aloha everyone and how are you? i am so glad i found this site!!!! i am 45 now and have been dealing with gender issues since i was little. i knew i wasn't like other boys, but i didn't want to be unliked. so i pretended to be like other boys. even played a season of t--ball. but the boys teased for my long hair. that made me mad. so i played hopscotch, marbles, jacks with the girls-- as well as dress up and dolls. i don't know how i got away with it, then, but as i grew older, the lies became more unbearable and i needed a way to escape. drugs provided that escape for 30 years. from the innocent who felt wrong to the drug addicted triple felon whose has been hospitalized for the past year due to AIDS, HCV and avascular necrosis
(a disease that's killing the bones in my hips and shoulders. but, there is life after i get outta here. i'm learning to walk again and soon i will be moving into my new place. but during the interim, i will be going to a drug rehab where i plan to start my transition. i plan on celebrating my first birthday out at stephanie in feb. so that's a smidgen about me. i hope everybody has a wonderful week. aloha, steph
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Welcome to Susan's :) Glad to have you here, very sorry to learn of your ailments and wish you all the best
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Welcome stephanie420 to the family,
Everyone hold there own past, its the past and working on making ones future happier is what life is about.
Lots of information abound.
Would be a good thing to search and find yourself a gender therapist to help you navigate where you fit in the spectrum.