Hi, everyone.
I've been lurking around a bit for a while, but recently joined last night to get some help with some difficult news (the first endo I saw refused to start HRT/T because I have an existing hormonal issue).
I am a 32 year old bisexual FTM, and a software engineer. I grew up very feminine, partly due to a lot of outside influences, and became a "very butch female" about 8 years ago. For the past 4-5 years, I have known that I am actually a man, and have finally gotten over all of my fears and anxieties (I'm too short and hourglassy to ever pass, etc) and decided I could never really be happy without being a man physically.
And now, off to read the rules posts that have been in most of the other intros - I probably should've done that before I started posting...
I also just posted what was probably way too much information/biography in the "Early signs you gave yourself that you were trans, but failed to recognize" thread - copied here in case anyone is interested (I'm fairly certain my story is the same as many other folks' stories). (Copy removed after I read the forum rules - sorry).
Welcome, Tobey! You certainly were lucky in being allowed to be butch while my parents were more restrictive. Then again, I was less willing to take risks because I always, deep down craved, my parent's love and approval of me since they are so hypercritical about every aspect of my life and are pretty controlling. My discovery of being FTM was very similar to yours by the way, where I first started off accepting the explanation for my interest in girls as lesbian but I soon discovered that I was really transgender. I did try to deny it for a while but I was quick to readily accept myself and now I'm taking the steps to correct that now. I think that if we all look back, we can see the signs.
Anyways, make yourself at home on the forums and we hope to see you around often.
Hey Tobey!
Welcome to Susan's :) Great to have you here - looking forward to seeing you around the forum.
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Cheers
Grace
A big official welcome Tobey! :icon_wave: :icon_hug: