I was very depress this weekend, gambled a 100$, kiss a guy thinking he would becom,e my bf... then he said I dont like guys who are tg. I feel like life is getting more hopeless.by the day... and im just a zombie living it. I binge a little too... and did nothing productive.
But I bought my first "feminine" item... purple lights that i decorated around my lamp... it made me very happy at least for a moment. I am really a woman... need something but i dont know what. I kept thinking if i die now would things be better... im tired of pretending that i dont think i am a real person...
Awww :( I feel for you, how did he know you were tg??
And what? You are a real person. Valuable and amazing in your own way. I understand you feel depressed, I have felt like you do sooo many times. Do you have some hobby you can distract yourself with while you're sorting it out?? Oh and don't gamble. You may lose everything. Gambling can be a serious addiction, don't let it consumme you.
I'm sorry I don't have better advice. :( I really hope things get better for you.
all the best,
xxxx
Never the answer to a short term problem.
It's a very long path we walk and it us supposed to happen as it does.
Find the girl happy spot. Do your nails, hair, makeup, retail therapy always helps
Hugs
Hugs Wild Flower,
You are a real person.
There is a guy out there for you. You have to kiss a lot of frogs to find a prince.
$100 would have been a nice pair of boots :)
Be kind to yourself
Thank you
He didnt know, but it was brought up. I said I was feminine before we even met though... hoping to.find a guy who would be alright with that. Its not him... i just feel embarass for.being that desperate since i dont usually act that way for.a guy...
The gambling was a one time event and i probably wont do it for a while.. but i usually have will power to stop when i am ahead. I just kept going at it like i was throwing away money. I kept winning and losing.
I think the best thing to do.is being the best employee at my job... getting certs (i work in IT) otherwise i need an outlet for being a female.
Wild Flower
Oooooh sweetie, I've been there to. Don't sell yourself short everybody has value in this world and you are valuable here at Susan's. Don't be embarased about have some feelings for somebody. doesn't matter male or female we have all do this and survived. Hang in there and find something that will help you feel better emotionally not physically. My the angles always look upon you and guide you on your journey...!
Hugs,
Melissa Ann