I'm really feeling like I'm becoming congruent today with my gender. I feel...female and not just from a knowing standpoint but more now from an experiential standpoint. I feel really good like things are right with me now. I wonder if it's the hormones. Has anyone else experienced this with HRT?
Having your hormone levels balanced to the gender you identify with, makes a huge difference in anxiety levels and general feelings of satisfaction. Additionally Estradiol tends to be calming, particularly in contrast with testosterone. You're good, and right where you ought to be.
Peace
Julie
Kaylee,
I'm feeling the same way also. It really is amazing how fast the changes start to line up with how I've been feeling all my life. I'm starting to feel a whole lot more in tune with my feelings along with being able to express my self in ways I never thought possible. I'm enjoying every minute of this ride!!!
Hugs,
Melissa Ann
Definitely, I'm much calmer and relaxed. Little things that use to stress me out or cause me anxiety don't anymore.
After just two months on HRT, I feel a lot calmer and more confident about expressing my femininity.
Yesterday, I had a pedicure and had the nail tech finish my toes with French tips. I never felt awkward about it, even though I had no makeup or wig on.
Just now, I ran to Starbucks to get coffee for the morning. I thought about changing out of my short shorts and semi sheer, feminine top and putting on shoes to cover my toes. Instead, I put on sandals, added some lip gloss and a necklace, and left. Again, I just felt calm and happy--no anxiety or stress. I could not be bothered about whether anyone noticed or cared.
Quote from: Kaylee Angelia on October 13, 2014, 01:50:22 PMI feel really good like things are right with me now. I wonder if it's the hormones. Has anyone else experienced this with HRT?
Yes! I'm only in week three but the results are amazing! I can think clearly, feel clearly, understand my emotions much easier, have a small an gaining confidence in who I am, finally.
I also think the answer isn't just hormones, but partly due to having that moment when we finally admit who we are to ourselves and eventually the world at large. Being totally honest is step one, without this, HRT wouldn't have the same emotional effect IMO.
Not to bust your bubble but to prepare you. Sooner or later you'll forget how you truly were prior to HRT. You may well think that its stopped working and you've regressed. You haven't. Small emotional changes will continue as you adjust to the new normal. Six weeks in I'm still adjusting, but I'm much, much better. You will too, I have no doubt.
yes
Quote from: Dee Walker on October 14, 2014, 03:23:33 PM
Not to bust your bubble but to prepare you. Sooner or later you'll forget how you truly were prior to HRT. You may well think that its stopped working and you've regressed. You haven't. Small emotional changes will continue as you adjust to the new normal. Six weeks in I'm still adjusting, but I'm much, much better. You will too, I have no doubt.
In hope so. I hope "Happy" becomes the new normal for me.
I feel basically the same. Nowadays, I don't really think twice when I am out running an errand. I am just me, and I am a woman. Now, if I wear boy clothes I feel strange.
I mean, coming out was probably the biggest step, but hormones really gave me peace and confidence I could never have dreamed of. I am Single, need more money, and I need to lose a few pounds, but I am the happiest I have ever been in my life, and I have HRT to thank for that.
I'm feeling what a lot of you are talking about. I feel much more confident in myself. I'm either striking and/or engaging in random conversations with people.
Yesterday, a woman who works in my building just randomly started talking about the "female need to wear make up." Even though I'm at the beginning of my journey I can't help but wonder if my energy has changed with HRT. To me, even though she was talking to a perceived male, it still felt like a female to female moment. I can't help but smile when I think about that. :)
Today I bought some nail polish at the local drug store and felt wonderful simply "taking my time" to decide what I wanted. I truly felt like I belonged there doing that... :)
Probably everyone that is on HRT has the same type emotions, It has a very calming effect.
