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Community Conversation => Transsexual talk => Male to female transsexual talk (MTF) => Topic started by: Leah443 on December 14, 2014, 01:37:38 PM

Title: Finally feeling like I'm living my life!
Post by: Leah443 on December 14, 2014, 01:37:38 PM
I recently came to a realization that nearly brought me to tears of joy. As it was, I was smiling for about 20 minutes after the thought! I realized, and I don't know why it has taken me around 9 months, but I realized that I am finally living my life, I can finally give up the charade and shed the skin that Leah was hiding under! It was tough at first, with my biological family practically disowning me, and losing a couple of friends, but the ones who have stayed and my adopted family have been amazing. Also I am finally going to shed the clumsy and unwieldy name "Justin" . It has never felt right and this is just more proof of that. But the main point is that I am SO SO SO happy with my life and in part the wonderful people at Susans have a part in that because for so long before transitioning I was worried about what others around me would think and would transitioning actually make a difference and other horrible thoughts like that and then when my Gender Health Therapist told me about your site it opened my eyes and actually made my choice for me, I was no longer alone! Anyways the main point of this is I am on my road and i have never been happier!

Love, Leah
 
Title: Re: Finally feeling like I'm living my life!
Post by: Isabel on December 14, 2014, 01:57:15 PM
Congratulations Leah!

Thank you for sharing your moment of realization in the forums.

I've had a similar moment of realization not long ago, and suddenly a new world of possibilities was open for me in front of my eyes. So I know how important this is.


Hugs,

Isabel.
Title: Re: Finally feeling like I'm living my life!
Post by: Ms Grace on December 14, 2014, 02:12:07 PM
That's great news hon, I'm really happy for you. Carry this moment with you always. :)
Title: Re: Finally feeling like I'm living my life!
Post by: Leah443 on December 14, 2014, 03:10:21 PM
Thanks girls! Its amazing, iv never been high before but I'm sure this is how it feels lol
Title: Re: Finally feeling like I'm living my life!
Post by: Jessica Merriman on December 14, 2014, 03:48:15 PM
I know how you feel girl. Life has NEVER been better for me as well. Amazing how dead we really were inside all these years because of other people proclaiming us something we were not.
Title: Re: Finally feeling like I'm living my life!
Post by: Indoctrinated on December 14, 2014, 04:00:40 PM
That's just beautiful!

Wish you forever to be happy with all my heart.
Title: Re: Finally feeling like I'm living my life!
Post by: katrinaw on December 14, 2014, 09:33:35 PM
Hi Leah, oh that is so nice to hear... the sense of well-being you must have felt.... sounds like a massive euphoric moment  8)

Keep that positive and happy outlook...

L Katy  oxoxox
Title: Re: Finally feeling like I'm living my life!
Post by: Leah443 on December 14, 2014, 09:55:08 PM
Quote from: katrinaw on December 14, 2014, 09:33:35 PM
Hi Leah, oh that is so nice to hear... the sense of well-being you must have felt.... sounds like a massive euphoric moment  8)

Keep that positive and happy outlook...

L Katy  oxoxox
Thanks! It was a massive moment for me :) It has been a long time since if had to use sleep aids. Now i just look in my mirror

Quote from: Indoctrinated on December 14, 2014, 04:00:40 PM
That's just beautiful!

Wish you forever to be happy with all my heart.
Thanks! :) I hope every body gets a realization like this and i hope this helps any new transitioners to realize that it gets so very much better!
Title: Re: Finally feeling like I'm living my life!
Post by: Steph34 on December 15, 2014, 12:29:54 PM
Quote from: Leah443 on December 14, 2014, 01:37:38 PMwhen my Gender Health Therapist told me about your site it opened my eyes and actually made my choice for me, I was no longer alone! Anyways the main point of this is I am on my road and i have never been happier
I really wish I had stumbled upon this place back in 2009 when I first considered transitioning seriously. It is so inspiring to see what transitioning has done to so many people, that I really think it would have forced my hand and prevented me from living 5 more years in despair and watching my body self-destruct. At the time, I felt like it was hopeless, that I could never be beautiful. By waiting so long, that became a self-fulfilling prophecy. Having to 'go it alone' caused me to wait until I literally had only a few months to go until I would have been bald if I had stayed in my old body; that kind of made my decision for me. It feels so good to no longer be alone in this process, especially being female I really cannot keep it all inside.

Quote from: Jessica Merriman on December 14, 2014, 03:48:15 PM
Amazing how dead we really were inside all these years because of other people proclaiming us something we were not.
I feel like I am finally alive now, but whenever someone proclaims me to be 'male' I collapse inside.
Title: Re: Finally feeling like I'm living my life!
Post by: Vicky Mitchell on December 15, 2014, 11:39:41 PM
Reading things like that help to make me feel better like I am on the right path now that I was meant to be on.


Vicky
MtF
Title: Re: Finally feeling like I'm living my life!
Post by: Leah443 on December 16, 2014, 12:08:26 AM
Quote from: Vicky Mitchell on December 15, 2014, 11:39:41 PM
Reading things like that help to make me feel better like I am on the right path now that I was meant to be on.


Vicky
MtF
Thats great! I know I am over the roof feeling good about myself and Im glad my story is helping you in some small way!