Hi all,
I have finally figured out after almost 44 years that I am bigendered which I honestly didn't even know was a thing until a few months ago. It was like a huge relief that washed over me when I figured out that what I am is "defined" because I always just thought I was a little odd (which never really bothered me or kept me from doing anything).
Over the last few years I have always had manicured and polished nails, longish hair, earrings and worn mascara and lipstick. Occasionally I get ma'amed when we are out and I don't really mind it. My kids have never once questioned it and neither have my coworkers except to tell me how great my nails look. I know my mom and my wife will be there for me (which I know is a huge plus).
I took a big step (for me) and researched and reached out to a gender therapist as well as a specialist doctor here in Atlanta with a good reputation within the community with appointment in early January which will give me time to get the entire informed consent thing in order and blood work, etc.
I have quite a bit of anxiety over this and just wonder what I should expect mentally - I still want to feel like "me". While I'm a bit older than a lot of you I am in pretty good shape I walk 6 miles a day, I'm not overweight and I don't smoke or drink so I'm not worried about the risk factors as much as how this will change me mentally. I see no downside of the physical changes I really just want to feel like my brain and body match up a bit better. I don't intend to have any surgery as I like all my parts. I just want to identify closer to the female end of the spectrum.
I felt like if I reached out here I could find some folks to chat with about all this until my appointments. It would help a lot since it is all I can think about - a combination of excitement, relief and anxiety. I am probably not making a lot of sense, but thanks for taking the time to read all this [emoji1]
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Good luck with your appointment. I live in North Georgia and I'm about at the same stage as you. Feel free to shoot me a message anytime.
Hugs Rikki
Thanks I'll let you know how it goes :)
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