I finished my video and i figured i'd share and let everyone here learn a little more about me.
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=YGEX7w9rdlY
Phylicia, you've come a long way in a few short months. An amazing transformation, and a sweet and hopeful video. :)
You seem like an action-oriented person, so don't be too hard on yourself if your transition plan slows down a bit - or even goes sideways.
You may find that your life changes in directions you didn't anticipate, and maybe in ways you want to resist. Try to go with the flow...
Hugs!
That video really hit home for me. The pictures of you as a kid look so obviously female, then I saw someone slowly dying inside and suddenly reborn.
After I had transitioned, I ran into the lead singer from one of my former bands at a concert. To say we did not get along would be an understatement. After he figured out who I was, we talked for about 10 minutes, after which he told me that I had smiled more in that time than I did in the entire 18 months we were in a band together.
That was so powerful and inspirational. You tell how much happier you were in the later photos.
Pure courage, just courage,... it is so nice to see that you have me become w j o yo j were meant to be, what you been wanting to be for so long and you have great development and you look really good. You're on your way and I'm so glad you have support. I so relate to your family experience, its tough being the guy to hold it all up.
I look forward to your future happiness on display in the forum.
Very well done Phylicia. Congrats on your new life
Hugs,
Marissa
So beautiful an inspiring, Phylicia! Thanks for sharing your journey! <3
Very nice, thank you!
Good video, i missed some of the text as it flashed on by, but a pleasant video nonetheless
Phylicia, you and your video are beautiful and inspiring!! Thanks for sharing.
Thank you everyone. I have to say none of this would have happened without the support of the people here. It was what helped me get past the "drastic option" I had sunk to in my depression.
I don't really watch transition timeline videos anymore because I've seen so many and to me they've become the same old thing over and over.
But yours was different. We share a lot in common, such as how becoming a parent truly made you stop and think about your gender identity. It did for me, for sure. I am glad I watched it.
I'll give you a little story.
A few months after the kids were born (yes all 3 at once) we were picking them up and playing with them as normal. There is this reflex that babies have that when you pick them up they automatically turn their heads to your breast to nurse... every time that happened to me it would totally crush me because there was zero I could do about it. So I avoided doing it, and found other ways to play with them... but that helped to drive my dysphoria. It kept building and building much like yours did.
Best wishes, best of luck! I may or may not do a video of myself sooner or later. I really don't know.
Great video! I see so much of what I've been through in a lot of you good people. Same stories, same experiences.
Phylicia, congratulations on your courage and your love for life!
I admit midway I was in tears....
Thank you for creating and posting this video. A lot of feelings and thoughts are familiar. I was in tears by the end of the video. Your journey gives me strength.
Quote from: Jill F on February 18, 2015, 06:53:58 PM
That video really hit home for me. The pictures of you as a kid look so obviously female, then I saw someone slowly dying inside and suddenly reborn.
I had that same thing too. I had so many pictures where I looked like a girl, my hair was short but I looked girly. Then puberty hit and I spiraled down.
Thank you everyone. I cry every time i watch it without fail. Your responses mean so much to me. I just hope i can help anyone that needs it.
Thank you for such an inspirational video. It had a very powerful effect on me. I was so deeply moved. You made a difference in my life by the courage to share your story. Hugs Danielle
Quote from: Phyliciaraine on February 19, 2015, 08:13:42 PM
Thank you everyone. I cry every time i watch it without fail. Your responses mean so much to me. I just hope i can help anyone that needs it.
You may not realize it but I'm pretty sure you will save a life or two by giving HOPE to people who are battling gender dysphoria as you did. You are beautiful both on the inside and outside. Also to be a parent is really special and to be strong as you are is not easy.
Thank you ImagineKate,
I really do hope that i can give others hope when they see none.
Thank you so much for sharing that. Everything about the video was so perfect. I cried the whole way through, you realy touched me. Some lost soul will see that and it may even save their life. You're an amazing woman! I really liked what you said about Francis at the end, I'm going to keep that with me.
Thank you,
I don't know exactly where it came from but i know i was just thinking one day that i'm only here because of him. Because of how strong he was to resist suicide, even when it seemed like the only option. He hid me from the people that would hurt me, and comfort me at night in our dreams. I called myself a broken soul because he was a part of it and he is there no longer. I hope so too that it can touch someone that needs it.