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Community Conversation => Transsexual talk => Female to male transsexual talk (FTM) => Topic started by: echo_artist on May 29, 2014, 03:46:39 PM

Title: My dysphoria is kinda weird... (MAY be triggering?)
Post by: echo_artist on May 29, 2014, 03:46:39 PM
I know alot of people talk about their naught bits are the death of them. I feel somewhat different towards mine.
It's mostly my butt that makes me dysphoric as all hell. It's gotten me into the worse situations.
I can deal with my boobs because there are times when I ....feel like a cross dresser and I like to dress pretty.
My downstairs....I don't remember the last time I saw it. I pay little attention to it, but I make sure its healthy.
I don't mind being intimate, I just get choked up and not wanting to do anything when I have that, "ghost phallus"
moment.
Obvious I don't have a phallus....but I was wondering if I was the unicorn in the FTM community?

Title: Re: My dysphoria is kinda weird... (MAY be triggering?)
Post by: Umiko on May 29, 2014, 03:50:45 PM
hahaha! i feel the same. i dont mind whats done there but if i do get the option of it going gonzo, i wouldn't hesitate for it to go bye bye. its mostly top dysphoria for me and since muscle definition is being chiseled away at me, it causes my dysphoria to shot up to deadly levels. other than that, mines is weird as well :o
Title: Re: My dysphoria is kinda weird... (MAY be triggering?)
Post by: echo_artist on May 29, 2014, 03:55:55 PM
I try to think of it a weird way when I get dysphoric...
looking at my body, I try to tell myself, I'm just a really
feminine male who takes care of them self. (Which I do.)

You could try and say you're an athletic female, if that helps. (hope that wasn't triggering)
Title: Re: My dysphoria is kinda weird... (MAY be triggering?)
Post by: Ryan55 on May 29, 2014, 03:56:23 PM
dysphoria is different for everyone, my bottom isn't that bad either, I have more about the top half than anything, although I have some limits when it comes to being intimate in that area (ex. boxers stay on and no penetration). Like I said everyone has dysphoria differently and on different levels.
Title: Re: My dysphoria is kinda weird... (MAY be triggering?)
Post by: echo_artist on May 29, 2014, 04:03:12 PM
Truche, I've just met alot of bottom or all around dysphoric people. So I thought I was the weirdo for
wanting to CD-ing as a female.
Title: Re: My dysphoria is kinda weird... (MAY be triggering?)
Post by: Umiko on May 29, 2014, 04:11:03 PM
Quote from: echo_artist on May 29, 2014, 04:03:12 PM
Truche, I've just met alot of bottom or all around dysphoric people. So I thought I was the weirdo for
wanting to CD-ing as a female.
not really weird lol. i rather continue to dress the way i dress but my clothes are mostly gender neutral though i like my dark colored clothes instead of the light colors.
Title: Re: My dysphoria is kinda weird... (MAY be triggering?)
Post by: echo_artist on May 29, 2014, 04:15:39 PM
I like wearing clothes from either dresses...and some nice dresses on the side. (I gotta a reputation of wearing
nice girl clothes when the time is right. lol)
My taste in men's clothes are either I'm from the suburbs or I dress like a gentleman in a suit. ^_=;
Title: Re: My dysphoria is kinda weird... (MAY be triggering?)
Post by: Kreuzfidel on May 29, 2014, 06:07:28 PM
I wouldn't say your feelings are common, but they certainly aren't uncommon either. 

I think that there are a lot of guys who fall somewhere in the gender spectrum who are no longer afraid to voice their feelings and how dysphoria does or doesn't affect them.  Everyone has their own problems to deal with. 
Title: Re: My dysphoria is kinda weird... (MAY be triggering?)
Post by: Hex on May 29, 2014, 06:47:11 PM
While I have that whole ghost phallus issue a lot, I on the other hand don't mind using what's already there either. I look at it as, while it's there I'll make the best of it and use it. But when it's gone it's gone for good lol
Title: Re: My dysphoria is kinda weird... (MAY be triggering?)
Post by: pianoforte on May 29, 2014, 07:07:49 PM
My only problem with the downstairs stuff is when it decides to engage in unnecessarily gross and painful reproductive-related functions. Otherwise I get along pretty well with that part of myself.

I mostly worry about my chest in an on-again, off-again way. I dress to show off my chest sometimes when I need confidence, and it definitely feels like drag performance but I get plenty of compliments. Then I go home and look down and I'm like "meh why am I so lumpy" and stress out about it.

I feel like it's definitely personal in terms of what your relationship is with your body, what it does for you, and what pains it has caused you in the past.