So for the last year or more I have been battling with the concept of passability. Of course most of this battle revolves around the idea of what I see looking back in the mirror and less about what others see when they look at me. As I was driving down the road this evening I came across a dress shop and as I look ever closer I feel myself falling into a depression knowing I could never wear many of those beautiful dresses. And suddenly I realize that this is one of the most fundamentally feminine feelings that I could ever have. I look at all the indicators that I am trans and realize its not one or two big things but hundreds of little things. Again I have been waiting for one or two big AHAH moments and have the ability to move to the next stage in transition. But now I realize its one day at a time.. One step at a time. Cheers here is to a 20 year plan...
Indeed. One day at a time is all any of us can do. So don't get ahead of yourself... you might think you'll never be able to wear that dress but never say never.
It is amazing how much you can change in time. I bought a pretty size 14B bra while shopping on the same day I started taking hormone pills. There was nothing to fill the bra but I thought that the day I finally fit into it would be something to look forward to. Now my pretty bra fits perfectly.
I have also been a little depressed lately but then I was promised something today that was so dear to my heart and it made my issues seem insignificant in comparison.
Here is hoping that you get your AHH moment and it comes soon. :D
I know the feeling, you wrote exactly what I wanted to come here to write today. It really sucks this feeling, some girls see amazing results so fast while i'm here not seeing too much in the results department.
Best thing I can say is take things day by day.