I find I'm having a very difficult time not thinking of my figure since the start of transition. It's a constant , walking around seeing slender women and the dresses they wear. I'm slowly loosing weight , but its driving me insane because I really want to look good in a dress an I still have a ways to go and it's torture
My figure is a desaster, too. Its very difficult to find clothes fits to me and my figure. And i fear my body will keep that masculine structure with muscles and fat-areas forever. My bones are not the problem, much more the muscles, the fat, the skin! Really annoying!
For me, only in the sense that I'm paying more attention to my figure...what I eat, etc. I had started to grow a fairly unattractive belly before I began HRT but through some kind of miracle it has mostly slimmed over the last year...and I wanna keep it that way too!
Quote from: Ms Grace on July 11, 2014, 06:19:46 PM
For me, only in the sense that I'm paying more attention to my figure...what I eat, etc. I had started to grow a fairly unattractive belly before I began HRT but through some kind of miracle it has mostly slimmed over the last year...and I wanna keep it that way too!
yea, that belly
Quote from: Ms Grace on July 11, 2014, 06:19:46 PM
For me, only in the sense that I'm paying more attention to my figure...what I eat, etc. I had started to grow a fairly unattractive belly before I began HRT but through some kind of miracle it has mostly slimmed over the last year...and I wanna keep it that way too!
I would pay for such a mircale :'(
My belly is a really a problem and my only fat storage of the whole body.
I'd do sit ups if I had the energy
*lol* i also do situps and much more ... doesnt work in any way
Yeah well I changed my diet and workouts only on that purpose. My measurements tape is now part of my everyday life never really cared about my weight but about my breast/waist/hip I became crazy over time.
Now I'm pretty happy with myself but it's in big part because of all the peoples who tell me how I'm lucky to have such a figure (Lucky is a big word when you know the hard work behind it :) )
Yes I admit that it obsessed me a lot and it became worst when I started HRT like I wanted the "perfect" body (that pretty much depend on personal opinion)
oh man do I know that feel
Yes,,,,, I'll elaborate:
I went from not caring at all about my body to taking pride in it, at my heaviest I was probably around 115kg (250 pounds), when I came out I was around 100kg (220 pounds) and now I'm down to about 82kg (180 pounds), It's probably not healthy for me to go below 80kg since I'm tall and big boned so I'm pretty happy where I'm at.
Now I'm really motivated to take good care of myself and to work on my body, I took up cycling and I cycle to work every day, that's 25km (15 miles) and between 50-100km (30-60 miles) on one of the weekend days, I've come to really enjoy my time riding the bike and it's really helped my figure, bum, hips, ass without building any upper body mass.
I've also changed my diet, I eat a bowl of Fibre1 every morning for breakfast with a bit protein (cheese, turkey snacks, etc), for lunch I'll make a salad or have a wrap, for dinner I'll have a normal meal. When I make salads I go all out, nuts, sundried tomatoes, olives, feta cheese, chicken/tuna, peppers, cucumber and what ever else strikes my fancy and I make a big bowl, remember that 1kg of chocolate equals a bathtub worth of salad so you can eat as much as you want. Fiber is the key to staying full, the more fiber the slower it gets digested and .....
I never eat any candy, beverages with sugar, fries, burgers or any other fast foods any more, If I want a snack I go for nuts, dried seaweed, tuna, jerky, kimci, olives, vegetables or sugar free jello, also good quality cocoa does is carb and fat free but chuck full of fiber so that offers a lot of options.
I'd say I'm obsessed with my figure :)
As I started blockers and then estrogens I did gradually change my diet a bit. I included more vegetable salads with fish and more fish in general but otherwise I didn't change my selection of meals as I mostly just reduced the food intake.
Previously my insane metabolic rate ensured that I was very slim. Now that it dropped to like one fourth of the original I responded with appropriate reduction of the amount of food I eat (which makes quite a difference in my wallet :-) ). And because of previous digestion issues I ate and still prefer mostly non-caloric/fat bomb meals anyway.
So I wouldn't say obsessed as rather that I keep an eye on it. Given that I walk 5-10 km per day I'm not really worried about getting a larger belly :-) .
I went not caring how I looked or what i wore pre-hrt to caring how i look (hrt)..
Now, the plan my outfits, the makeup must be perfect, perfect manicured nails etc...
