So....this is a bit of an odd subject for me because I don't normally like talking about this stuff, but I kind of want an outside opinion on this. My girlfriend and I live far away from each other, so when we get...intimate per se, the most we can do is like...an rp type thing, basically acting out what we would do if we were together. That's not the part that concerns me. What I've noticed is that...while I have no problem hitting "that point," the emotions I experience right after don't make sense, and the more I think back to more I realize they have always been there. Essentially, the first feeling after I hit..."that point"...is literally disgust I just feel completely gross and question why I even bothered in the first place, and I kind of hate on myself for a little. That...isn't normal. I mentioned it to my girlfriend, and while I was talking about it I realized that this might be related to my gender dysphoria. Do you think that could be what it is? Does dysphoria ever manifest this way?
You're talking about after "the big finish", right? I always had that, and for me it was part of my dysphoria.
Some kind of low is not uncommon even in cis people.
You might imagine some cuddling afterwards...
and you might have a look here:
https://www.susans.org/forums/index.php/topic,181089.msg1651430.html#msg1651430
hugs
I also share those feelings, to the point that at times it can be hard to reach "that point". I found that my sex drive sort of fell off the edge of the map after I found my self-acceptance and came out to my family. Almost as if like my mind was trying to shut the door on very male aspect of a life I no longer feel the need to try and hold onto. The feelings of disgust and the depression that follows are even more intense now. :\
Yes, I certainly experienced that. It's not an issue any more because I couldn't reach that "big finish" even if I tried!
the wrong equipment just gets in the way
Sex is dysphoric for me. I see myself as a woman with a guy, always have. Afterwards reality is there and the contrast is large.
hmmm...I dunno. I was just thinking about it lately and it doesn't seem normal to be disgusted with yourself after every time. It makes sense that it would be linked to my dysphoria
Yep I went through that pre-hrt as a teen, way before I started transition. Thankfully hrt helped immensely with this but it's still difficult to really enjoy myself sexually due to my bottom dysphoria and the fact that trying to reach a full orgasm can be pretty painful physically.