I'm incredibly happy for you, and I'm hoping I can share the sentiment very soon. I'm looking forward to being able to start HRT! :)
Of course you feel great! You are a woman running on the right juice now. Enjoy the ride! :)
Quote from: Jessica Merriman on October 16, 2014, 05:54:00 PM
Of course you feel great! You are a woman running on the right juice now. Enjoy the ride! :)
Yes, Jessica...that's "exactly" how I feel, like I'm finally running on the right juice. :)
Quote from: Kaylee Angelia on October 16, 2014, 07:51:48 PM
Yes, Jessica...that's "exactly" how I feel, like I'm finally running on the right juice. :)
Just remember always this feeling when the times get tough. I hope they don't of course, but life is funny about providing them. Think back to how you feel right now and the problems will be knocked down to size and then you can handle them just fine. I have been on HRT for a while now and I recently forgot this advice I am giving you now. With the help of many here and imagining the euphoria of finally being free to be me I am overcoming it all. Not easy of course, but I realize now no problems can ever take this feeling from me. It did help I got upped to the highest dose recently though! ;) :)
I completely relate to you! Starting hormones has to be the best decision of my entire life. A few months after taking them, I started to feel way more comfortable with myself and able to think much more clearly. I became more social and started to develop tons of friends (something that felt impossible from before.). HRT also allowed me to understand my sexuality. Prior to hormones, I had no attraction level to anyone of any gender which made me think that I was asexual for the longest time. This feeling scared me because my sexuality felt like it was under lock and key in a box that I could not peer into. Estrogen unlocked that box and helped me understand that I am a lesbian. Now in an amazing relationship with an amazing woman for two months now. I love the improved me! :)
For me it started with HRT, but it really hit when men I didn't even know started opening doors for me, or cashiers consistently called me "ma'am," or I could enter a women's room in any public place and no one gave me a second look.
I consider myself 99% transitioned at this point. Once I get my bank accounts settled everything else is icing on the cake.
I was just thinking about this today :). Before HRT, it was an extensive effort in crossdressing to get that content feeling. So much work for that touch of peacefulness that quickly went away when I needed to go back to guy mode. Now it takes very little effort to find comfort.
I would say yes and no. During my first attempt at transition I'm not sure I could say I felt that way at all. But things were in such an emotional whirlpool at the time it was really hard to have a straight thought about anything. That was twenty years ago, different HRT regimen and I felt very alone...that may have played a very big part in it. The drugs are very different these days of course. This time the answer is a resounding yes, it's hard to compare the two experiences they're like chalk and cheese.
I didn't start living until I transitioned. Like now I know the difference. Everything is really weird and surreal but certainly 'correct' now. :)
Quote from: Jessica Merriman on October 16, 2014, 10:13:14 PM
Just remember always this feeling when the times get tough. I hope they don't of course, but life is funny about providing them. Think back to how you feel right now and the problems will be knocked down to size and then you can handle them just fine. I have been on HRT for a while now and I recently forgot this advice I am giving you now. With the help of many here and imagining the euphoria of finally being free to be me I am overcoming it all. Not easy of course, but I realize now no problems can ever take this feeling from me. It did help I got upped to the highest dose recently though! ;) :)
Thanks Jessica, that's great advice. I'll be sure to remember it. Congrats on the new dose. :)
Quote from: Athena on October 17, 2014, 10:10:39 AM
I completely relate to you! Starting hormones has to be the best decision of my entire life. A few months after taking them, I started to feel way more comfortable with myself and able to think much more clearly. I became more social and started to develop tons of friends (something that felt impossible from before.). HRT also allowed me to understand my sexuality. Prior to hormones, I had no attraction level to anyone of any gender which made me think that I was asexual for the longest time. This feeling scared me because my sexuality felt like it was under lock and key in a box that I could not peer into. Estrogen unlocked that box and helped me understand that I am a lesbian. Now in an amazing relationship with an amazing woman for two months now. I love the improved me! :)
Congrats on the new relationship Athena. Hormones have helped me connect to my sexuality as well...it's been wonderful. No relationship yet but I'm no longer asexual.
Quote from: Ms Grace on October 17, 2014, 05:52:50 PM
I would say yes and no. During my first attempt at transition I'm not sure I could say I felt that way at all. But things were in such an emotional whirlpool at the time it was really hard to have a straight thought about anything. That was twenty years ago, different HRT regimen and I felt very alone...that may have played a very big part in it. The drugs are very different these days of course. This time the answer is a resounding yes, it's hard to compare the two experiences they're like chalk and cheese.
I can tell, you look really happy. Love the new pic. :)