well I had court this morning, for the day my ex wife beat me up and ended our relationship. I am still being monitored until November but at least there is an end. My girl friend or maybe best and only friend decided that I am too tied to the bad things and need to learn how to let god and let live. So she moved out and is going to stay at her daughters for a while to sort things and see where I am. I have to admit that I do tend to try to take on everything as my personal battle and struggle with letting things just go. I may have pushed my very best friend and lover right out the door. I feel like such a putz, I have messed up so much for so many people and for what so I could live haha like this living. my daughter just found out she is having a baby but I am on the do not call list, so f-ing what I still love her and her children. even a text would mean the world some times.... o well guess it really doesnt matter much anyways
Hugs hon.
Having a down day myself, so I do sympathise
Hugs to both of you.
Jerri, you may need some down time to process the hurt from the attack. Perhaps discussing it with a professional would help. The scar can be long term and hurt more than you recognize on the surface.
I know this might be some controversial stuff here...... yeah lol. I edited it... but you can google the source if this helps. No I do not practice this.... but to me its empowering philosophy.
"-------- represents kindness to those who deserve it, instead of love wasted on ingrates!;
"------- represents man as just another animal, sometimes better, more often worse than those that walk on all fours, who, because of his "divine spiritual and intellectual development" has become the most vicious animal of all!"
"Self-Deciet -- It's in the Nine ----- Statement but deserves to be repeated here. Another cardinal sin. We must not pay homage to any of the sacred cows presented to us, including the roles we are expected to play ourselves. The only time self-deceit should be entered is when it is fun, and with awareness. But then, it's not self-deciet!"
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Lack of Perspective -- Again, this one can lead to a lot of pain for a -------. You must never lose sight of who and what you are, and what a threat you can be, by your very existence. We are making history right now, everyday. Always keep the wider historical and social picture in mind. That is an important key to both Lesser and Greater Magic. See the patterns and fit the things together as you want the pieces to fall into place. So not be swayed herd constraints--know that you are working on another level entirely from the rest of the world."
"Do not complain about anything to which you need not subject yourself."