Howdy. This will be long. I apologize.
I'm not very frequent to these forums, not anything against this place or anything, I'm just bad with staying on a forum. I'm a FTM, I've returned here because a day that I honestly didn't fully think would come, has well, come. I'll give you a little story here to start.
In my area there is a very long (12 to 18 month) waiting list to see a gender specialist. Mine came very surprisingly early at around 8 months. At the beginning of November I got my phone call to schedule an appointment. So on December 2nd I will be going to the clinic. This works out extremely well considering what else is happening in December.
A small bit of back history for me is I have very severe polycystic ovarian syndrome (PCOS) to the point my gynecologist is very concerned about me developing ovarian cancer from. Of course I ended up meeting with her through my psychiatrist of all things, but hey it works. Anyway I mentioned to her that i was transgendered. So instead of putting me on birth control, anti-androgens, and estrogen and what not to help the situation, we discussed me having a hysterectomy done. So after a lot of tests and blood stealing I got scheduled for a total hysterectomy which will be on December 11th.
Now I have been living basically full time for over a year now. I'm out at work and no one cares, probably because I pass stupidly well for pre-T. not just because my androgen levels are off the charts but I'm also 5'11" and 200lbs (apparently, learned this just a few weeks ago during pre-op, used to think i was 5'9" haha). So to say I'm blessed is an understatement.
All that said I'm not sure what will conspire at the gender clinic on tuesday but I'm just ridiculously thankful to even have a CHANCE to transition. I'm 25 years old, I live in a community where being trans is unheard of and help is damn near nonexistent. I would dream about changing gender since I learned it was possible, but never fully believed it could ever happen to me. The fact that I even have a chance to speak with a specialist about it means the world to me. Even if they tell me I need to wait, even if they tell me I'm unsuitable, which I doubt.
I'll try to update around here, but I'll likely mostly just update on youtube and my facebook, which you're welcome to add me on if you're curious, just leave me a PM saying you're from here. Both links are in my name area. I'm just really bad at upkeeping forums since I frequent MMOs. I doubt anyone will but I am going to try and do updates for my journey and do some FTM helpful reviews and what not. Among other stuff. I've just been waiting for this day to come, the day where everything goes from pipe dream to possibility.
Anyway, thanks for reading. I'm just really excited despite weather, car being a douchebag, and other factors are making this stressful. But I have faith in this, because I need to, because this is years overdue to happen, and because I know I found other people's journey's helpful to me, maybe my journey can be helpful to someone else. So I'm sorry if this all just sounds like self promotion, I'm just kind of stoked, and want to help out other folks that are going through a similar ordeal.
Anyhow, cheers.
Good luck with the op!
Yay, good luck at your therapy session and if you don't make it back between now and then, hope the surgery goes well!
Thanks guys :).
I'm kind of stoked if nothing else just at the fact i won't need to hustle tampons into mens rooms anymore after hysto LOL. Really hoping my session tuesday goes well. I'm being optimistic about it, I mean I'm what I'd consider a great candidate, so i hope they feel the same. :)
Sir I cant speak for all the ladies around here but myself Im not real keen about being addressed as "Guys" :P
I wish you the best of luck with your transition, you have bigger balls than I ever did LOL ;)
Im sure there are many here that would love to donate theirs anyway!!!