I'm sure y'all have better things to do, but if anyone feels like it, I could really use some support right now. I want to kill myself and I just want to talk to someone who doesn't have anything better to do for the next little while.
Hi, I'm not in a position to talk per se since I'm on a train. What's up? Why are you feeling like harming yourself?
You are experiencing antidepressant withdrawal. Suicidal thoughts are a medical emergency. Please hang in there and get to an ER as soon as possible.
Hugs,
Jill
I can't do that....
I just want someone to talk to
There are hotlines. Can you call one?
Never mind...I'll be fine. Please don't worry about me. I promise I won't do anything bad.
Hi Danielle,
I'm here and will be around for a while. What's up Hon?
If you are feeling suicidal call a help line, they do help - saved me more than once.
I'm awake if you need to talk. I know how it feels to just need to talk about it.
I'm sorry you feel that way :/ There's suicide hotline numbers pinned to the top of the Mtf Transexual Talk Forum page. You can always call one of those. They really help. I've called one before & it certainly helped me in the stressful situation I was in. Good luck & please stay calm.. :)
I'll be fine. I don't feel like coming out to a suicide hotline person and I don't want to be treated as male.
Quote from: Danielle Emmalee on November 17, 2014, 01:21:05 AM
I'll be fine. I don't feel like coming out to a suicide hotline person and I don't want to be treated as male.
They won't treat you as a male. Tell them you are a transgender woman who is feeling a bit depressed. I think they get calls from a lot of trans*people.
I don't want to come out to someone on the phone.
Quote from: Danielle Emmalee on November 17, 2014, 01:25:17 AM
I don't want to come out to someone on the phone.
Talk in the girliest voice possible? It's not like they even know you or ever will know you. It's completely anonymous
My last call went something like this.
Hi what's your name?
OK Cindy, are you in physical harm?
Can I have your phone number in case the line drops out?
OK, tell me what's bothering you.
About an hour of tearful horror of my past was let loose.
I'll be fine, seriously. You can delete this thread, sorry for bothering everyone.
I'll keep it open. I'll be here for several hours.
I'm going to sleep. Please don't worry about me.
For me..
Nothing works better than chocolate crying and listening to sad emotional music.
I total relish in my sadness.. then go to sleep and then count it off as a Britney Spears day. (Having too many right now lol)
Please dont bottle it up. Were here.
hi! those bumps in the road can get nasty sometimes . hopefully the clouds will move out soon.
I'm okay.
I'm glad.
Hugs,
Jill
Me, too! :-*
Danielle,
You did a very smart, and a very good thing. You reached out. Sometimes just knowing that there is someone, anyone who cares is enough to get us past the crisis. The hot line people are there, trained, and compassionate. They frankly don't care about gender, or sexuality, or anything else except helping you get help and/or peace. I have been on the edge more than once, and actually called from a cliff at three o'clock in the morning just before trying to fly. I don't know what was said, but I'm still here and am grateful that you are too. We lose too many to fear of being found out or misunderstood. It is worth the risk of embarrassment to keep the gift of life.
Julie
Quote from: Danielle Emmalee on November 17, 2014, 09:25:24 AM
I'm okay.
Hi,
I have had all of your problems, hopefully. My name is Curt, but I am really Katerina. My closest friends call me Kate, or Katie. I'd love to talk or listen, and girl can I listen, or talk.
In my life talking is all that works, and with maybe you that is all that will work also. I'd love to have you call this number, and I only came out last year, yet have been dealing with this issue of being a girl really, in a guy's body for 66 years.
Please call me, if you can reverse this number, I am giving it to you. 7491979145. I think you deserve to talk. You can also email me. Ask the administrator for that.
Please call.
...Kate.
Hi,
On a less worried note, I had a really tough time last week and only the day after my worst day then were things better. I reached out to everyone, including God. To God, I just said you have to do something, I don't care what, but it has to be certain.
He actually answered that prayer. God is actually there more strongly in the lives of all LGBTI, than in those without a condition as rough as that. My dreams and hopes for the younger crowd is that much that has taken place for us, in the transgender world will free us, as much as the Civil Rights Movement did 50 years ago.
When I was transgendered, no one intellectually understood it, no one medically understood it, even though my condition was in the world for thousands of years, as aptly demonstrated in India, with people like us. Now, however, even the Federal Government, through the authority of Medicare, said basically, we were wrong years ago, now we cover being Transgendered, even surgically. That happened in May of 2014.
My hope is for you youngsters to do whatever you have to, in order to fit in, but do it younger than I , so that you have fewer issues.
Parents are not always right. Friends are not always right. It seems there is fifty years of science, (and I am one of those types, sorry), on the side of there is only one therapy that works being transgendered, it is transition. One of your respondents said to be careful of false depression, which is identical to normal depression, only it is caused by this pill or that pill or that time of the month. And, yes dear many of us have a monthly emotional cycle. Mine is roughly the third week in any month, and it doesn't make any scientific sense to me and others, but it is clearly there, since transitioning. I have done that, and yes I fully intend to be a pretty as I can be, but will accept the fact that I might be to old to be pretty, female wise. And, yes I already know that all of us who are transgerndered girls, identically relate to the normal bodied girls, mentally on prettiness. None of us think we are. None of us, and none of them, for real.
I love the day, or the week after an episode of depression, when the feelings are seen for what they really are, which is real but with unseen errors at the time. At least for me.
Bye4now,
...Kate.
Well if y'alls need to talk, I'm here.
Thanks everyone for your concerns and offers for help. I am feeling much better now
Glad to hear it. *hugs* I'm here too if you need anyone else.