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Community Conversation => Transsexual talk => Male to female transsexual talk (MTF) => Topic started by: Ms Grace on September 24, 2014, 04:56:50 PM

Title: Six months FTE!
Post by: Ms Grace on September 24, 2014, 04:56:50 PM
Yesterday marked six months of me living full time as Grace. So far it has been a pretty good run but I have to admit to still expecting the wheels to fall off the cart and still wondering if people I meet or just random strangers in public have read me or not. Most evidence would suggest "no" but it's certainly something that rides in my mind most of the time. I'm not paranoid about it and it isn't causing me stress but I do wonder if it will ever go away.

Other than that everything is going really well, I haven't had any obvious discrimination from being trans (maybe I'm not trying hard enough!) and, other than some family members, have been accepted as Grace by all. Most of my stress at the moment comes from work, but that's because of my workload not because of being trans.
Title: Re: Six months FTE!
Post by: Jessica Merriman on September 24, 2014, 05:17:47 PM
Quote from: Ms Grace on September 24, 2014, 04:56:50 PM
I have to admit to still expecting the wheels to fall off the cart
I had the very same thoughts at 6 months or so!  ;D It has been smooth sailing though. Enjoy it Sis and don't worry about a thing!  :)
Title: Re: Six months FTE!
Post by: suzifrommd on September 24, 2014, 05:24:19 PM
Congrats Grace.

I still wonder if people clock me, but it's starting to matter less. I'm comfortable enough with who I am that I'm willing to have people know my history. Passable or not, I haven't had the slightest trouble except with people who knew me before I transitioned.

Enjoy the ride!
Title: Re: Six months FTE!
Post by: stephaniec on September 24, 2014, 06:37:49 PM
congats
Title: Six months FTE!
Post by: ImagineKate on September 24, 2014, 07:11:03 PM
Congrats!
Title: Re: Six months FTE!
Post by: Mariah on September 24, 2014, 08:14:36 PM
Congrats!
Title: Re: Six months FTE!
Post by: ssneha23 on September 24, 2014, 08:51:41 PM
Congrats Grace!! A biiiggggg hug from me..
Title: Re: Six months FTE!
Post by: FrancisAnn on September 24, 2014, 08:55:25 PM
Grace, good for you & you look great. I've followed your posts & you are always pleasant & thank you for your time to review & help out on a lot of new posts. Also thanks for posting about your sister & I hope things improve with her as life goes on for both of you.
Title: Re: Six months FTE!
Post by: Delsorou on September 24, 2014, 09:24:36 PM
Since February 18th for me, we're pretty close.  :)  Glad things are working out so well!  Sounds a lot like the experience I have had so far.  Actually, a strange demented part of me kind of wants someone to be discriminating so that I can sue the pants off of them to pay for surgery...  it's a small part, but it's still there.  It has thus far been disappointed.
Title: Re: Six months FTE!
Post by: sam79 on September 25, 2014, 02:11:32 AM
6 months is a great milestone Grace, congratulations :).

I'm getting nicely close to a year, and that 'waiting for the wheels to fall off' feeling is kind of still there, but getting so much less important now.

In my case, two months ago someone attempted to pull the wheels off for me. While on a train, a fruit loop ( clearly troubled person ) made me and start shouting "He's a boy, he's a boy".... That hurt pretty bad. Partly because I became complacent ( due to the great success before that point ), and because I had started rejecting everything trans. So when it was called out publicly, I didn't cope well.

But you know, you live and learn. It was a terrible thing to go through, but such an important lesson.
Title: Re: Six months FTE!
Post by: Ali on September 25, 2014, 02:21:10 AM
congrats  :icon_flower:
Title: Re: Six months FTE!
Post by: kelly_aus on September 25, 2014, 03:36:46 AM
6 months, Grace? Where has the time gone? 4 years in and I still have the odd moment where I wonder the same thing though.

Guess I must be doing OK though, yesterday my therapist and I agreed that I have no real need for a therapist of any kind any more..
Title: Re: Six months FTE!
Post by: Jenny07 on September 25, 2014, 03:51:32 AM
Well done Grace. How time flies.

