Hello all of you. My name is Morgan.
I learn of the existence of transgender people, and I have started to think that I might not be male as I was labeled at birth. I can nott easily put into words what makes me think otherwise, but I can attempt to.
So my thoughts weren't that harsh... But after I started to become more masculine I have a harder and harder time relating to my own face. I never really fit into masculine roles, I find them unpleasing. When I think of how I would like to have grown up, a very feminine picture comes to mine. I often see amazing women and think I want to be like them in character and in body.
The image of me after becoming even more masculine repulses me. Nothing wrong with the appearance but something screams "Not me". But I feel caught between the feeling that says yes to accepting myself as female vs a part of me that says that it is not worth the risk and that we need to "wait until we are 99.99999999......% certain". Have any of you experience of more subtle feeling of wrongness that you couldn't feel certain that it was gender related until it got really bad? I have heard that it gets worst over time and don't want to be convince only when it punches me in the face.
Thanks in advance.
Hi Morgan :icon_wave:
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V M
Thank you :)
Welcome Morgan to Susan's family.
Gender therapist is a great way to start this journey.
As those before we take it a day at a time. Nothing is rushed.
Hi Morgan, welcome to Susan's Place! Most of the people who find their way to this site found their way here because they think they might be transgender. People who aren't transgender rarely think that they are. It is a journey of self discovery, most of us are finding our spot in the world. We'll walk with you on your journey.
Hugs, Devlyn
Hello Morgan and welcome to Susan's.
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Thank you everyone :).