Hello everyone, I'm new here so sorry for not introducing myself sooner. I've been pretty busy, lurking the internet and trying to find out as much as possible on how to start HRT. Anyway, I'll give a more formal intro later. This is about my first therapy session :)
I will admit I could have opened up a little more but I felt it went well. I told her one of the reasons I joined the military was that I thought it would help me forget about wanting to transition. I didn't really go into how depressed I was while serving. Though I had some great times and I'll never forget the people I met and served with, deep down I felt broken. Numerous occasions I felt like telling the chaplain but I was too scared of what would happen. Back then they didn't even allow homosexuals to serve let alone someone suffering from gender dysphoria. While I was in I pretty much didn't have a sex life. The base was small and in the middle of nowhere. I didn't know anyone who I could talk to about any if this. Suicidal thoughts did creep into my head, though I would never commit to anything like that, the thoughts were there. I'm out of the service now and I'm not depressed like that anymore. Now I feel like I want to be reborn as the person I was meant to be and I an anxious to begin this process. I almost tried going the self medicated rout but changed my mind and decided to try it the safer way.
I set up another appointment next week. She told me that she has never wrote anyone a letter and I can understand that. She also suggested that I get into contact with local groups that meet up one day a month. She then said she would send me their info and that I should also get more involved with the on,one groups such as this one which I already planned to do. Well, anyway that was a little bit about myself and my first therapy appointment, sorry for the wall of text.
Hey Icky, welcome to Susan's, I'm new here also. Congratulations on seeing a therapist, just had my first session last week, like you I thought it went well. I think sometimes this journey ahead of us seems hard to understand, with what decisions to make and how things will turn out, but I am taking one little step at a time, and hopefully will find my inner happiness. I hope you find yours too.
Hugs, Stanna
Welcome welcome :)
I am another recent participant in the first therapy session (last friday). It felt good to talk about everything to someone's face finally and I know further therapy will be great, for all of us ;)