Another post started me thinking about why I want to physically transition.
While it would be wonderful to look in the mirror and see me, that seems too remote for me to grasp right now. To tell the truth, I can't even imagine how I will look once I've transitioned to my male body (which is purposely happening ever so slowly)
Instead, I've seen glimpses of my male body in the way I move. When I run, I see my shoulders as broader and my deltoids more defined and my quads flexed and feel very masculine.
Now that I'm seeing a little bit of fat redistribution, I am noticing my center of balance changing. More upper body, less hips. Just ounces of change, but enough to rebalance me--and I mean rebalance in both the physical and the psyche sense. And it feels right.
Anyone else noticing differences in your body from the inside out?
Chris
So glad you found your wiggle, Hanazono!
I'm still looking for my strut!
Chris
During my days as a pick artist wannabe, I looked at online resources.
For example, don't balance your arms.
Keep them straight down while walking.
In the oppposite direction oh the OP: I have been on HRT a long time now and my whole body has significantly feminized, and I can't help but walk different and feel like I'm all boobs, butt and hips and part of me doesn't know how I feel about it. I'm pretty femme in general so you'd think I'd be sooooo happy 'bouts it, but I'm just like okay. I mean I love it but it's almost anti-climatic...hmmm.
Quote from: Hanazono on November 13, 2014, 10:28:05 PM
whoops my bad it's FTM direction. so embarrassing so sorry
No biggie. Thanks for responding!
I guess I'm getting the moves down w/out trying. Last night, a friends said I seem very in between, not just the way I look but also my body language.
(I choose to take this as a compliment. :laugh:) So, the clothes/haircut are deliberate choices to cautiously feel like myself without being out to everyone yet, but the moves are totally subconscious. Well, for the most part, anyway. Where I used to want to sit a certain way, I would make myself sit more reserved, knees together, arms in, etc. Even after all these years, I hear my mother's voice about sitting like a lady. It's never come naturally. Now I just sit the way that feels best. (Friend insists it's my whole attitude/presentation that is changing, not just the way I sit. I'm pretty happy about that!!)
Anyone (ladies or guys) notice falling into body language that fits you better now than it used to?
Chris--who is fascinated by this whole mind/body transition that seems to be happening even pre-HRT transition
Quote from: Joanna Dark on November 13, 2014, 07:37:57 PM
In the oppposite direction oh the OP: I have been on HRT a long time now and my whole body has significantly feminized, and I can't help but walk different and feel like I'm all boobs, butt and hips and part of me doesn't know how I feel about it. I'm pretty femme in general so you'd think I'd be sooooo happy 'bouts it, but I'm just like okay. I mean I love it but it's almost anti-climatic...hmmm.
Anti-climatic seems like a good place to be.
My body composition hasn't shifted much at all. I've only been working out/building muscle/loosing fat very gradually and there's very little/no HRT shift happening yet (I'm on female levels of T due to hysto but I've been on female levels for years, so that shouldn't be making a differnce now, right?) so I was wondering if I would have a gradual reaction or even notice a difference.