Only very recently did I start to understand that I'm MtF. My girlfriend and I have been talking about this and it's been like the elephant in the room in my life for years and years. A couple weeks ago I admitted it to myself and I suddenly felt better– more focused, more myself. I've been looking for resources and I thought I'd come here to ask questions and go from there.
I've had these feelings and thoughts off and on since I was 4. I've crossdressed. I've even been in public en femme...but I've never seriously thought about transitioning. More and more, it feels like it could be a better way for me to be ME. I do know how hard it is and that it's not some kind of magical thing that will make everything better, but I feel I have to see what it's about to be able to go forward in my life.
Yes, I know I will need to get to some counseling if I'm going to get on hormones or get srs...but I'm between jobs now and don't want to spend what I do have on that. What I have been doing is getting clothes...my gf, who is totally supportive, has been helping me and getting me into clothes that feel right. I also need to lose weight since I know that right now, I'm too heavy to even consider doing hormones.
So, I'm just saying hello and reaching out. I look forward to chatting with many of you here.
Hi Ellysant..
Welcome to the forum.
I'm sure you will find lots of help here, its a great group..!
I'm Mark, nice to meet you. :)
hello
Welcome to Susan's family Ellysant
The big elephant in the room. Ya brings back some memories.
Living a part time life can help curb the dysphoria. Just you know that elephant starts to get bigger (depression) and leaves less room. I would see if maybe you could find a gender therapist that will work on sliding scale. Not everyone is money grubbing a.ho.
Glad you have support with your GF it is something that truly is needed if you find you much move forward in your path. We all have taken that one step at a time, it is not a race to the finish take one step at a time and soon things will settle.
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Welcome to Susan's,
You'll find many of us have a similar story to share, feel free to ask anything within the forum rules and enjoy your time here :)
Hope you brought cheddar... I mean welcome to Susan's! =D
It's awesome you have your gf support! Let her help all she wants and listen to any advice she may have. It will actually draw you closer sometimes!
Welcome!
Hi Elly, and welcome to Susan's. :)
Hi Elly, welcome to the forum!