I've been on such an emotional roller coaster lately. I go from feeling great enough to walk out the door fully fem, and then it seems I sink right back into fear. I go from believing in myself and knowing this is what I want to worrying that I've just convinced myself of it all. It's very tiresome and I've found myself slipping into old habits of dissociation, which worries me. I guess I got better at repressing things than I had thought.
Hey,
Sometimes the fear of doing something stops us from moving forward. Girl, I failed so badly for so long. I literally had a woman run forward, grab her child and glare at me as she retreated. That is a fail.
But I had to be me. I just got a friend and went anyway. Don't let fear stop you from enjoying life.
I also worked like mad to get FFS. Now, I pass. But I remember the fear.
Hugs,
Jen