I will be taking a short spiritual retreat to reacquaint myself with my gender centers, physical, mental and spiritual, and to gain strength from Christ to return again a little more healthy, as I have been weakened by recent battles with physical dysphoria, deception that pushed it too far and out of truth to who I am, and the reality shock of what the stakes really are in acceptance, authenticity, and the pain that can come from discovery that not everyone that I love can accept my true personality and presentation.
Your prayers are most welcome.
With freedom from repression, or more accurately allowing myself to feel, a flood has been unleashed and I need to be on top of the wave and see where this boat is going.
Many, many thanks to all here, my heart goes out to you and my prayers will bless you.
More later. Love to all.
I will return to the mtf, androgyne, and Christianity forums as soon as God moves in prayer to bring me back in. I need to talk to Him for a little while about what His plan is in all this. I must find His heart, and I know He is with me, I can feel Him and He is pleased with my desire to help and heal, but He is also saddened. There is an assurance that I feel that He has it all figured out and everything is going to be ok.
There is always a plan.
God Bless.
I hope you work it out SJ! Will miss you. :icon_hug:
SJ
Be well. The waves look great and you have become quite a surfer. Just take your time, sit on your board for a while. You, the ocean and your future. Then when you are ready, find the next set, pick the best formed wave, paddle hard and stand up. I can see you riding it all the way to the beach, a great ride, a great wave and an inspiration to us all. Enjoy the surf. We are paddling out to join you
Safe surfing
Aisla
I wish you all the luck during your break. Please come back whenever you need to talk to someone or if feel the desire to do so. :)
-hugs- Best wishes, Satin! :)
Well, I should tell you I am back now, healthy, a little stronger, and happy to be with you.
I will be in the non binary and Christianity sections only, so as to not trigger the physical dysphoria to where i can't handle it.
God Bless. Thank you for your prayers and expressions of love and support.
SJ
Love having you back.
Aisla