Heyy everyone, just wanted to introduce myself and tell you a little about me.
Im 22 years old and for most of my life I've had something inside me that attracts me to feminine things. I don't know if I would like to transition in the future but as I get older the thought stays in my head and I can't get it out. I try to repress it, and most people who know me wouldn't expect a thing. I appear very masculine, played baseball in college, still very involved in sports, but still has something in the back of my head that screams I may be female on the inside. Years of collecting clothes and dressing for long periods and then purging then doing it all over again. After I purge I feel good like Im moving on and starting to live the typical male life but as time goes on it comes back. I can't go into clothing stores without peaking at the women section and hope my friends and family don't see. I don't know if I'm transexual, I want answers and I really hope to hear from some of you and learn of your experiences to figure myself out. Im deathly afraid of people finding out but at the same time I think soon I will have to tell them as I plan to live my life as a female. I just don't know.
Thanks for listening and I look forward to meeting you all :)
I hope this site helps me answer some questions and most of all acts a support system that I currently don't have
Sophia
Hi Sophia and welcome to Susan's.
That purge thing sounds familiar from reading other posts so you are not alone. There is a lot of information here and friends to be made.
Meanwhile, here are some site rules and answers to often asked questions.
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Thank you and I will read all the information, look forward to using the site!
Well hillo! I hope you find answers to what your looking for. I can relate to what you're feeling, except, I never seemed to ever be masculine when growing up, but was never really suspected to be trans. I told some family, not all. Still thinking about if I should or not. But this is not about me, it's about you, and a fine welcome to you. I hope you enjoy it here. If you ever wanna talk about anything, I enjoy talking, so you're always welcome to send me a message ^^
Welcome to Susan's, Sophia. :)
I'm on the other end of the spectrum, but I was pretty confused myself when I first came here. But I found that reading other people's stories and talking to others about their experiences really helps to figure things out. :) I've also heard that the whole purging things is pretty common amongst the gals.
You've found a great place here. I hope you can find the answers you're looking for. :)