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Title: Favorite HRT changes?
Post by: solexander on July 27, 2014, 03:05:53 PM
There's probably been a thread like this before, so I'm sorry if this is uncreative but... what are some of your favorite things about being on estrogen or testosterone? I've got two:
-Sometimes I'll just sit there and stroke my patchy little facial hair for ages and just be really really happy that I'm finally able to grow it
-Sometimes when I'm singing along to music I like or end up talking to myself a little while online, I'll be really surprised at just how much bass has come into my voice and how much it resonates in my chest and it feels so dang amazing and like a little victory every time it happens.
What are some of yours?
Title: Re: Favorite HRT changes?
Post by: Brenda E on July 27, 2014, 06:05:11 PM
Where to begin???

- I like how I feel happy on estrogen, where before there was just a deep hole (that I didn't even know I was at the bottom of).

- I like the smoothness of my skin now; how facial hair grows back far slower, and my skin is soft and feels "chubbier".  Can't stop rubbing my fingers over it sometimes.

- I love the emotional range.  It's still slight, and it's not just about being happier or sadder.  I feel more connected to the world, if that makes sense.

- My bald spots are growing back, kinda.  Still slow, but it's better than what was there before.

- Best of all, I like having "girl eyes".  I can't say exactly what has changed, but they seem a little wider and more sparkly.  And it's nice to know that they are mine, that the beginnings of a girl are starting to appear.

There's countless others, but those are the biggies right now.  Boobs growing...I guess the jury's still out on that one for me.
Title: Re: Favorite HRT changes?
Post by: Brooke777 on July 27, 2014, 06:13:19 PM
I love my hips, and my breasts. Those are my favorite changes.
Title: Re: Favorite HRT changes?
Post by: Jessica Merriman on July 27, 2014, 06:50:33 PM
The hurricane in my head is now a gentle warm breeze off the ocean. Well, that and boobies!  :)
Title: Re: Favorite HRT changes?
Post by: Christine Eryn on July 27, 2014, 07:04:23 PM
I have to admit, I have a pretty nice, perky rack going on. :icon_google:  I have the hourglass figure for the most part, althought my hips haven't filled out like I want them to. Skin is 100 times softer than it was pre HRT. I have a lot less emotional "rage" going on too.
Title: Re: Favorite HRT changes?
Post by: blink on July 28, 2014, 10:24:21 AM
Number one is easy to pick, voice. I've wanted a deep voice and was uncomfortably aware I'd never have one (or so I thought) since a young age. It is fantastic to be able to speak or sing and it not sound horribly wrong.

After that it's hard to prioritize. I'm thrilled with almost every HRT effect, some unexpectedly so. Thought that more body hair would just be neutral/ok but it's great. I knew skin changes would be good, but underestimated what a relief it would be to not have "estrogen-soft" skin.
Title: Re: Favorite HRT changes?
Post by: YinYanga on July 28, 2014, 10:50:23 AM

I like to take a shower again.
Title: Re: Favorite HRT changes?
Post by: galaxy on July 28, 2014, 12:52:51 PM
My bank balance ...
Title: Re: Favorite HRT changes?
Post by: amrisa loftus on July 29, 2014, 01:43:03 AM
-little to no anxiety and depression.
-can fall asleep easy again
-no more brain fog
-butt 
Title: Re: Favorite HRT changes?
Post by: Jenna Marie on July 29, 2014, 02:51:15 PM
It would have to be the boobs. :)
Title: Re: Favorite HRT changes?
Post by: galaxy on July 30, 2014, 05:55:04 AM
I wish a had some boobs, too.  :'(
I guess ive to wait a couple of month until surgery.
Title: Re: Favorite HRT changes?
Post by: Lady_Oracle on July 30, 2014, 06:22:20 AM
my boobs and butt and the awesome skin I now have.

Oh yeah and finally experiencing female orgasms.

most importantly the peace of mind it's given me.
Title: Re: Favorite HRT changes?
Post by: Danniella on July 30, 2014, 07:07:19 AM
WHAT'S THIS!? A LISTING THREAD AND NOBODY TOLD "DANNIELLA QUEEN OF THE LISTS!?"

