For me I started intense hiding after age 12. Even though I've been dressing the part for years and years starting hormones almost 12 weeks ago has made me realize that I'm 12 as far as my gender (if that makes sense). Obviously biologically I'm over 50 but part of me got stuck at the age I started repressing my true self.
Sometimes I'll sit and look at women amazed at their beauty. Same on this site (this isn't any sort of come on or anything but simply true).
I'm curious as to what you all consider your emotional age and how it manifests itself?
i'm mentally 14. thats when i suppressed my emotions so i'm stuck in time at 14 lol
Going through this sort of second puberty I am trying to think and dress for around 35 even though I am 48. I want to think and dress as an 18 year old, but that ship sailed and sank quite a while ago. ;D
"Age appropriate" is not in my vocabulary. Suck it, world. I'm making up for lost time, dammit!
Quote from: Umiko Nixie on May 05, 2014, 07:02:06 PM
i'm mentally 14. thats when i suppressed my emotions so i'm stuck in time at 14 lol
14! You're older than I am, lol.
Quote from: Jessica Merriman on May 05, 2014, 07:03:34 PM
Going through this sort of second puberty I am trying to think and dress for around 35 even though I am 48. I want to think and dress as an 18 year old, but that ship sailed and sank quite a while ago. ;D
Second puberty is a good way to describe it. It's more fun this time around though. The first time was rather horrifying, lol. At least you're to age 35. Yeah-I hear you bout that ship sinking awhile ago. I can't dress 12, or really think 12, but in some ways am still there. I figure I'll grow up quickly with all the help I'm getting now though. I really want to enjoy this part though.
Quote from: Jill F on May 05, 2014, 07:05:21 PM
"Age appropriate" is not in my vocabulary. Suck it, world. I'm making up for lost time, dammit!
Totally!!!!
Quote from: TRyan on May 05, 2014, 07:14:46 PM
14! You're older than I am, lol.
Second puberty is a good way to describe it. It's more fun this time around though. The first time was rather horrifying, lol. At least you're to age 35. Yeah-I hear you bout that ship sinking awhile ago. I can't dress 12, or really think 12, but in some ways am still there. I figure I'll grow up quickly with all the help I'm getting now though. I really want to enjoy this part though.
Totally!!!!
i'm 21 but if you'd ask me my age i'd really say 14 xD i can still pass as 14 so that's great on me xD
Quote from: TRyan on May 05, 2014, 07:14:46 PM
Second puberty is a good way to describe it. It's more fun this time around though.
I got better toys this time around! ;D
I have thought about this in the past. I guess mentally the real me I would say late teens.
I've said it before, but inside every older person is a young person wondering what the hell happened.
Quote from: Jessica Merriman on May 05, 2014, 07:23:36 PM
I got better toys this time around! ;D
Better toys, better clothes, better everything..... :)
Quote from: Umiko Nixie on May 05, 2014, 07:22:07 PM
i'm 21 but if you'd ask me my age i'd really say 14 xD i can still pass as 14 so that's great on me xD
That's so great you've given yourself this gift of wholeness that you can enjoy for the rest of your life........even at 14, lol.
Quote from: Jill F on May 05, 2014, 07:36:04 PM
I've said it before, but inside every older person is a young person wondering what the hell happened.
Indeed! Lol.
Quote from: Jill FI've said it before, but inside every older person is a young person wondering what the hell happened.
Too true. I'm 37, "really." Thank goodness I'm not 12, or 19, inside; I sure wouldn't want to go back there emotionally. Well, sexually, 19 would be fine, but -- let's not go there. >:-))
What's interesting is that I do in fact feel younger since starting on T a couple of months ago. Don't know why... maybe in part the direct effects of the hormone on my physical well-being, something about that second puberty thing, or just the sense that life has wonders in store for me once again... but I feel less 60-ish every day.
Quote from: TRyan on May 05, 2014, 07:51:17 PM
Better toys, better clothes, better everything..... :)
Darn it! Now I am thinking 16 or so! ;D
Quote from: Cynthia Michelle on May 05, 2014, 07:32:31 PM
I have thought about this in the past. I guess mentally the real me I would say late teens.
It's sort of fun to think about and entertain.
Quote from: Jessica Merriman on May 05, 2014, 07:55:09 PM
Darn it! Now I am thinking 16 or so! ;D
Lol! What happened?
