So I'm checking out guys now... Never let myself do that before HRT, consciously. It's so new and exciting!
I started doing this 2 months ago, I finally let the girl in me take the wheel... Finally felt relaxed enough to let her to take charge of the eyeballs.
I was sitting in my car outside my house and saw someone turn around the corner jogging- it wasn't the first attractive man I've seen in my life- but it sure felt like it. He was shirtless. Thank god my chest is turning feminine, but his needs to stay just the way it is. I just imagined being so small and safe wrapped in a bundle on his chest. And my smooth cheek against his stubble.. *shudder*...
It was these sort of thoughts that really got me- I was very surprised by the feeling- it went all the way from my toes to the top of my head and it took over me! It seems I wasn't holding the door closed anymore, so the feelings just let themselves in for the first time. I don't think it was HRT that necessarily opened the door for me, but accepting myself as female did.
Now earlier today I found myself in a very amusing state of mind- I was checking someone out at the gas station today and I just couldn't really tell if I found them attractive or not- or to what degree I did/didn't. It really puzzled me. I stood there thinking "hmm.. do I think he's cute?" "I don't know, what do I normally look for to tell?" I mean, I was kinda stumped since my hormones didn't let me know, but I was still staring at him. My body lets me know sometimes very abruptly- but with the many varying degrees of male attractiveness, I can't really navigate that well. I don't really know what makes a male attractive to me yet, it's almost like I haven't developed my taste or my mind doesn't know what I'm looking for. I think the whole mechanism of my visual sexual attraction has changed in a way, and it's very unfamiliar territory. I know when I'm see a cute guy, but I can't really discern the root of the attraction... It seems like my mind just runs through a fantasy of being on the receiving end of an action, such as "GOD DAMNIT JUST GRAB ME, PUSH ME AGAINST THE CAR AND KISS ME" instead of "Damn that is one fine <insert body part>."
speaking of inserting body parts- actually, we'll wait on that one ::) .... anyways...
So, what do you ladies find most attractive in men? And for those who opened up to this attraction later in life, how was the process? What did you notice first?
YAAAAYYY! hehe :)
I love a man who is rugged and rough around the edges. Down to earth men are the best haha
For me it's always been very clear..if I see an attractive guy in little/no clothes my body will respond with blood flow.
HRT has diminished the blood flow response to a different kind of arousal, I guess. But, yeah.
I don't think HRT changes sexuality,tbh, so whatever....well, got you hard, before, is still your true sexuality. But sometimes transition has a way of makings peeps more..open minded and less visually gixated, I guess.
Quote from: Abbyxo on May 19, 2014, 02:09:17 AM
For me it's always been very clear..if I see an attractive guy in little/no clothes my body will respond with blood flow.
HRT has diminished the blood flow response to a different kind of arousal, I guess. But, yeah.
I don't think HRT changes sexuality,tbh, so whatever....well, got you hard, before, is still your true sexuality. But sometimes transition has a way of makings peeps more..open minded and less visually gixated, I guess.
I'm bisexual, always have been... It's just I wouldn't even let myself think those thoughts before.. and when I did, a lot of guilt and self denial followed. I guess they never blossomed, so they were never clear as to me.
Quote from: bubbles21 on May 19, 2014, 02:05:19 AM
YAAAAYYY! hehe :)
I love a man who is rugged and rough around the edges. Down to earth men are the best haha
It's funny, I like feminine men too! All kinds!
Yes their are so many different types of men. Give me Gerard Butler anyday hahaha
...and Orlando Bloom... it's getting hard to breathe :o
Haha Indeed it is. So glad I signed up to this site right now haha its awesome.
You know what would make it more awesome? A Gerard Butler body sized pillow when you donate over $20... Hehe just kidding :)
haha I think Susan would have me flat broke hahaha :P
Going to bed would be euphoric, jumping into a bed covered in 10+ gerard butlers, and only one little ol' me...
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