When I used to present as a guy I hated, absolutely loathed, seeing pictures of social events that had me in there somewhere talking to someone. There was something about the way I looked (like a dude, I guess) that I just found deeply distressing.
We had a work function this week and there's a random pic of me chatting with another person (yes, the winking lady, in case you're wondering)...and wow, I really don't hate it. In fact I'm amazed at how natural it looks. It's a surprise to me, I expected I would still cringe at random pics like that, but I'm really happy with it.
A nice, unexpected shift in outlook!
Yayyy!! Btw ya need to call her. Or text her. You should hangout, she seems really friendly if nothing else :)
It is kinda nice to see a pic like that and not hate it.. :)
I found myself looking through some wedding pics from my adopted daughters wedding. And as much as I avoided the camera, I still appear in some shots.. And I was pleasantly surprised by them..
I was the same way. I used to hate seeing myself in pictures and avoided cameras like the plague. Hell, I even hated looking at myself in the mirror.
There are more pictures of me from the last 2 years than there are of me in the previous 43. I think most of them are pretty nice because they reflect who I really am. The "guy" pictures all seem off to me because I just see a shell of a person who was miserable and slowly dying inside.
I think this is pretty par for the course for GD sufferers.
I find it very difficult to look at my pics from before about 3 months ago . I still have a pic of me from 2 years ago on my Facebook page that looks pure testosterone.
I went through a very similar process. You would have to nail my feet down to the floor to get me to stand in front of a camera.
But that changed very rapidly over the last 6-8 months... in fact, yesterday my office had a professional photographer in to take promo photos, and I was in a couple of them. I actually enjoyed it, a lot! Can't wait to see them... and I really hope I don't cringe at the way I look in them but I expect not to.
It's a nice feeling after so many years of the other.
While I still don't care for random pics of me, even in crowds, I'm not as bad as I used to be. Back pre-transition, I was even uglier if you can believe it, so I avoided them and hide when I saw anyone running around with a soul stealing device.
I'm glad to know I'm not the only one to feel that way!