Yo~
My name is Quinn (preferred name, anyway).
I'm an 18 year old mtf girl who, after much lurking about the forums, has decided to actually register.~
A very few of you might've seen me in the chat over the last few days.
I don't know if this is going to be a very good introduction, but here it goes....
Born and raised in Arkansas, and not particularly proud of it. Never questioned my gender identity much until I was 16-ish. I think it was around then that I first realized that I was jealous of women. I would see pretty girls and be jealous of their looks. Not exactly normal.
Then I kept having passing thoughts that I would rather be a woman. I kept trying to push the thoughts away as if they were zombies.
Then, I took noticed that every time I play an RPG (with very few exceptions), I would set my gender to female. I never really thought about it, much. I just liked it better, for some reason. (And I actually picked the armors and stuff that covered their bodies instead of showing them off.)
I always preferred books with a female protagonist. I related better to female protagonists as apposed to male.
And I always wished I had a female singing voice.
And then, at 17, I really felt it.
I knew it.
I wanted to be a woman. But it was more than that. It was as if I were supposed to be a woman. It made me sad that I could never be one....And then, I learned about transgender people.
I had never known much about trans people or anything like that. But I came across an article or something on the internet, and I realized, "That could be me." So I kept reading. And kept reading. And still kept reading.
I was sure I was transgender.
But I didn't feel like I could ever talk about it, ever transition....
Fast forward a year. My feelings had only gotten stronger.
So...I let myself feel them.
I opened up to myself.
And I read a lot, watched many videos on YouTube, and learned a lot about being transgender.
I decided that maybe transitioning was possible....
So I told my girlfriend of 2 and a half years about my feelings.
She was very supportive. That night, she put makeup on me. I felt so happy...it felt...just...right.
I eventually built up the courage to tell my close friends, and they were also supportive of me.
So...I decided to tell my grandmother. She's like a mother to me, and I've lived with her for several years.
It was hard. I shook and shivered and jerked uncontrollably, and ended up with her having to give me a xanax (I think that's what it was) to calm my nerves a bit. But she was accepting of it. She ended up getting me some sports bras and is giving me some makeup sometime soon.
She said that she would help me through this, and she is. She's taking me to the doctor to get a referral to a therapist that deals with gender identity issues. She has said that she will help me transition, should I end up doing so (which I am believe I will). Which is a big deal, considering the cost.
And so, I've been very fortunate with my limited coming out.
And now I'm here.
Hobbies: Making music (guitar, bass, keyboard, saw, vocals, and whatever else I have laying around), trying to write songs (and failing miserably), gaming, making art, making long introductions, cooking, eating, listening to awesome music, and generally being weird.
Favorite Bands: Neutral Milk Hotel, Andrew Jackson Jihad, The Mountain Goats, Nirvana (but I listen to very varied music. I go from Chuck Berry to Jefferson Airplane to Steam Powered Giraffe to The Beatles to La Sera and Lyriel and Bob Dylan and Neil Diamond and even some J-Pop/Rock and etc., etc., etc.)
Favorite Game: Gone Home
Favorite Food: Mexican
Goals for the not-so-distant future: Lose weight, transition, and start a band (anybody here game? :P )
Um...I guess that's an introduction? Yeah...I did say that I'm not great at introductions.
So...uh...hi?
hey quinn! welcome to susan's! :)
-jackson
Hi Quinn,
(Always did like that song) Welcome to Susan's. There is a lot of info here and friends to be made.
Here are some links to site rules and answers to often asked questions.
- Site Terms of Service and rules to live by (https://www.susans.org/forums/index.php/topic,2.0.html)
- Standard Terms and Definitions (https://www.susans.org/forums/index.php/topic,54369.0.html)
- Post Ranks (including when you can upload an avatar) (https://www.susans.org/forums/index.php/topic,114.0.html.)
- Reputation rules (https://www.susans.org/forums/index.php/topic,18960.0.html)
- Photo, avatars, and signature images policy (https://www.susans.org/forums/index.php/topic,59974.msg383866.html#msg383866)
- News posting & quoting guidelines (https://www.susans.org/forums/index.php/topic,174951.0.html)
If you're a gamer, it'd be good to see you on the minecraft server ;)
I'll join you with the losing weight, transition and if you'd be down for a mix of techno and heavy metal, I'm game for a band ;) lol
-Matt
Hi Quinn, welcome to Susan's Place! I live near Boston. My favourite music is AC/DC, or sometimes AC/DC! My hobbies are gardening, carving stone, reading introductions, and waking up in the morning. See you around the site!
Hugs, Devlyn
Hey!
Welcome to Susan.
Hi Quinn :icon_wave:
Welcome to Susan's :) Glad to have you here, join on in the fun
Hugs
V M
Welcome to Susan's, Quinn. Keep writing the songs. You may hit on something.
:)
hi quinn. You know, "Mighty Quinn" was my favorite song growing up, until it was replaced by "Lazy" and "Mistreated".