Every story has a beginning, a middle and an end.
Since the middle hasn't happened yet and thankfully neither has the end, lets start at the beginning, the introduction.
... sorry, I am an aspiring writer so that sort of start appeals to much to ignore.
My name is Aaron, I am 20 years old.
I find myself at the beginning of this journey staring into the shadowy and unmarked path ahead.
I have had a female persona for the last 4-5 years that I have kept predominantly online, however I have been more connected with the female persona for the last couple of years. More and more I have both mentally and physically had to remind myself that I am Aaron, not Kym.
It has not been pleasant, having to constantly focus on everyone around me, having to watch me words and writing so I don't refer to myself as female or call myself Kym for any reason.
I am... tired of it.
So here I am, exploring the wide expanse of knowledge that is the internet, looking for possibilities and ideas as I try to decide my next course of action.
Should I try to find a middle ground between Aaron and Kym?
Should I look into possibly having HT and trying to assume the person I wish to be?
Or should I just give up and and try to remove Kym from my mindset and personality?
Time will tell I guess.
Description time would be a good place to go.
I am a Kiwi, born in New Zealand but raised in the UK. My last check had me standing at 5'11, Ginger sadly with very curly genetics so I keep my hair short with a number 3. I didn't listen to my darling Mother so I spent a lot of time in the sun and now have a large number of freckles on both my face and arms. I have blue eyes with flecks of brown. I am not athletic, being much more of a computer and writing soul.
~Shrugs~
I am me and physically I have accepted that for the most part.
I hope I will make some friends on here and anyone feel free to ask questions.
I've probably forgotten something since this is one of the first forums I've ever been on.
we will see.
First, a big warm welcome to the family! I think a good step for you to take would be to find a good therapist preferably one with gender experience. They can help you decide which path would be the best to take. The path of transition is a very hard one to take and support is crucial to success. Give yourself all the help you can. One thing is gender Dysphoria only gets worse as the years go by. I wish you the best in your journey and rest assured you will have support here as well. :)
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Welcome to Susan's. you will find a lot of great info here. Susan's is like a big family with lots of caring and support and the occasional squabble.
I enjoyed your beginning and the way you wrote your bit of story. Nice writing
Hello and welcome to Susan's.
:)
Welcome to Susan's family Aaron
All the questions you ask are yours to answer only.
And it is a very hard answer to be had.
I would suggest finding a gender therapist to help you work on your personal issue with your gender.
Take things a day at a time and move forward as you need. You know the true answer inside, Aaron or Kym
Hugs, we are here anytime you need that support, rant or question answered.