Hi everybody, my name's Emmett (maybe Emmette? I'm still undecided). Or at least, that's the name I'm trying on for now. I'm 20 years old, assigned female at birth, and I've been gender confused for pretty much my whole life. I've always hated dresses since I was small (I know clothing isn't gendered, but I still feel like it's relevant) and I've always, always wished I could've been "born a boy" instead. It's not that I identify as a guy; I'm androgyne, I think; I just feel like I was supposed to be born as one. It's hard to explain... I don't really understand it myself.. I think I want to go on T but I'd probably wait til I moved out, which won't be anytime soon.
Right now I'm struggling with wanting to come out to my friends and family while at the same time not knowing exactly what I want wrt gender.
Jeez, I have more gender issues than I thought I did. I apologize in advance if I've said anything offensive, I'm just trying to put my feelings into words as best I can. :-X
Hey Emmett!
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Cheers
Grace
Emmett
Welcome to Susans. Your story is similar to many and I am sure that they will be along shortly to share their experience and support. Plenty of interesting threads and resources here to dive into.
Understanding your identity does take time. A good gender therapist will certainly help you find your way. As a MTA/Q, I am a non binary who first identified as MTF so my understanding of myself has changed and certainly evolved over time.
I wish you well
Safe travels
Aisla
A big warm welcome Emmett! :icon_wave: I second finding a good Therapist with gender issue experience. Mine has been wonderful and brought up things I never would have thought of. In some places if you elect to go on HRT or have surgeries they are pretty much of a requirement as well. :)