Quote from: Tysilio on May 05, 2014, 07:54:28 PM
Too true. I'm 37, "really." Thank goodness I'm not 12, or 19, inside; I sure wouldn't want to go back there emotionally. Well, sexually, 19 would be fine, but -- let's not go there. >:-))
What's interesting is that I do in fact feel younger since starting on T a couple of months ago. Don't know why... maybe in part the direct effects of the hormone on my physical well-being, something about that second puberty thing, or just the sense that life has wonders in store for me once again... but I feel less 60-ish every day.
Haha! Maybe you're growing up and growing down since starting testosterone (that's the way I'm looking at it right now). I know what you mean about that sense that life has wonders in store again.....
A small part of me is 12. When I came out to myself in the late 90's I got some of that out of the way but I'm going back to reclaim all parts of myself that got left behind.
14 years old, when i moved to live in Bangkok alone .. studied in all boys school,lived alone in the house ... that when i started thinking about who i really was, who i really wanted to be
My emotional age? Shoot what day of the week is it, or really what hour of the day? Saturday I did well to approach two. Today I'm a much more stable fifteen year old. Maybe one day I will be mature, and productive, for now it is manic depressive tempered by extreme immaturity. I find myself crying and laughing all at the same time over nothing at all. It would not bode well for me to be making much in the way of decisions right now. Wonder what tomorrow will bring. I hope it is a smile. ;)
Julie
I don't know....10?....12?
:D
Yeah, sometimes just 2. LOL
Quote from: Jessica Merriman on May 05, 2014, 08:18:24 PM
New "E" patch? :laugh:
I see, lol. 16 in a good way? Or emotional? Sweet 16. ;)
Quote from: JulieBlair on May 05, 2014, 08:33:16 PM
My emotional age? Shoot what day of the week is it, or really what hour of the day? Saturday I did well to approach two. Today I'm a much more stable fifteen year old. Maybe one day I will be mature, and productive, for now it is manic depressive tempered by extreme immaturity. I find myself crying and laughing all at the same time over nothing at all. It would not bode well for me to be making much in the way of decisions right now. Wonder what tomorrow will bring. I hope it is a smile. ;)
Julie
Got it. :) A smile and a laugh are very good things.
Quote from: @Diana on May 05, 2014, 08:21:07 PM
14 years old, when i moved to live in Bangkok alone .. studied in all boys school,lived alone in the house ... that when i started thinking about who i really was, who i really wanted to be
Wow-that takes courage. Are you still in Bangkok?
Quote from: Laura Squirrel on May 05, 2014, 08:33:59 PM
Another 12 year old, lol!
Quote from: JamesG on May 05, 2014, 08:40:35 PM
Yeah-I try not to think about those days. :)
Yeah, sometimes just 2. LOL
I don't know....10?....12?
:D
TRyan, no , I have been living in Australia for almost 9 years now :) .. but I try to visit my parents in Thailand whenever I have time (once a year/2 years)
My brother always used to say "You can't really do anything about growing old, growing up however is totally optional".
Some parts of me are still a 14 year old girl, I kinda try to bump her up to the point where she can go out, visit a bar and not embarrass us.
I'm finding my second teen years to be much much better, aside from not getting beat up now I'm allowed to visit bars, I can afford to visit them and live in a reasonably nice place eating real food instead of craft dinners and no name noodles.
Then again, sometimes I wish I could go back, who knows, enjoy the moment and remember that growing up is optional, you are only as old as you feel.
Quote from: antonia on May 05, 2014, 11:57:27 PM
"You can't really do anything about growing old, growing up however is totally optional".
Yep! :eusa_clap:
Hi,
Appropriate as i was growing i was allways a bit more mature than my age,
So is in keeping with who i am as a person a little more serous a thinker yet had fun along the way, did a few normal things kids do though spent time by myself,
So now coming up to 67 im a mature woman, part of becoming that woman has been being female in many ways to start with, and being who i am im pretty normal Emotionaly well rounded and confident in myself .
...noeleena...
Quote from: noeleena on May 06, 2014, 12:48:58 AM
Hi,
Appropriate as i was growing i was allways a bit more mature than my age,
So is in keeping with who i am as a person a little more serous a thinker yet had fun along the way, did a few normal things kids do though spent time by myself,
So now coming up to 67 im a mature woman, part of becoming that woman has been being female in many ways to start with, and being who i am im pretty normal Emotionaly well rounded and confident in myself .
...noeleena...
your siggies make me smile :)
I'd guess I'm about 16ish.