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Community Conversation => Transsexual talk => Male to female transsexual talk (MTF) => Topic started by: stephaniec on May 08, 2014, 12:49:37 PM

Title: I jumped in
Post by: stephaniec on May 08, 2014, 12:49:37 PM
well, I decided no more male. I can't do it any more. I went to my therapy session tues. as myself and decided that's how I'll do it from now on. I went to Target yesterday and got some outfits and a really nice black knee high dress. The dress is for my next therapy session. I don't have male clothes anymore except for a pair of boots and two pair of jeans. I woke up this morning and tried on my dress and I guess my brain just snapped. I went to my normal restaurant wearing skinny jeans and a pull over dress put on my make up and just said the hell with it I can't live the way I lived for so long any more. So I guess it's my new birthday.
Title: Re: I jumped in
Post by: Dee Marshall on May 08, 2014, 12:55:45 PM
Congratulations and best of luck. I'm very proud of you!
Title: Re: I jumped in
Post by: stephaniec on May 08, 2014, 12:57:51 PM
Quote from: Dee Marshall on May 08, 2014, 12:55:45 PM
Congratulations and best of luck. I'm very proud of you!
thanks
Title: Re: I jumped in
Post by: AnneB on May 08, 2014, 01:09:07 PM
me, too, proud of you, sis! 

I soooo want to just tell my family I want.. no.. really -need- to do this and just walk away, saving my mind from the hurt and pain, but sadly, I know I wont, I;m not strong enough.

I truly envy you have the courage to do this for yourself.  I wish I was as strong.
Title: Re: I jumped in
Post by: suzifrommd on May 08, 2014, 01:11:38 PM
Quote from: stephaniec on May 08, 2014, 12:49:37 PM
I went to my normal restaurant wearing skinny jeans and a pull over dress put on my make up and just said the hell with it I can't live the way I lived for so long any more. So I guess it's my new birthday.

Stephanie, that's the way to do it. A lot of people spend years planning their transitions and they end up a few unhappy years older.

Enjoy womanhood. Those have been the best days of my life.
Title: Re: I jumped in
Post by: stephaniec on May 08, 2014, 01:13:00 PM
Quote from: Paula Christine on May 08, 2014, 01:09:07 PM
me, too, proud of you, sis! 

I soooo want to just tell my family I want.. no.. really -need- to do this and just walk away, saving my mind from the hurt and pain, but sadly, I know I wont, I;m not strong enough.

I truly envy you have the courage to do this for yourself.  I wish I was as strong.
well,  my situation is quite different , I have no one else to be concerned about. It's not a big hurdle for me
Title: Re: I jumped in
Post by: stephaniec on May 08, 2014, 01:15:13 PM
Quote from: suzifrommd on May 08, 2014, 01:11:38 PM
Stephanie, that's the way to do it. A lot of people spend years planning their transitions and they end up a few unhappy years older.

Enjoy womanhood. Those have been the best days of my life.
yea, it just feels so right
Title: Re: I jumped in
Post by: Blue Rabbit on May 08, 2014, 02:15:34 PM
Happy new birthday!
Title: Re: I jumped in
Post by: stephaniec on May 08, 2014, 02:22:59 PM
Quote from: Blue Rabbit on May 08, 2014, 02:15:34 PM
Happy new birthday!
thanks, I'm not quite a day old
Title: Re: I jumped in
Post by: Ms Grace on May 08, 2014, 02:43:50 PM
Great news! As one recent full time transitioner to another I wish you all the best.
Title: Re: I jumped in
Post by: stephaniec on May 08, 2014, 02:50:52 PM
Quote from: Ms Grace on May 08, 2014, 02:43:50 PM
Great news! As one recent full time transitioner to another I wish you all the best.
thank you so much , so far so good , nobody has thrown any thing at me yet.
Title: Re: I jumped in
Post by: Jill F on May 08, 2014, 02:52:46 PM
Congrats!  That has to be such a relief. 

One day last year I just said "screw it".  I felt so ridiculous in boy clothes with my nipples poking through the shirt one day that I never wanted to play that charade ever again.
Title: Re: I jumped in
Post by: stephaniec on May 08, 2014, 02:55:48 PM
Quote from: Jill F on May 08, 2014, 02:52:46 PM
Congrats!  That has to be such a relief. 