Title: Re: Favorite HRT changes?
Post by: YinYanga on July 30, 2014, 07:20:36 AM

Danniella, what do I see there??  >:-)

Title: Re: Favorite HRT changes?
Post by: Danniella on July 30, 2014, 07:24:38 AM
Quote from: YinYanga on July 30, 2014, 07:20:36 AM
Danniella, what do I see there??  >:-)
WHAT!? WHERE!?

I have no idea what you are on about...>.>
Title: Re: Favorite HRT changes?
Post by: YinYanga on July 30, 2014, 07:27:27 AM

Dem small letters, they crawl up your skin don't they?  ;)
Title: Re: Favorite HRT changes?
Post by: Danniella on July 30, 2014, 07:41:41 AM
Quote from: YinYanga on July 30, 2014, 07:27:27 AM
Dem small letters, they crawl up your skin don't they?  ;)
That's some rather surrealist imagery right there D:

Well...that or your tattoo artist is using some seriously cursed ink in his designs O.O

-can't stop imagining letters crawling over skin-
Title: Re: Favorite HRT changes?
Post by: YinYanga on July 30, 2014, 07:50:34 AM

You really dont know what I meant or are you playing a little game with me?  ;D
Title: Re: Favorite HRT changes?
Post by: Danniella on July 30, 2014, 08:00:41 AM
Quote from: YinYanga on July 30, 2014, 07:50:34 AM
You really dont know what I meant or are you playing a little game with me?  ;D
Darlin, I'm always playing games ;)
Title: Re: Favorite HRT changes?
Post by: YinYanga on July 30, 2014, 08:34:26 AM

*shrieks* You so gamey, arghh ^-^
Title: Re: Favorite HRT changes?
Post by: Stochastic on August 01, 2014, 04:19:11 PM
Quote from: solexander on July 27, 2014, 03:05:53 PM
There's probably been a thread like this before, so I'm sorry if this is uncreative but... what are some of your favorite things about being on estrogen or testosterone? I've got two:
-Sometimes I'll just sit there and stroke my patchy little facial hair for ages and just be really really happy that I'm finally able to grow it
-Sometimes when I'm singing along to music I like or end up talking to myself a little while online, I'll be really surprised at just how much bass has come into my voice and how much it resonates in my chest and it feels so dang amazing and like a little victory every time it happens.
What are some of yours?

It is interesting to read the males side of HRT. Thanks for sharing. The growth of facial hair has to be exciting. I remember it was when I was young. Not so much for me but what I observed from my friends.

For me, I have the usual: reduced dysphoria and breasts. Looking down puts a smile on my face every time. Replacing a small beer belly with a tiny waist is also rewarding.

What was most surprising is how soft my skin has become. It was not really that rough before, so I did not think I would notice an improvement. Wrong! I can't stop touching my face or upper thighs and arms. They are so soft.
Title: Re: Favorite HRT changes?
Post by: Hikari on August 01, 2014, 05:03:02 PM
The facial changes have been the best changes by far! My breasts though.....I <3 them very much too!
Title: Re: Favorite HRT changes?
Post by: JohannaJohn on August 01, 2014, 06:02:39 PM
Breasts, nipples, and the profound mental changes such as being able to feel INTUITIVELY much better and cry more spontaneously.

Hugs,
Johanna.
Title: Re: Favorite HRT changes?
Post by: FalseHybridPrincess on August 01, 2014, 06:03:44 PM
mental changes, smell, breasts ,,, all fabulous
Title: Re: Favorite HRT changes?
Post by: Wynternight on August 01, 2014, 06:18:28 PM
I can't wait to start HRT...
Title: Re: Favorite HRT changes?
Post by: Eris on August 01, 2014, 08:41:39 PM
Quote from: Wynternight on August 01, 2014, 06:18:28 PM
I can't wait to start HRT...

