Hello everyone, after reading along for quite a while I now decided to also register and start posting here.
I'm an FTM from Germany and you can call me Alex or Yven, whatever floats your boat.
Growing up, I definitely was identifying as male already. When I was 4 I asked my mother to cut my hair short, with
about nine years I asked my cousins to call me 'Alex' and in 6th grade I told my then-best friends that I wished to have SRS.
I probably would've come out around the beginning of puberty, if it wasn't for these two 'best friends' because they betrayed my trust
and tried to out me to my whole class. The response was overwhelmingly weird and basically shoved me back into the closet.
From the beginning of puberty up until I was 15 I was pretty feminine, or tried to be it, but have then started to dress and act how I am
comfortable again (masculine). That was a huge step for me and took a lot of courage (due to anxiety issues) but has actually helped a bit with my anxiety.
Earlier this year I tried to come out to my parents, and even though they are generally very LGBT-supportive they are afraid that I'm too young to know and might do something that I regret later on. That's why they asked me not to come out to anyone (except maybe closest friends) until at least another year, and also they won't buy me a binder. =(
I go to therapy, mainly for my anxiety though, but my therapist knows about my gender-questioning and is lately linking it to the anxiety, however it's not really gender therapy.
The next steps for me will be that I will try to get my hands on a binder, since I have immense chest dysphoria, and also come out to close friends early next year.
Aside from being trans I'm a lover of all things artistic, specially cinematography, photography and literature.
I'm also a music lover.
Looking forward to talking to you all,
Alex =)
Welcome to Susan's.
I totally understand the being shoved back into a feminine box. Your story is definitely not unusual and I am glad you found us. There is a lot of information and friends to be made here.
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*waves hello from Germany*
Welcome! :)
Hi there! And a BIG welcome to Susan's Place!
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Janet )O(
Hi Alex, welcome to Susan's Place! I'm from Boston. I was stationed at Zweibrucken and Kaiserslautern back in the 1980's and my best memories all involve food! See you around the site!
Hugs, Devlyn
Hello Alex
welcome to Susan's. There are many people here that are going through, or have gone through the same feelings and emotions you are. There is a wealth of experience and knowledge on these forums. Along with some great resources to. Everything's right at your fingertips, so pull up a chair, relax and let your fingers do the walking. Hope to see you around the forums my new brother...! I wish you nothing but the best of luck on your journey. May the Angels always be looking upon you, and guiding you on your path.
Hugs,
Melissa Ann
Welcome to Susan's, Alex. I'm happy that you are moving forward in your transition.
:)
Thank you all very much for the warm welcome! :)
Hallo Alex!
I'm from Canada, but my family comes from Germany. We even have a tradition that your first trip "home" you get your picture beside the family's town sign! (The family name is the same as the town, so we really know where we come from.)
I hope your journey will stay Alles Gut! from now on.