches has it grown on T, meta, phallo, et cetera? Are you able to feel sensations?)
3.) Sex. (What kind of sex do you prefer/have? Straight, gay, both, et cetera. Are you satisfied with your dick? How does your partner feel about it?)
4.) Packing. (Do you pack? Why or why not?)
5.) Peeing. (STP? Why or not?)
6.) Any other stories, concerns, tips?
Share as much as want; feel free to leave out anything you're not comfortable with, of course.
1. Currently pre-t
2. I don't own anything yet, but I should be getting a packer soon. Other than that, there's not much to comment on.
3. I'm pan (though I like to say queer these days) but I prefer men. My fiance is aware of my situation, as he is trans as well and has no problem with anything. Due to dysphoria issues, we try to find ways around it so we're both getting something out of it.
4. I'm pack to trying to pack on a daily basis, it helps keep some of the dysphoria away.
5. I don't have an STP yet because of cost issues. I used to have one, but it didn't work well with my anatomy and it was just a bad time.
6. Nope.
1. 10 months on testosterone, no surgeries yet, but I eventually want some kind of bottom surgery... it's so far in the future right now I haven't made any decisions about it yet
2. I do not use a prosthetic, although I have had a lot of growth in my netherregions... maybe I should measure it with a ruler at some point.
3. I am in a hetero-asexual relationship. There has never been any sex. Although we are naked all the time for some reason.
4. I do not pack, partially because I bike a lot and partially because I feel like I want a penis with sensation that is a part of me, ergo packing does nothing for my issues with my genitalia.
5. I STP with a medicine spoon. It has never been an issue for me in public restrooms.
6. No further comments as that was awkward enough lol
Further adieu?!
1.) Stage you're at in your transition (Non-Op, Pre-T, on T [for how many weeks/months/years?], post-op [which op?], or whatever other term you use to describe where you're at right now. Do you plan to move to another level?)
On T for over five years.
2.) Overview of your penis (Do you use a prosthetic? If so, what kind? If not, talk about your clit/dick/click/whatever you want to call it. How many centimeters or inches has it grown on T, meta, phallo, et cetera? Are you able to feel sensations?)
I haven't measured it, but it's not nearly large enough. I use a packer. I feel plenty--sometimes a bit too much, haha.
3.) Sex. (What kind of sex do you prefer/have? Straight, gay, both, et cetera. Are you satisfied with your dick? How does your partner feel about it?)
Gay, but I don't have sex with people. I can't even consider it until I've had bottom surgery.
4.) Packing. (Do you pack? Why or why not?)
Yes, because I would go stark raving mad if I didn't.
5.) Peeing. (STP? Why or not?)
I don't use an STP. A medicine spoon is uncomfortable, and the nipple-style packer I have doesn't work well in pants.
6.) Any other stories, concerns, tips?
I want phallo, so I would probably be unsatisfied with any typical amount of growth.
1) I don't know how long I've been on testosterone. Life is a little crazy and starting T isn't the milestone I hoped it would be. At least a year or two, and I think my legal name change was at the beginning of 2012. I made other changes much sooner, including a failed attempt at transition in my teens. I have had my breasts removed, and though my chest does not look at all "natural" it was a significant step. I have not had a hysterectomy and I'm not sure how to approach the issue. Healthcare providers always seem to assume it's already been done and so talking about it is awkward.
I intend to have metoidoplasty and scrotoplasty, after either saving money or fighting my insurance. Not in a big hurry but I need to do it eventually, for my sense of self and peace of mind.
2) I have an inch or two of growth and several hard prosthetics for sex. When I talk about it I refer to my clit or my dick, often with disclaimers. I have full sensation and erections, but can't really penetrate without using strapons or whatever.
3) Historically I have had sex with mostly straight and bisexual men (occasionally women), but I'm at an impasse right now. I can have sex with people who prefer transguys, or with straight or gay guys who are desperate/have low standards, or I can be celibate until I get to know and romantically connect with a person who may or may not understand transpeople. So far it's a mix. I don't use my vagina unless the other person is really into that, and if they are I have to use physical or mental workarounds to make it still fun for both of us.
I am not satisfied with my dick. Vagina-phobic gay men make me feel very bad on a regular basis. I wish and pray all the time to wake up straight, even understanding that wouldn't necessarily be easier. I was raised in the bible belt, with fundamentalist beliefs, and I don't know how to be okay with being homosexual when I can't even act on it without extraordinary confidence and creativity. Sometimes I'm that badass, but the more I'm not the harder it is to even admit that I'm trans.
4) I don't pack. Sometimes I feel like I should, but it's inconvenient. Also I have scary scenarios in my head where someone finds my flaccid "fake" penis and I don't know how to explain it. I think I could talk and posture my way out of a situation with an erect prosthetic but not a regular one.
5) I used to STP but I don't anymore. I was never good at it no matter how much I practiced in the shower or whatever. I have had success as far as appearances with a medicine spoon and with a gogirl, but I often had trickles and having to be low-key about the devices was frustrating. I do practice standing to pee without a device when there's a stall door to shut. I sit down when there's not, and even with no door I've never had any real problems. When I'm in the suburbs or other conservative areas I'm still nervous and hold it until I'm somewhere better if I can. Wherever I am, I avoid urinals. I can use them even without STP but would rather not.
6) My transition and general mental health are shaped by the fact that I'm a single parent of a severely disabled teenager, and some of my fundamentalist hangups are exacerbated by the fact that we are always surrounded by people who live in poverty. I cannot speak openly about being trans in most in-person situations, as even professed liberals often speculate that my "confusion" is the source of my daughter's mental illness. Or they don't clearly assume, but ask a lot of pointed questions and then gossip behind my back. I have had my kid removed by the state once before for reasons that were never clear, and I have had to face accusations about my gender and sexual orientation repeatedly, sometimes in court. I have been barred from certain social service agencies when they either find out I'm trans or believe I am a lesbian, on the grounds that my presence would send the wrong message to other people's children. I get aggressively called "ma'am" by people who know me as the caregiver for my daughter, and that leads to situations that don't feel safe.
My being trans piles onto the isolation we experience due to my daughter's behaviors. Parks and Recreation has been polite but don't want me in either male or female locker rooms. I pass fine as fully male, my driver's license is up-to-date with regards to name and gender designation, my voice is deep, etc, but I get outed a lot, like almost daily, partly because it is in my kid's treatment records and is such a relevant part of her history that I'm not willing to fight to have it removed. I don't necessarily want to hide that I'm trans, but people's reactions are teaching her that it is shameful and bad, and they treat me like it's proof that I'm not trustworthy. The constant judgement is a major trigger and leads me to try to stay quiet and never complain. My daughter's issues are sometimes used as proof that my gender identity is the result of trauma. Even people who don't know I'm trans have told me that my being gay stems from the same genetic failures as my kid's intellectual disability. The judgement is open, vocal, frequent, and always tolerated by onlookers and witnesses, so I think I have more shame and fear than a normal transperson would have at this stage in transition. When I do object to overt mistreatment or obvious misgendering, the response is usually to change the subject or deny outright that there was any problem. I have no recourse and am told a story that frames my "belief" that I'm a man as the source of many other problems.
So I tend to neglect my own transition/empowerment/self-actualization etc in favor of keeping a low profile. I'm sure that skews my outlook toward more paranoia and defeatism than is typical.