Title: Re: Six months FTE!
Post by: rosinstraya on September 25, 2014, 04:58:20 AM
It'll be a year before you know it!  :)

Congrats as well from the depths of the inner westeries.
Title: Re: Six months FTE!
Post by: BreezyB on September 25, 2014, 08:23:07 AM
Congrats Grace, so happy things have been smooth. Don't expect the wheels to fall off, its great when life is workng out for us  :)
Title: Re: Six months FTE!
Post by: Bols on September 25, 2014, 10:03:54 AM
Congratulations! :D
Title: Re: Six months FTE!
Post by: JLT1 on September 25, 2014, 11:22:35 AM
Yea!!!!

Congrads.

Hugs,

Jen
Title: Re: Six months FTE!
Post by: Ms Grace on September 25, 2014, 04:08:25 PM
Thanks everyone! Strangely, yesterday was one of those days where I felt very unpassable, don't know why. Admittedly I was wearing jeans and a tee - so fairly andro. I copped a few weird looks (mainly from women)... who knows why, I've no idea. Led me to wonder if most people didn't react because they just thought I was a dude anyway or if so many people are so distracted by their iPhones and other gadgets that most of them wouldn't notice a panda in a tutu.  :-\

Weird day.
Title: Re: Six months FTE!
Post by: Jill F on September 25, 2014, 04:21:00 PM
Wow, Grace!  Has it been 6 months already?  Time does fly, doesn't it?  I stumbled into full-time on 3/22/13 and never looked back.  It's been the best 18 months of my entire life.  I hope you are thoroughly enjoying having finally shed "dude" once and for all.   For me, it was like an incredible burden had finally been lifted and being able to breathe freely for the first time. 
Title: Re: Six months FTE!
Post by: Bols on September 25, 2014, 05:04:59 PM
Maybe those players were fiddling with their new iPhone 6es and checking if any pandas were noticing them? :P
Title: Re: Six months FTE!
Post by: Cindy on September 26, 2014, 04:47:19 AM
Grace,

Congratulations Hon.

Funny isn't it, we go from bodies flooded with T to one full of E. We go from alpha or beta males to women and the life changes that involves. Yes, sorry about that, it was not meant cruelly - just life's truth?

There are great changes. We go through puberty - again. when we should be enjoying being mature.

How do we possibly cope?

By examples such as you Hon.

This journey isn't easy.

But many of us do manage our journey by positive role models of all gender identities.

You are a fine role model!

Thank you

Cindy
Title: Re: Six months FTE!
Post by: Ms Grace on September 26, 2014, 05:03:25 AM
Thanks Cindy, I always considered myself an "omicron male" ;D and as a female I'm at least higher up the Greek alphabet! As someone who almost fully transitioned twenty years ago I think this is my third puberty (or fourth, if you count what I went through when I detransitioned!) so it has been a peculiar journey indeed!
Title: Re: Six months FTE!
Post by: kelly_aus on September 26, 2014, 05:51:50 AM
While I'm really happy for you, Grace.. Let's not do this again sometime in the future. My dance card is pretty booked. :P
Title: Six months FTE!
Post by: Nicole on September 26, 2014, 06:08:29 AM
That's great grace.
I think with Australia we're a very open country and if people do read you (which I find hard by your profile pic) they don't really care.

When I first moved and started living full time I remember forever I was worried about being outed, but it never happened at least to my face and that fear went away quite quickly.
Title: Re: Six months FTE!
Post by: Ms Grace on September 26, 2014, 06:11:36 AM
Thanks, and I think in the large cities that's pretty true. Haven't tried my luck in the outback yet!

Quote from: kelly_aus on September 26, 2014, 05:51:50 AM
While I'm really happy for you, Grace.. Let's not do this again sometime in the future. My dance card is pretty booked. :P

Well I've certainly made it further this time than last time by a factor of six months FTE, never ever let myself taste one day of that last time...maybe if I had...?
Title: Re: Six months FTE!
Post by: kelly_aus on September 26, 2014, 06:47:49 AM
Quote from: Ms Grace on September 26, 2014, 06:11:36 AM
Thanks, and I think in the large cities that's pretty true. Haven't tried my luck in the outback yet!

Well I've certainly made it further this time than last time by a factor of six months FTE, never ever let myself taste one day of that last time...maybe if I had...?

Just stirring, Grace.. Apparently I'm known for that..

It's fairly obvious life is working well for you.. You go, sis..
Title: Re: Six months FTE!
Post by: Ms Grace on September 26, 2014, 07:16:48 AM
Oh yeah, no problems at all, hon ;D

Now, about that dance...
Title: Re: Six months FTE!
Post by: LizMarie on September 26, 2014, 10:23:36 AM
Six months! That's great, Grace! Congratulations!