Because apparently knowing objectively that I am pre-everything-including-binders and therefore DO NOT PASS and therefore *have* to continue using the loos with a skirted person on the door... means I'm "still female for now then". This was the final shot after about 10 minutes of trying to get waay more out of me than I'd meant to tell.
Thankfully had a really understanding ally-type to rant at until I stopped actually shaking but...
&^$£.
Just. No.
Well, at least I have something pretty monumentally closer to a decision to tell the shrink tomorrow.