Constantly, I worry about my figure constantly. Before hrt, and now after hrt. I constantly watch what I eat. I rarely eat fast food and when I do it's a fish sandwich or baked salmon at Long John Silvers. I'm still trying to lose 10 lb's so also I eat a high protein, low carb, low fat diet high in fish and turkey/chicken. At 5-5 and 117 lb's I still have a slight tummy carrying those 10 lb's I need to lose, lol!
Ally :icon_flower:
Much more aware. The weight piles on these days, and people keep on trying to feed me.
Because I have a very curved lower back my booty and tummy are both very prominent. On the other hand, the tummy hides the boobs which is good for stealth.
I was more obsessed before HRT, I just feel like a blob now. :(
Pre-transition, I completely didn't care. I had no hope of ever liking my body, no hope of ever liking my clothes, so I just kind of let my weight and my "figure" get away from me. I didn't like being overweight, but I didn't have much of an impetus to do anything about it.
Now, I REALLY care. My body proportions are one of the things that makes me look the most feminine, because I have a waist and boobs and feminine legs. It's a completely different world when every single article of clothing you wear hugs your contour rather than just living your life in one giant shapeless block after another. Basically, women's clothes care what shape you are. Men's don't. So yeah, I believe it almost necessitates being more body-conscious. I've been dieting like crazy to make sure I maintain my shape now, and trying to lose weight to slim down my arms and my back.
Quote from: Carrie Liz on July 12, 2014, 11:00:30 PM
Pre-transition, I completely didn't care. I had no hope of ever liking my body, no hope of ever liking my clothes, so I just kind of let my weight and my "figure" get away from me. I didn't like being overweight, but I didn't have much of an impetus to do anything about it.
Now, I REALLY care. My body proportions are one of the things that makes me look the most feminine, because I have a waist and boobs and feminine legs. It's a completely different world when every single article of clothing you wear hugs your contour rather than just living your life in one giant shapeless block after another. Basically, women's clothes care what shape you are. Men's don't. So yeah, I believe it almost necessitates being more body-conscious. I've been dieting like crazy to make sure I maintain my shape now, and trying to lose weight to slim down my arms and my back.
I'm not so much obsessed as I am mad that I need more discipline in my food intact to fit in the kind of dresses I want to wear.
Still obsessed as ever, but getting more femme clothing and breasts now seems to shave it off a little.
I have a figure that a lot of women seem to envy: some curve, slender and athletic without too much tone. I sighed and sighed when talking to them
It would be a cruel joke if I'd start looking curvy in all the wrong places >:-)
Oh gosh, so many times yes.
I am constantly worried about putting too much weight on, or losing too much. I don't want to be chubby and i love being slim, but it dont want to slim too much that my curves disappear. it's such a hard balancing act to do, hopefully i'm okay at the moment, but in reality i have no idea.
Quote from: Carrie Liz on July 12, 2014, 11:00:30 PM
Pre-transition, I completely didn't care. I had no hope of ever liking my body, no hope of ever liking my clothes, so I just kind of let my weight and my "figure" get away from me. I didn't like being overweight, but I didn't have much of an impetus to do anything about it.
This describes me to a T. I knew I wanted to lose weight, but wasn't interested in looking like a guy who's in great shape. Suddenly when I came out to myself last fall, I suddenly had all the motivation I never had before. I started at 220lbs, and I'm now down 30lbs since December. I've got another 30+ to go, but I'm well on my way.
BTW, the key for me has been high protein, high fat, and low carb. Very little processed food...and lots of water.
Totally!
Before HRT I was overweight, didn't care if my clothes were looking good, was severely baldening, was wearing teeth braces and thick glasses...awfull! I hated mirrors like a vampire!
Since starting HRT getting a good look became kind of an obssession! I want to be a good-looking girl someday! I find myself losing too much time thinking about the way I am, looking myself at the mirror, testing different clothes...argh...sometimes I feel exhausted! But this is something that is not leaving my mind alone...I feel good looking at myself and now I am starting to like what I see on the other side!
Before I started officially transitioning years ago, I went low carb and dropped a bunch of fat. HRT is continuing to work its magic with my midsection and my hips. I am still low carb enough to be "obsessive" and try to eat as well as I possibly can. I put on a few pounds recently though. That's why I haven't posted in the Friday weight thread lately. :P
Yep but that wouldn't have been hard. I guess I had a vendetta against the git in the mirror.
Strangely, my appetite seems to vanish the moment my plate arrives and I can't finish meals now. I dropped from 111 to 98 recently without any change. I expected the opposite. Maybe subconsciously over eating?
