Okay this is going to be hard, but a necessary evil - if you dont think it couldnt happen to you, then i got news for you...
i need to tell my story and please dont worry or feel bad for me, instead feel glad for me because i survived...
Well in 2005, i havent had any HRT's or psychological evaluations yet, as a matter of fact i had a wonderful girlfriend that loved me very much - i felt comfortable enough to tell her that i was transgendered and was wanting to start transitioning... "OK" went very well to my surprise...
i did learn its one thing tell someone your a TG, its a completely different thing to show them - when i showed her, thats when all thing to crap and very quickly - after the break up i was heart broken and ashamed - so i did what most any dumb bitch would do - i went out and got drunk at a gay bar - everyone was happy and having a good time - i was dressed a bit girlish...
this handsome man pick up on me and we talk for hours - anyway he talked me into having sex with him at his hotel room... you all know routine...
anyway the first round went very well, i really liked it - the second round that same night he wanted to do the tie me up and have his his way with me thing, anyway the first round was good so i figured what the heck i'll try it...
after he handcuffed me to the bed, is when everything changed - he became very violent with me, and lit a cigarette started burning in different places on my body, i still have the scars on my legs and genitals...
after a time i got to a point where i took my mind to a happy place, he noticed i went into zombie mode and began beating me with his fist. i got to tell you, i came to a point where i knew i was going to die and was praying for it to come quickly to get it over with...
when i came too, still handcuffed i had to think very very hard to figure out if i was dead or alive. i really didnt know...
the cleaning lady found me the next morning and called the police, i was in the hospital for a day and the police had this attitude like it was my fault and i deserved it...
maybe i did and maybe i didnt - but this much i know, ladies always leave your selves a way out even on a date, till you know who you are dating...
This is something i always mention when i can to warn other women that the world isnt safe and and danger can always right around the corner - so with all this please ladies be careful with who you date and dont let your emotions force you to be eager to be with someone...
all in all i say i did very well in recovering physically and emotionally and are still alive to help other ladies be aware...
:)
Awesome that you've survived and here to let us know. Shame on the police - remember, the moment you say `no` they have to stop or it becomes rape.
he didnt care... to finish it, they never caught him i think - the following year i heard of a man in portland that was arrested and did the same thing to another TG women, im not sure if it was him...
Alaena, I'm so glad you survived and you're here today. Hugs for that horrible night (and what came after) and hugs for having the courage to tell it to us.
My takeaway: I won't ever allow myself to be alone with someone that I don't know well. Too many bad things can happen. Yes, it's a drag to date someone for weeks before I allow myself to have sex, but my safety is critical.
Thank You Hunn :)
Alaena it is not your fault at all you didn't ask to be abused in that way. Don't let anyone tell you different. I am glad you made it out I'm going to say safely even though that's not really correct. But I'm glad your ok now.
Thank You White Rabbit :)