You're not alone :laugh:
Title: Re: Favorite HRT changes?
Post by: Jill F on August 01, 2014, 08:47:50 PM
The sturm-und-drang in my head from testosterone is GONE and it has been replaced by rainbows and happiness.  I'm in a good mood like all the time now, where I didn't even quite know what happiness was just 18 months ago.   

Everything else is just gravy.
Title: Re: Favorite HRT changes?
Post by: Jessica Merriman on August 01, 2014, 08:49:00 PM
Quote from: Danniella on July 30, 2014, 07:07:19 AM
WHAT'S THIS!? A LISTING THREAD AND NOBODY TOLD "DANNIELLA QUEEN OF THE LISTS!?"
You are Danniella!! You are just supposed to know!  ;D
Title: Re: Favorite HRT changes?
Post by: immortal gypsy on August 01, 2014, 09:30:13 PM
Quote from: Danniella on July 30, 2014, 07:07:19 AM
WHAT'S THIS!? A LISTING THREAD AND NOBODY TOLD "DANNIELLA QUEEN OF THE LISTS!?"


  • No more perpetual migraines!
  • Soft Skin
  • Soft Hair
  • That female smell
  • T&A Baby!
  • -cough-...Orgasms

Oh yes the migraines or lack thereof,  I can't remember when I had my last one bliss
Title: Re: Favorite HRT changes?
Post by: Tysilio on August 01, 2014, 10:30:50 PM
Quote from: Jill FThe sturm-und-drang in my head from testosterone is GONE and it has been replaced by rainbows and happiness.  I'm in a good mood like all the time now, where I didn't even quite know what happiness was just 18 months ago.   
Fascinating. I'd have said the same thing about not knowing what happiness was... only, testosterone seems to be the missing ingredient I needed to achieve it. Calmer... good mood almost all the time... and a sense of physical well-being that I've seldom if ever experienced.

Other than that, I love that I've started to get stronger. It's pretty dramatic, and it feels amazing.

That, and the sensation of a gentle breeze ruffling my newly sprouted arm hair.  :icon_mrhappy:
Title: Re: Favorite HRT changes?
Post by: JohannaJohn on August 01, 2014, 11:37:22 PM
Quote from: Jill F on August 01, 2014, 08:47:50 PM
The sturm-und-drang in my head from testosterone is GONE and it has been replaced by rainbows and happiness.  I'm in a good mood like all the time now, where I didn't even quite know what happiness was just 18 months ago.   

Everything else is just gravy.

Awesome for you, Jill.  I am over the moon in euphoric general happiness.  The mental changes are immense and shocking to me, just 7 weeks into HRT.  And I already haver small female boobs -- small, but definitely female -- and fantastic nipples...I can now solve problems peacefully and intuitively...

Nearly ALL of my business, work, and personal relationships are running SO much smoother now...

I am in a good mood, even euphoria, most of the time now, too.

I can hardly believe it...I mean, I expected going in that HRT might be quite good...

NEVER COULD I HAVE IMAGINED HOW GREAT IT IS...

I am blessed to have found this...

Johanna.
Title: Re: Favorite HRT changes?
Post by: Stochastic on August 02, 2014, 01:10:05 PM
Wynternight and Eris,

I feel for both of you because I have been there too. It is difficult to remain positive when you are hurting so much. Keep in mind that there is a process for everything. Your time will come, and we will be there for support. It will get better.

Julia
Title: Re: Favorite HRT changes?
Post by: Wynternight on August 02, 2014, 02:22:59 PM
Quote from: Stochastic on August 02, 2014, 01:10:05 PM
Wynternight and Eris,

I feel for both of you because I have been there too. It is difficult to remain positive when you are hurting so much. Keep in mind that there is a process for everything. Your time will come, and we will be there for support. It will get better.