One day last year I just said "screw it".  I felt so ridiculous in boy clothes with my nipples poking through the shirt one day that I never wanted to play that charade ever again.
yea, each second that ticks by is such a feeling of great relief
Title: Re: Re: I jumped in
Post by: Dee Marshall on May 08, 2014, 03:06:58 PM
Quote from: Jill F on May 08, 2014, 02:52:46 PM
I felt so ridiculous in boy clothes with my nipples poking through the shirt one day that I never wanted to play that charade ever again.

You get used to it. I've been in boy clothes with poky nipples since I was 12 (gynecomastia). On the plus side I haven't started HRT and I'm already a "B" cup. Even while losing weight that hasn't changed so most of it must be breast tissue rather than fat.
Title: Re: I jumped in
Post by: Ltl89 on May 08, 2014, 03:35:31 PM
Congrats Stephanie.  I hope from here on out it will be nothing but smooth sailing. 
Title: Re: I jumped in
Post by: RosieD on May 08, 2014, 03:35:42 PM
Quote from: stephaniec on May 08, 2014, 02:50:52 PM
thank you so much , so far so good , nobody has thrown any thing at me yet.

<GRIN> I will be surprised if they ever do.  Congratulations and happy birthday!  I would send over jelly and ice cream but fear they would melt in transit.

Rosie
Title: Re: I jumped in
Post by: Ms Grace on May 08, 2014, 04:18:58 PM
Quote from: stephaniec on May 08, 2014, 02:50:52 PM
thank you so much , so far so good , nobody has thrown any thing at me yet.

If they ever do, pick it up and throw it back! ;)
Title: Re: I jumped in
Post by: nikkit72 on May 08, 2014, 04:19:34 PM
Awesome !

Sorry, word of the week for me due to being subjected to the Lego Movie and not being able to get the theme song out of my head.

But that is what it is. Awesome.

Congratulations !! ;D ;D

Title: Re: I jumped in
Post by: Natalia on May 08, 2014, 09:26:24 PM
Congratulaions!!! It must be awesome to be free of those chains at last. =)

Enjoy your new life! ^^
Title: Re: I jumped in
Post by: Joan on May 08, 2014, 09:34:23 PM
Good for you, Stephanie!

Anything comes sailing over throw it back and then some as well :)

My timeframe keeps getting shorter too. Hoping to join you soon.
Title: Re: I jumped in
Post by: mandonlym on May 08, 2014, 09:45:19 PM
Hurrah! So happy for you!!!
Title: Re: I jumped in
Post by: Miranda Catherine on May 09, 2014, 01:00:34 AM
Stephanie,

    I'm sooo proud of you! I'm positive you did it the right way, just say 'screw it', I can't live as a male impersonator anymore. Because in the end, isn't that what we all were, male impersonators? Some are just better actresses. I'm so happy I did it much like you did, and I wouldn't change a thing. I went full time after less than six weeks on HRT, but once given the opportunity, you have to take it. Just like if your mind tells you it's time. This will be the best time of your life, Steph. The next thing you need to do is have a smiling photo of you in makeup and one of your new outfits. Good luck, girl! Hugs, Mira
Title: Re: I jumped in
Post by: stephaniec on May 09, 2014, 12:43:24 PM
thank you every one for all the encouragement . Susan's has been such a great help for me.
Title: Re: I jumped in
Post by: KatelynRain on May 09, 2014, 02:27:14 PM
Woohoo!!! It's the first leap or step that's the hardest!!  I'm so proud of you!
Title: Re: I jumped in
Post by: stephaniec on May 09, 2014, 07:32:26 PM
thanks it's get fun once you get started. It's that first mountain that's the problem
Title: Re: I jumped in
Post by: Jessica Merriman on May 09, 2014, 08:56:27 PM
Quote from: stephaniec on May 08, 2014, 02:22:59 PM
thanks, I'm not quite a day old

Edited for age violation! *giggles* :)

CONGRATS STEPHANIE!
Title: Re: I jumped in
Post by: stephaniec on May 10, 2014, 02:07:22 PM
 :icon_giggle:
Quote from: Jessica Merriman on May 09, 2014, 08:56:27 PM
Edited for age violation! *giggles* :)

CONGRATS STEPHANIE!
:)