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Community Conversation => Transgender talk => Topic started by: Ms Grace on June 24, 2014, 04:10:21 AM

Title: 12 months HRT… 3 months RLE… woo!
Post by: Ms Grace on June 24, 2014, 04:10:21 AM
So a year ago today I walked home from my second endo visit with a box of little blue pills. If I could go back and tell myself where I'd be today I think I wouldn't have believed it possible. Back then I knew I had to do this for my sanity and happiness but even so couldn't imagine I'd be ready for real life experience before a year and a half at least. I sure had a lot of doubts but pressed on regardless. And then the hormones began to work their biological "magic". Had my first real trip outside in girl mode about six moths ago, started outing myself to all and sundry... it's like I couldn't hold it back. Susan's and the wonderful people here has been a major form of support for me, really helped me to keep it together when everything got surreal or difficult. I started thinking I'd go full time in early June, but again there was no way Grace was going to wait that long, and almost before I knew it I'd outed myself at work and, most crucially to my parents and family. And so, three months later, wow, what a ride! Some of it (like the electrolysis, my father's denial, and getting hassled by some creep) hasn't been fun but the rest of it has been a wonderful, fulfilling life experience. Nobody pinch me, I don't wanna wake up!
Title: Re: 12 months HRT… 3 months RLE… woo!
Post by: FTMDiaries on June 24, 2014, 04:29:59 AM
Happy anniversary! :)
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Post by: Jessica Merriman on June 24, 2014, 04:32:21 AM
Three months already? Where does the time go. Seems like just yesterday we were all giving you grief about not making it to your official date. CONGRATS SIS!  :-*
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Post by: helen2010 on June 24, 2014, 04:48:13 AM
Grace

You have been inspirational.  We have walked with you every step of the way.  Thank you for your sharing and for your leadership.

Aisla
Title: Re: 12 months HRT… 3 months RLE… woo!
Post by: immortal gypsy on June 24, 2014, 05:01:54 AM
If time flies when one is having fun. We could say Grace has been having a ball
Title: Re: 12 months HRT… 3 months RLE… woo!
Post by: Amy The Bookworm on June 24, 2014, 09:49:33 AM
Grace, as I work up to just getting to the point where I can start HRT (Which has taken a lot longer than I would like due to things outside my control) you've been a huge inspiration for me. I'm so glad everything is working out for you!
Title: Re: 12 months HRT… 3 months RLE… woo!
Post by: Kyra553 on June 24, 2014, 10:04:07 AM
Quote from: Amy The Bookworm on June 24, 2014, 09:49:33 AM
Grace, as I work up to just getting to the point where I can start HRT (Which has taken a lot longer than I would like due to things outside my control) you've been a huge inspiration for me. I'm so glad everything is working out for you!

As a person who finally just started HRT, I'm in the same boat and second this!
Congrats on the thus far success Grace!! ;)
Title: Re: 12 months HRT… 3 months RLE… woo!
Post by: AnneB on June 24, 2014, 10:18:49 AM
Grace, congratulations on your anniversary!  I'm so envious!   >:-)
Title: Re: 12 months HRT… 3 months RLE… woo!
Post by: JulieBlair on June 24, 2014, 11:29:29 AM
Grace, happy anniversary! 

You were right you know.  Being full time is mind blowingly wonderful.  I keep looking at myself in the mirror at work, and have to pinch myself awake.  I am grateful for your guidance and friendship.

Julie
Title: Re: 12 months HRT… 3 months RLE… woo!
Post by: Jill F on June 24, 2014, 02:15:20 PM
Woohoo!  Happy estroversary, Grace. 
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Post by: EmmaD on June 24, 2014, 02:43:07 PM
Congrats Grace and thank you so much. 

My LBP (Little Blue Pill) day was Oct 17 last year and I too was thinking I had all the time in the world but have since been out presenting as Emma and have come out to my first non-trans establishment person.  Out to immediate family but as they are a critical part of my support team, I class them the same as my medical/psych team!  Disclose to management at work in a week, FFS late November and full time Jan 5 2015!  It seems fast as i live it but I think perhaps it is just all coming together as it should.