Julia

What is the process? Do I need to get a PCP and have my therapist write a referral for me to go on HRT and then the PCP writes a referral to an endo? How long can I expect this process to take? I need to do something because the pain and anger are getting uncontrollable and I'm scared I may do something before too long.
Title: Re: Favorite HRT changes?
Post by: Ahlexandrah on August 02, 2014, 04:21:39 PM
The best feeling about my HRT was that I could achieve nearly my own perfection and see how I showed all of the haters that I can do it no matter how many times they tried to tell me that I cant.
Title: Re: Favorite HRT changes?
Post by: Hikari on August 02, 2014, 04:47:48 PM
Quote from: Wynternight on August 02, 2014, 02:22:59 PM
What is the process? Do I need to get a PCP and have my therapist write a referral for me to go on HRT and then the PCP writes a referral to an endo? How long can I expect this process to take? I need to do something because the pain and anger are getting uncontrollable and I'm scared I may do something before too long.

When I first got onto HRT I signed up at my local LGBT resource center, and later with an explicitly LGBT friendly free clinic that does informed consent. I see it says your location is Alaska, It might be difficult to do this there, I know resources are sparse there.

For some people their PCP is willing to do a bit of research and monitor and prescribe HRT themselves, only referring to an actual endo is something goes wrong. None of the doctors I see are actual endocronologists, and I probably wouldn't see one unless I needed more specific expertise (After all, in my regimen we don't even test E or T levels as there is no point, only liver enzymes and some stuff I don't understand but from what I am told has nothing to do with feminization).

For some people doctors aren't willing to do informed consent and want a letter from a therapist, but it isn't always like this.

If a PCP isn't comfortable doing anything with HRT and you don't have any clnics that do it, likely you will need to go to an Endo. The people I know went directly to endos recommended by their therapist. However, this was all outside of their insurance. I would imagine insurance would want letters, and a referral before they would pay for the specialist (endo), but having no experience with insurance I can't say much as to how it works.

Edit: Just remember there are no hard fast rules and everything is worth trying because the worst that can happen is someone says no.
Title: Re: Favorite HRT changes?
Post by: JohannaJohn on August 02, 2014, 05:31:15 PM
Quote from: Ahlexandrah on August 02, 2014, 04:21:39 PM
The best feeling about my HRT was that I could achieve nearly my own perfection and see how I showed all of the haters that I can do it no matter how many times they tried to tell me that

Ahlexandrah you are going great girl, you are very beautiful, congrats!

YOU ARE NOW FREE. YOU HAVE YOUR OWN PERFECTION OF FEMININE BEAUTY INSIDE AND OUT.  Haters and "gatekeepers" deserve 4 letter words for their ignorance about YOUR freedom and all of our freedom.

Hugs,
Johanna.
Title: Re: Favorite HRT changes?
Post by: JohannaJohn on August 02, 2014, 05:42:25 PM
Quote from: Wynternight on August 01, 2014, 06:18:28 PM
I can't wait to start HRT...

Eris and Wynternight, Hikari just listed some fantastic advice for you.

If you are truly desperate, and if you have the time and money, and Alaska and Scotland are both a LONG way from the Latin country where I am a legal permanent resident...but just to say...many Latin countries don't have such severe "roadblocks" to your happiness and undoing your testosterone poisoning...

But you must be physically present in any relevant Latin country...all is legal and open...this is NOT true in all Latin countries, but it is true in many Latin counties, I think although I can only speak for sure about the Latin country where I live...but other nearby Latin countries tend to be similar to where I live, on health issues.

I was able to go onto full dose female hormones, nearly right away, when I discovered for sure that I AM FEMALE.

And, just 7 weeks in with amazing physical changes like spectacular nipples and very small female breasts and even more spectacular mental changes such as nearly constant euphoric happiness, much improved RELATIONSHIPS in all of my work life and personal life, I can CRY, I can FEEL, I can understand so much better the FEELINGS of my beautiful cis genetic girlfriend, no more body odor problem, palms of my hands silky smooth like a 25 year old cis female and I am 56 years old so how amazing is THAT...
:o

I hope you can start your female journey with our beloved estrogen and progesterone ASAP...you are starting so much younger than I have...

You have nearly all your life to shine as the princesses that you are inside!

Warm hugs,
Johanna.

