I have been thinking the past few days how normal and natural my life is.
6 years ago, every day seemed a challenge, new things to be learned, new situations to handle, new confrontations on a daily basis, with people who didn't know how to handle me or respond to me.
My mind, whole life was dominated by just surviving on a day to day basis and feeling good at times when I got home and could lock the door and retreat from the World.
Thoughts where centred around SRS, BA and what life would be like after I reached that point and how I was going to survive after that, I didnt really give any thought to. Would I keep my job, ever work again was a constant fear in my mind.
Well life is nothing like what I feared it would be, Its just normal.
I get up, get ready, go to work, interact with people, have a mind free and that is now being used for the greater good rather than cluttered with thoughts, feelings of the past. I interact naturally with people, smile, flirt and achieve what I want by just being me rather than putting on an act. I get home, cook with my housemate, go to the gym, training or just chill out on the sofa, with a glass of wine, having a laugh of chatting.
I have Male friends that I enjoy seeing and like going out with sociably, who treat me as nothing less than a princess at times and I like that.
I cant describe how happy I am that at times life is boring, mundane and natural........
Buffy
Isn't it nice, Buffy? I've been feeling that lately too, after so many years of struggle and, in particular, the last two and a half years of transitioning. It just feels nice, normal, and no anxiety when I wake up in the morning (except about work, or have I called my gf lately...oh wait, afk phone) and just regular.
This is what I dreamed of, although it took me a long time to realize what exactly that meant to me.
Dennis
Buffy and Dennis, I must say that you both are anything but normal! You are both exceptionally gifted people!
But I understand what you are trying to say. Life is a beach ain't it?
;)
Cindi
I will have to agree with all of you. I'm back into a routine again and I like it in away. Sometimes it gets kind of boring around here and I like being on a few of the boards that I'm on. It makes my life so not boring. I'm a normal, what you may call normal, woman and do the mundane things around the house and do my job. Yet, everyone knows who I am, but don't really care and if they do, they don't say anything. They accept me and life goes on. This is how I wanted my life to be, well maybe a little different in certain areas, working on that one. It is wonderful.
Sheila
I've always been remarkably normal. Never been "abnormal".
Quote from: Buffy on August 16, 2007, 12:10:33 AM
I have been thinking the past few days how normal and natural my life is....
....I get up, get ready, go to work, interact with people, have a mind free and that is now being used for the greater good rather than cluttered with thoughts, feelings of the past. I interact naturally with people, smile, flirt and achieve what I want by just being me...
I cant describe how happy I am that at times life is boring, mundane and natural........
Buffy
The above is a part quote...
Buffy,
I agree with you, I just live my life... a woman enjoying the day to day routines; as you say, just being natural.
Rara. x
Two weeks back in the states from SRS/BA, my life seems to be taking a turn toward the extraordinary. Well, my life has always been extra-ordinary but now even moreso.
With all due respect, One persons normal may be another persons nightmare!
What is normal anyway?
Buffy is now listed as a guest???