I viewed your amendment to your FTE date with some trepidation (although it was so right for you) and feel that by November, I will be finding it both physically and emotionally difficult to work in boy mode. So, thank you for sharing over the past year.  You have helped me so much.  I am more than a little bit in awe of you.

Emma
Title: Re: 12 months HRT… 3 months RLE… woo!
Post by: Lara the Lover and the Fighter on June 24, 2014, 02:45:12 PM
Ms Grace, you are my hero.  You've been an inspiration to me with all your stories and support.  I come to susans to read about people like you.  In other words, congratulations!! woohooo! :)
Title: Re: 12 months HRT… 3 months RLE… woo!
Post by: Rachel on June 24, 2014, 03:23:25 PM
I can not believe it has been 3 months since you went full time. Congratulation on full time and you 1 year estrogen anniversary.

Your story has been and inspiration. 
Title: 12 months HRT… 3 months RLE… woo!
Post by: Eva Marie on June 24, 2014, 03:37:41 PM
Wow has it been that long?!?! That's crazy! And then I realized that I'm coming up on 9 months of full strength HRT and whoa.... Time sure is flying!

You get more attractive with each new avatar pic :)
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Post by: TaoRaven on June 24, 2014, 04:30:01 PM
Congrats on your anniversary!!
:-)
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Post by: alena on June 24, 2014, 04:50:29 PM
Congrats Grace! you're a real inspiration for many of us  :)
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Post by: Sydney_NYC on June 24, 2014, 07:59:57 PM
Happy Anniversary !!!!
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Post by: FalseHybridPrincess on June 24, 2014, 08:20:03 PM
 :)
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Post by: Incarlina on June 24, 2014, 08:56:20 PM
Happy anniversary, Grace!
I had my name changed the same day you started HRT, so we're not far apart :)
Title: Re: 12 months HRT… 3 months RLE… woo!
Post by: awilliams1701 on June 24, 2014, 09:59:13 PM
I wish I could go full time, but I just got my first therapy appointment. I've only barely begun my journey to become Ashley. I'm at the stage where I look forward to evenings to I can unleash Ashley in all her glory. Unfortunately most of the clothes I have right now take a while to put on and my dog loves having many walks so I have to wait until after the last of the walks. Ive ordered some dresses that I'm hoping will let me spend more time as Ashley in between the walks.
Title: Re: 12 months HRT… 3 months RLE… woo!
Post by: luna nyan on June 25, 2014, 03:48:43 AM
Congrats on coming along so far!
Title: Re: 12 months HRT… 3 months RLE… woo!
Post by: Ms Grace on June 25, 2014, 04:28:06 AM
Quote from: Jill F on June 24, 2014, 02:15:20 PM
Woohoo!  Happy estroversary, Grace.

heehee - love that.

Thanks everyone for your well wishes. It surprises and humbles me that some people see me as an inspiration, I just feel like a person who had to do what she had to do or go bonkers. I guess my first attempt, all those many years ago, was such an utter mess and felt like a total disaster that this time I was determined to make it come hell or high-water. The first attempt had felt like a 'failure' for so many years, it wasn't until my gender counsellor helped me see that it wasn't, that I had been struggling badly and that dropping transition was really the option that was going to stop me losing the plot completely.

Realising I was the person in charge of my destiny and finding the self confidence to embrace and live the life I wanted was the key for me.

Being on Susan's, seeing what everyone here is going through/has gone through - regardless of gender, age, circumstances, status (pre/post HRT/SRS/whatever) - really helped me see I wasn't alone; that there were so many others with the same doubts, similar struggles, worse struggles. That gave me the strength and courage I needed.

So thank you everyone on Susan's, you have been my inspiration. :)
Title: Re: 12 months HRT… 3 months RLE… woo!
Post by: Gina Taylor on June 26, 2014, 10:52:04 AM
Quote from: Aisla on June 24, 2014, 04:48:13 AM
Grace

You have been inspirational.  We have walked with you every step of the way.  Thank you for your sharing and for your leadership.

Aisla

I agree 100% with Aisla. Congrats on accomplishing so much in such a short amount of time. Keep up the good work and keep on striving for the best!  :) We're all behind you!