I think I used to worry more pre-HRT... but then again I started HRT the moment I graduated. So... I went from like a diet of dining hall food and Panda Express, to home cooked meals every night... which was to say that in college I was counting my every calorie and intentionally starving my a bit so I wouldn't develop my slightly pudgy belly any more than I already was. I also walked a ->-bleeped-<- ton... like a mile too and from the apartment every day.
I've gotten so lazy now that I'm on E x___x, although a lot of the habits I had in college are still embedded. I usually fast until like 1 PM, I eat a light lunch, only drink water/red tea/black coffee (sometimes with half and half if I want to treat myself). I never have soda unless I'm adding alcohol to it for a treat, I don't really snack, I have zero vices (I drink maybe once a week, if that?). Most of the stuff that I cook comes off of the grill instead of fried, and I rarely ever go out to eat (and when I do, if it's fast food it's usually something pretty healthy).
I've kinda dropped walking though recently, which sucks but it's really bloody hot out and I hate sweating... so most of my exercise lately is planking exercises, v-sits, and sit-ups... which is great and all, my belly is strong and fit... it just exists beneath a layer of fat :<
When my trans bell went off, I ditched body hair, looked in the mirror and was physically ill. It was just too ugly for words. That was thirty months ago. I've dropped 18 kg and have tried to stay fit, but even two years into HRT, I still and always will, have a shape that is marginal to barely OK. I quit measuring myself daily about a year ago, and while I continue to step on the scale every morning there are some things that I simply have to accept. I'm a 38C, 33, 36. That hasn't changed in quite a while and is about as good as it is ever going to get for me. My weight is about 5 lbs (2 kg) more than I would like, but to weigh less than I do requires more effort and more discipline than is healthy for me. It just sucks up too much head space and keeps me from both being happy, and from living my life. I will never be as beautiful on the outside as I would like, so it is better for me to be as beautiful on the inside as I know how to be, or can dream of becoming.
If I am not afraid to share an ice cream with a friend in order to be as slim as a young sapling, I am more accepted as a woman and certainly happier. I hope that one day soon I will be done with the transition, and simply living my life, loving my friends, holding my lover, as a confident, productive woman. For me a big part of transition has been acceptance. That includes both my mind, and my body. I have left a world of limitation and deformity for one full of color and actualization. That is the choice I made.
I had little or no choice but to throw away my life of sadness and limitation as a man. For me it was that or psychic death. I do however have a choice as to the type of woman I live my life as. So yeah, I care a lot about how I look, how I feel, and how people respond to that. But I don't so much obsess and to stay aware. I do my sit ups, I do my jogging, I try to eat a balanced and reasonable diet. But I will also have an ice cream sundae, and barbecue feast from time to time (yesterday as a mater of fact). Some balance, an occasional indulgence. Yummmmm
j
YES I have started paying more attention to physical appearance since starting estradiol valerate and micronized progesterone 4 and a half weeks ago.
My nipples are clearly visible now if my shirt is pulled tight because they protrude now, and there seems to be a little outward growth, not much yet, but it looks like a little. My breasts are definitely more female-shaped and rounder, now, though, so that affects what I do at the pool.
In fact, I pay attention to my figure in the sense that I am not yet quite ready to "come out" at my apartment complex yet...
Because if I were to shave my breast area clean of hairs, my nipples and areolas would be VERY obvious shirtless at the pool. I suppose that because I am not quite ready yet to "come out" at my apartment complex, I am hiding my obviously protruding nipples with hair.
I have already been to the beach with my toenails painted bright red, both with my 6 year old daughter, and also with my genetic girlfriend I went to beach once with bright red toenails, it was fabulous I was SO happy to do that.
It was among strangers who didn't know me of course, except that I was with my genetic girlfriend.
About 3 weeks ago, I went to the beach with my genetic girlfriend, her in a great bikini (she is 26 and looks great in her bikini), and I at age 56 with my fingernails painted and polished an intense medium-dark purple color VERY feminine...
Hey, I felt fabulous!!!
It was kind of funny to my genetic girlfriend some of the "looks" I got from both men and women on the beach, with my toenails painted bright red and my fingernails painted intense medium purple. I was quite amused, too.
I didn't feel particularly embarrassed...I felt good...but so far only my 6 year old daughter knows about this, my genetic girlfriend knows about it, and you gals here know about it.
Johanna