Johanna.
Title: Re: Favorite HRT changes?
Post by: Ahlexandrah on August 02, 2014, 05:57:27 PM
Thanks Johanna your words are very inspiring and motivating ! <3
Title: Re: Favorite HRT changes?
Post by: JohannaJohn on August 02, 2014, 06:19:54 PM
Quote from: Ahlexandrah on August 02, 2014, 05:57:27 PM
Thanks Johanna your words are very inspiring and motivating ! <3

Well, you're very welcome.  I just noticed you have been here just 2 days...welcome!

It's great here.  As I have started my hormones HRT transition just 7 weeks ago, the gals and other people here have treated me great, I got a warm welcome, I have received great advice, and I feel SO great to have already helped other newer transgirls with the real-life experiences I too have had so far.

I am 7 weeks into very full dose HRT, with spectacular physical and even more spectacular mental results so far, I feel so wonderful and euphoric.

Kudos to you, Ahlexandrah, for ditching the haters, and shining as your true princess self.

Johanna.
Title: Re: Favorite HRT changes?
Post by: Ahlexandrah on August 02, 2014, 06:42:47 PM
I am so happy that you made your progress, I really feel very glad to hear that you are so euphoric and you should be. My doctor told me positive transsexuals will always have better results on their hormone therapy because the mind connects with the body very well! So keep up your very good mood and motivate many others to help them out! If you want to know anything from me please feel free to ask since I am already on hrt for 2 1/2 years I might be able to answer some questions <3

I look foreward in more conversations with you ♥

and ofc you are a princess aswell :3
Title: Re: Favorite HRT changes?
Post by: Felix on August 02, 2014, 10:41:08 PM
So many things. I was initially ambivalent about hormones, but I didn't want to look like a 15 year old for the rest of my life. After going on them I felt right, like I had been holding my breath all my life and could finally breathe freely.

I love the way I smell now.

I love my voice. I still play with it and enjoy noticing the new parameters. I recorded it recently, and hearing the playback was weird but my voice isn't as nonstandard as I thought it might sound when I'm not listening from inside my own skull.

I love being physically stronger and more emotionally resilient. I rarely get injured anymore, and if I get hit or yelled at or made fun of I don't immediately cry like I used to.*

I wish I had more face hair, but I love the hair I have grown with T. Most cismen I've been with didn't have the amount of hair I have below the waist. I'm even starting to get hobbit toes. :icon_walk:

I love getting fat. I'm not obese, just overweight, but I spent most of my life too skinny and without much hunger. Now I don't feel like I could blow away in the wind, and I feel like my little potbelly helps cue to people that I actually am in my thirties.

I love that my skin no longer rashes up at the slightest exposure to the wrong soap or whatever.

And it's cheap and unfair, but I love that simply being on hormones is enough to convince medical staff and bureaucrats that I am a "real" man, or at least really transgender. Many of my transition barriers melted away after I started receiving testosterone treatment.

*this sounds bad when I reread it, so I feel like I have to add that I am not in an abusive relationship. I take care of a developmentally disabled person who has some issues with violence, and the times I get made fun of are usually by teenagers on the street who see both of us as uncool peers.
Title: Re: Favorite HRT changes?
Post by: beaver on August 07, 2014, 02:03:52 AM
The amount of muscles I've gained! However little, it feels significant to me and I feel my body up constantly in delight (must look really weird to others). Especially in the upper body, since I have a very slight build and my small shoulders and thin neck were painfully feminine. My back looks so manly from behind. Oh yes.
Title: Re: Favorite HRT changes?
Post by: AvaCadaver on August 08, 2014, 08:59:48 AM
My voice.  It's been such a huge relief, not having to hide by never speaking.  I'm so much more confident and went from passing 10% of the time to 99%.  Now, when people call me ma'am, I just kinda laugh at it and can't wait to see their face when they hear my voice and think "oh whoops".

I can't wait for more changes.
Title: Re: Favorite HRT changes?
Post by: Kira Phoenix on August 09, 2014, 07:00:28 PM
I love how my emotions became much deeper than they normally were. I feel so much connected with everything around me. I also enjoy the softness of my skin and of course...my boobs :)